| I can't begin to express how disappointed i am in my boyfriend.. Like through everything we've been through... He would flirt with someone and on top of that text her? I would never let someone come into our relationship like that. Why would you even consider making me feel that way..Im not suppose to feel jealous... You're suppose to make other bitches jealous.. I just don't understand why. And like my ass is giving you a second chance? I honestly don't even know why i did that. Because I lost so much feelings right there, and lost a whole lot of damn respect for you. It hurts so much, but at the same time i kind of understand. BUT ALSO at the same time it just shows you're willing to let someone get in between our relationship. I DONT DO THAT BULLSHIT. Like idk i guess I'm trying to process what just happened. But best believe I'm not making him my only option... Because even though I "l... jul 24 2014 ∞
jul 24 2014 + Im having selfish thoughts right now. Idk if im upset or sad. Im even indecisive about my emotions, wtf. Hah. Anyways. I guess im kind of upset that I only get to see my boyfriend on sundays. But we've been squeezing saturday night in. Im only upset because he chooses the days we hangout to make plans like going to a show. I mean I dont mind he goes to those kinds of things.. Its just kind of inconsiderate how he does it on the days we spend time together. I try not to do that. But I mean if I make plans at least Ill ask him if he wants to go. Idk I might just be acting selfish right now, ha. Oh well. I kinda lied to him that i was fine with it and that im going with samantha and robert. Truth is, im probably not going to go. Or if I do go Ill go with someone else. Not trying to 3rd wheel it. Might consider going to the club with angel and angelica and get my ratchet on. Aint gonna lie, I ... dec 11 2013 ∞
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oct 19 2013 + "If you say you love me, I'll say it back" sep 20 2013 ∞
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sep 3 2013 + I really need some girlfriends.. I thought I had a solid girlfriend but she really just back stabbed me.. Out of all the friends I had I never thought she would be the one to do that to me. First of all, I had her back.. even though she could be so annoying, I would have her back no matter what. But I guess it wasnt like that with her. Hanging out with my cousin talking sh*t about me so she can be close with her. And then she lies to me about one of my boyfriends past. She knew how uncomfortable I would be with that, I would never put her in that position if she had a bf. Thats so uncomfortable being in a room with your lovers past. I mean I was pretty mad for so many reasons that night. And that night I told myself it was over between me and her. And this is also why I barely hangout with girls. Ella was the only cool girl -__- but shes like a dude LOL. But I cant even hangout with her be... jan 11 2013 ∞
jan 11 2013 + I always hear about people that had a surprise birthday party or just a surprise date or just something that I’ve always wanted to happen to me. I think it’s pretty small but I don’t know. I’ve been surprised before but not anything too crazy. It’s just super hard to catch me off guard because I always suspect something -_-… I guess it’s been a while. dec 20 2012 ∞
dec 20 2012 + As crazy as I may sound, you are still the biggest part of me. You are still the person I think of when I wake up and right before I go to sleep. Everything reminds me of you, places we went, things you said, things we ate, or did. I miss everything about you. Even if we were such at a random confusing point. I guess I saw the best in you, that no one else did. I constantly believed in you, and I lowered my standards hoping that maybe you’d see that we were the perfect combination. But wait, maybe I only saw that. Maybe you were the one for me, but I wasn’t the one for you… may 31 2012 ∞
may 31 2012 + GUYS, GO FOR THE LADIES WHO HAVE NO TIME. I know this doesn’t make sense, but let me shed some light for you. The girls in my life are amazing, and it’s because they’re doing big things with their lives. Independent womyn are always busy and on a schedule. In other words, we’re not hiding guys.. we just always have things to take care of. We work or go to school full-time, sometimes both. We take care of siblings, parents, or other family members. We’re too tired to party, so we sleep in and stay home during our free time. Days are off dedicated to running errands and doing homework. Going out to us is considered: coffee shops, grocery shopping, school events, or the movies. We spend more time in our own heads than with others, but when we decide to go out we wholeheartedly let our company know they’re appreciated. Though, sarcasm and delirium is always present. And since we’... dec 29 2011 ∞
dec 29 2011 + I’m the type of girl that loves it when a guy expresses how they feel about me. Although it may not be something exclusive, the little things of any sort would make me extremely happy. I love how they treat me like I’m the only girl in the world; a queen in his life as he is a king in mine. dec 18 2011 ∞
dec 18 2011 + It’s funny, men are always saying that they are different and that they aren’t like the other guys, but in my opinion, all of that is bull shit. I’m tired of seeing you amateur “wannabe” player boys thinking that life is all about getting pussy, money, and who the hell knows what. It pisses me off because no one seems to have any damn respect for anyone anymore. Guys are pigs, guys are Neanderthal’s, guys are ridiculous in every possible way. It’s rare to find a down ass homie that’s true to his word. A lot of guys these days are all talk and can never back their shit up. Homewreckers, homie hoppers, disrespectful kids who believe that they know everything in this god forsaken world, they’re all an annoyance in my life.-Henry Word. dec 18 2011 ∞
dec 18 2011 + I never really ask anything for christmas because thats not what christmas is really about, but seeing the look on peoples faces when you buy them something and they smile because its what they wanted or really like, its one of the most beautiful moments in life. Especially with little kids and family. :) But if christmas was about buying stuff then this would be my ideal wishlist! Haha =) I love to keep things simple but here!
