• Yukio Mishima - The Temple of the Golden Pavilion

To me, this feels similar to seeing something so cute you can't bear it - so you have to discard it. Many memorable quotes. Is evil possible on Earth? I've missed many things that would make sense in an analysis. I need to learn how to read books, really. Related to the main character in terms of being disassociated from the world.

• A.Huxley - Island

Not sure if I will ever finish this book because it genuinely feels off. Like, yes, I agree that what Huxley's describing is a cute utopia and it would be nice to have that irl. HOWEVER. It feels like a blind critique of the world that he simply got bored of at the end of his life - the old West with its pragmatism. Trying to be clever & failing somehow. I get it that you got high on mescaline, yes.

• R.Bach - Illusions: The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah

While I agree with most of what the author has to say, something is holding me back from believing him 100%... The story is simple and engaging, filled with many quotes I appreciated. It made me feel like an advanced soul myself because a lot of what's happening I am aware of. It even got me weirdly emotional at the end, although I kinda knew what would happen. The author created a very light and dreamy atmosphere, it shows that he's an aviator. Don't need to impress the world. My task is to live a happy life.

• F. Dostoyevsky - The Brothers Karamazov

I DIED SO MANY TIMES WHILE READING It's a masterpiece not in a regular sense. Hard to process the chaos that is happening in the book, I've saved quotes from most every page. How could a person know what I'm thinking?????? How could he know about my ecstatic experiences and happiness that feels so impossibly illogical to others... I like Alyosha most of all, however Ivan's scepticism also resonates, and Mitya's acceptance of his absurd fate also. It's like certain aspects of my soul were made into ink that Dostoyevsky wrote this book with. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS

• Y. Mishima - Thirst for Love

I understand Etsuko well in certain aspects (feeling at odds with oneself but also being sure of one's innocence & normal-ness, wanting to be hurt in a way, etc). Should continue experiencing Mishima, glad I got a collection.