it’s one of those nights, tonight. i listen to love songs, type into my phone’s notes as i stare on the dim screen thinking about you. honestly? i didn’t think i’d be writing again— it’s been so long since i last wrote an excerpt. maybe because i was used to writing about the saddest moments in my life, making my own darkness my muse and topic.

but this isn’t about that. i’m writing because i finally feel happy. everyday i get to smile, have fluttering butterflies inside of my soul and feel weightless whenever i talk to you. you don’t know how much you mean to me, and how you make everything else so beautiful in my eyes. you made me look at the world in a different perspective, and you made it so much better.

you brought change into my life that i didn’t even know i needed. scratch that— you were the change in my life that i didn’t know i needed. it’s so unusual for me to believe in fantasies, though i have my interest in one series that is purely fictional; you make my life seem like a fairy tale. or maybe, a love story in which i’m the princess and i have my own white knight. you make me forget reality.

it’s unreal how you make me feel all of these different emotions and feelings, yet it all rounds up to me loving you. ‘i love you’ are common words to us now, since we’ve been dating for almost half a year yet you don’t know how much i mean it. whenever you say those words, it’s like everything comes flashing into my thoughts.

all our firsts, the feeling when i realized that i love you, the reckless moments we’d have together and even the doubts we had along the way. everything, even your features that i remember because looking at you makes me fall inlove again. you really make me feel like loving you is the only thing my heart is fitted to do, and i’m not even complaining. forever is a long time, and i’m willing to spend a lifetime loving you and being with you.

because when i found you, i found myself. i found all the words that i didn’t know i was capable of writing or speaking, i found the inspiration and motivation i needed to pursue my passion, and i found someone who’d make me feel so safe and loved at the same time. it doesn’t really get better than this, because you’re the best and i love you.

whenever i’m with you it seems like nothing could ever go wrong, because it wont. that’s because i know we’re both the best for us. i love you so much, my jovian plutonian gravitational effect. you’re all i ever need, darling you’re amazing.