- Pretty much in a depressed state knowing that Steve's back yet he's not messaging me to tell me how his flight was, etc, all that fucking shit, and how he said Davis was "2 far" for him to visit and all that fucking shit that made me cry for hours... Alyssa's birthday today though so we went to hometown and that got my mind off a lot of things, came back and just wanted to be around people so Sam picked me up and we went to drink in the evening, which made Steve really angry and sad at me and he told me that "let's break up" and that fucking killed me man fucking killed me. Worst experience ever. I felt like a fucking toy. Came back and slept because I was so tired of this bullshit.
- Woke up with no regret except him constantly messaging me angry pusheen faces and him guilt tripping me for making him sad, all that fucking shit. But I was able to get my mind off a lot of things by hanging out with friends from TAO during Potluck on the Quad, taking pictures for Michelle Chen, eating DC lunch with Sam, eating pho dinner with Sam. Being with them really got my mind off a lot of things and made me feel a little bit better because being by myself made me ruminate in my thoughts. Studied for PSC midterm tomorrow.
- Aced that PSC midterm and now I have an A in the class officially, came back and napped after studying at coho with talie, biked and dinner with Sam at Shanghai Town DAMN the food was SO GOOD!! Came back and cleaned stuff to bring home tomorrow.
- Went to the last chem class ever, took the amtrak back home and saw Steve for the first time in 10 weeks, it was nice being around him and being all couple-y, went to watch the Avengers where he fingered me in the theater pretty hard lol, then we had a really long talk about life and how once he goes to school in usma he'll probably not see me again for the next 4 years, freaking got me crying hard as hell, fuck that shit. Came home after he walked me home but still felt like shit and wanted to talk to him, but couldnt, because he was busy and acted differently, so I forced myself to study.
- Tried to study all day today but was so distracted by last night and everything, convinced that I am dumb and cant even chem, went out to barnes and nobles, met up with Steve who came by and hung out with me, went to ranch to get some popcorn chicken, bit my finger hella fucking hard, made me cry really really bad after he decided to go to bridges during the middle of our hang out, pissed me the fuck off and made me so fucking sad, he turned it around, and we hung out for 3 hours. Should've been much longer.
- Woke up, studied at home, went to get a horrible ugly ass haircut, went to get eyes examed, came home for a brief hour and met up with Steve and ran around albany, up solano, walked back and it was just nice being around him, taking pictures, cracking jokes, picked ray up from work, tried to study some more chem in the meanwhile.
- Woke up later than usual got a better sleep even though eyes were tired and A was being such a butthole in the morning being loud and stuff, studied Chem at taytah drinking thai iced tea and it was nice and relaxing, came back, took shuttle back to Davis and sat next to robert but it became increasingly hot as hell, studied in the library for two hours before coming back to eat sweet potato chips and cup of noodles, and studying a bit more...im so scared lmao.
- Woke up earlier to study for stats final, ate lunch, fucking 105 degrees today, went to take chem final, bombed it and knew my fate, took stats midterm and also bombed it, feeling like eh but happy cuz i was done, came back and relaxed a bit before having dinner at ohana with sam, hanging outside segundo just talking as the weather cooled down, talked with Steve on the phone before studying NPB.
- Relaxed all day today, was able to sleep in, studied some NPB, went to downtown to return textbook, get some hometown to satisfy my chinese cravings, tried to do a photoshoot but it was too gloomy for any good shit, came back and watched The Best of Me and listened to music, relax.
- Took the NPB final and became regretful about a lot of things such as what I wrote as the answers to most of them, really gloomy day but that was really nice because it wasn't hot at all, took nap after that 8am final, cleaned up my entire room and packed everything with bethany, dinner with samuel at pizza and grill and it was delicious! came back and packed more, watched The Stolen Years and was completely freaked out by the ending, moved stuff to Beverly's and that took until 2am and got me so tired...
- STEVE CAME IN THE MORNING! AND spent the whole day with me here at Davis, ate at the DC, showed him around the farm and campus and downtown but he was complaining about everything, the weather, the boredom, etc and it got me thinking a lot about things, cuddled a lot, slept a lot, ate a lot, wrestled a lot, etc, came back to albany and felt like he went AWOL completely and that got me really sad that I couldnt even sleep, tried talking to him but he just ignored me lol. dont even know what to say.
- Slept, woke up and saw Steve at AHS even though he did not even seemed stoked to see me wtf lol, ethan's graduation, hanging out with them before coming home to get ready for RAY'S graduation, took lots of pics, dinner at Farm Burger with the two graduates, came back and relaxed!~
- Saturday was just me going around doing errands, worked my first shift at Kirins and it was so stressful! Came back home completely pooped and tired and sleepy but didnt get a good sleep.
