Im stressed the fuck out. I hate money and people right now. Lol.. I have to pay house bills this week and its stressing me out because I'm suppose to be saving money for a car, but I can't save as much as I did last year because of all these fucking bills. I have my own bills to pay and my dads and then on top of that I have to worry about my grandpa, ugh. And taxes! Omg I beyond hate tax season. Such a pain in the ass lol. But whatever's. and I seriously don't want to redo my fafsa! Ugh, they're just like so much to do this month. And I feel like I have to worry about everyone in my life first before I worry about me. Because that's just me. I'm such a dumbass sometimes.. Lol. And fuck the bitches that are trying to mess with me right now... I wish I could tell my boyfriend but I can't because he's going through things and if I tell him the stuff that's going through my head it'll mess things up... Also I think I want a second job or go back to dance. It's one of those. I really want to dance again, and I want a second job, extra money is a plus right now. I want to move out so badly but I need a car ); can't move out without one. I'm going to school, work here and there, going to the hospital to support and help my grandpa, study...workout. I haven't been sleeping lately... And if I do it's just for 2-4 hours only. Cause that's all the time I have. Everyday (except when I take days off to go to the hospital) I wake up at 4am to catch my 530 train to try and make it on time for my 8am class. It takes pretty long to get to sf.. I think all I need is sleep. I've dealt with this before.. But I think family drama and money is affecting me badly right now.. I'm at the point where I feel numb with my family and just tired. I just don't have the energy to pretend to like some people in this house anymore..