- Didnt get a good sleep because of the loud ass birds and inconsiderate family, met up with Faustine, Vivian and Regina and reunited and was able to relax and chat a bit before I had to go to work as my second shift at the restaurant, messed up more times than I did the first time so I was sad.....
- Had my first day of classes at BCC and found out that a lot of friends are in my classes so i dont need to worry about being lonely or anything, saw Aamina so that was nice, took the bart back and ran to bridges to spend a little time with Steve and he walked me home!
- Woke up at like freaking 7:30 to hang out with Steve at 8:15am, went to get breakfast at sunny side cafe, took the bus to Berkeley, took a nap on the grass (it was really nice), went to the church to get fingeredddddd but almost got caught holy shit never again, went to purple kow to get some boba, came back to Albany and I walked home because he had to go house, I came home and rested and almost napped but posted pictures instead, went out to meet up with Dad and ate dinner at thai restaurant, went to Marshalls, but came back to go to bridges with my babe and did some rock climbing here and there :)
- Really sore from last night, woke up and ate some food before going to class at BCC, classes were boring today, had my oral presentation, came back and had a phone call with Steve for 20 minutes as he walked back from bridges.
- Steve came to my house and we ducked and we had some fun in the living room! Went to Grazzy's to get some lunch, walked around some because he made me sad from answering so many phone calls during the time we were together, saw Naomi and Linnea for a second before going to work till 9, Steve stopped by and it was cute!~
- Went to taytah to work on some studying before shopping for work shoes and clothes at el cerrito, got some sushi, went to work, after work miranda picked me up and we went to have some drinks at the get together party where I saw vivian, belgutei, ken, regina etc all those people and it was just really fun getting buzzed lol.
- Woke up, went to pick up phone from miranda at krav maga, went to ranch for eye appointment and had lunch by myself because I still had a headache, came back and rested a moment and did laundry before going to work, steve stopped by for like 10 minutes which was nice.
- Hung out with Steve in the morning from 9-11:45 basically we went to the crepe place and got breakfast, he fixed my heart necklace, we walked to petco to look at hamsters, walked around, and eventually ended up at his house where I got to see them pack everything, he fingered me a bit and I gave him a BJ, he left and I loitered around his house for a bit before leaving to meet up with Dad and Ray to eat lunch at Bowl'd, worked at Kirin's and it was pretty freaking busy and stressful because of Father's Day....! Came home and tried to study for philosophy quiz tomorrow but just fell asleep.
- Woke up at 11 which was really nice, walked past Steve's house and saw him loading the truck with his cousin, bussed to Berkeley to take classes all the way till the evening.
- Tuesday was Tuesday but I got to rest for the first time in a week so I slept in, ignored Steve all day because he made me mad, watched Titanic and got the feels again for jack and rose, went out to have dinner at Bowl'd with Vivian, Regina and Faustine, and then came home.
- Woke up, plan was to hang out with Steve but he came from Palo Alto a little later than expected, so we hung out a little after I got up, met up and almost got a hammy but then rationed out the logistics, got lunch at Panda's, he had a limp so we walked slowly and minimally such as to loiter and go to taytah which was nice, took pics, "Yes, my name is Julie Kao!" to the fedex person on the phone!~, bussed to Berkeley to take classes, came back and had a 10 minute phone call with Steve as he and his cousin caught a stingray....?
- Thursday I took bart to berkeley and gave aamina her present, Steve made me sad because he over worried about his stupid boots, I came home and relaxed a bit before going to work in the evening.
- Woke up, met up with Steve for the last time as he's going to west point tomorrow, we meet up at Taytah, got hammys!! ... TWO, which was one more than I expected, ate lunch at Ranch 99, went to Bridges, went and got a haircut, went freaking everywhere, we said our good byes and I went to pick up my glasses from ranch, went to work and then came home to watch drama and relax.
- Woke up earlier to have a phone call with Steve, but his flight got delayed because he missed it so we ended up chatting and calling on and off during my sleep, ended up sleeping till noon because of lack of sleep, lunch with Dad and Ray, exchanged hammy aquarium at petco, bought clothes at Ross, went to work and got off earlier because no people wanna eat at Kirin's...
- Woke up and went to church, steve made me sad after I came back, went to eat lunch at Bay street with the stupid family, came back and worked, Steve didnt really talk to me until the evening, when he couldnt sleep and we began arguing about a lot of things and he got kind of annoyed at me...
- Steve left without sending me one last text message. Made me kind of sad and bummed but I just went to class, wore my new shoes so that gave me confidence, learned about natural deduction so that was pretty interesting, sent steve a letter regardless, had my classes, came back in the evening and just relaxed.
- Today was a free day but Dad took us to vacaville outlets and i died from the heat as well as the exhaustion of having to spend more than 2 hours in Coach, got new clothes, ate in n out, had pho for dinner, came back and studied for Philosophy quiz tomorrow!
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