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dec 17 2011 + I’ve never showed anybody who I can truly be because I’ve never found anybody who can truly handle me. Truth be told, I ain’t easy to read. Though I may potray a simplistic exterior, underneath lies a complex individual. dec 19 2010 ∞
nov 19 2011 + Yes, losing your heart's desire is tragic. But gaining your heart's desire? That's all you can hope for. This year I wished for love... to immerse myself in someone else and to wake a heart long afraid to feel. My wish was granted. And if having that is tragic, then give me tragedy. Because I wouldn't give it back for the world. nov 22 2010 ∞
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nov 6 2010 + "We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has only happened once, and that’s why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I’ll never forget a single moment of it." sep 28 2010 ∞
sep 28 2010 + "Feelings were never meant to be owned. For example, you may be happy now because someone did something for you that made your day, but you won’t own that happy feeling forever just because someone did that for you today. It isn’t because you were not satisfied, but you didn’t learn then. If I had to put it, I’d say feelings are more like experiences. To truly understand a feeling, you have to learn from it, grow with it. Perhaps learning why or what really made you happy today may let you cherish and keep the happiness with you longer. Was it because of the effort? Or simply because it was someone ‘special’? Either way, if all you did was just try to own that happiness, you will never find it back. But if you’d try to learn from it, every time you look back at that person; you smile, because you are reminded of everything they did for you. Maybe feelings are the true lessons... sep 28 2010 ∞
sep 28 2010 + "We all have that boy; he’s the boy we try to pretend we aren’t looking for as we make our way to class. He’s the boy that we lie about and claim to not care about anymore. He’s the boy that gives you the cliché butterflies, complete with the weakness in the knees. He’s the boy we’re thinking about as we read this. I think every single girl has this boy, and every single girl will remember him forever - he’s not the one for us, but he’ll always be somewhere in our hearts." sep 28 2010 ∞
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These girls are the best, what can i say... we make a perfect package. And the bond we have, i dont think noone can ever break :) Angelica i met first, my sophmore year. In english 2, and damn that class was crackinnn'! We had the "crew". Johnison, Colleena, Angelica, Sarinna, Sun, Jp, Mix, Hamed, Dan! THOSE WERE THE DAYS! haha. The best english class ever! Im glad i met her and didnt transfer out right away. Grace though, i remember meeting her because of angelica. Met in the 200s and went to go health center. She was wearing red too, why i remember? haha cause we started talking about newark people. I didnt know she went to snow school! i remember talking about antone. HAHA man that was hilarious. Later on in the year we became 3 :) KAG, well suppose to be KAGA (alex) but he did his own thing. These girls a... jul 2 2010 ∞
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This boy... was suppose to be the A in kaga.. haha he stil is but its just mostly kag now =/ . But i have mad love for this dude. Real talk i have so much in common with him. He has a big future going on for him and i respect that about him, going after what he wants. I can already see it, him being in the fashion business. Oh yeah baby. ;D He can do it. I know he can, we've been talking about this since what? sophmore year. Him being in the fashion industry and me being in the motion pictures and television industry. HAHA, basically sounds like hollywood to me! I remember making plans with him. How we'll live in LA in the hills or something, and have huge parties and kickin' it all the time. Him being my stylist =] LOL good times. I hope one day we have a future together. Not in a gf/bf way, but i mean like ... jul 2 2010 ∞
jul 2 2010 + Something easy to keep, but hard to get back. Trust, to me, is an importance in life. If I feel like I can not trust you, then we probably aren’t on good terms. Although there are people that I trust more often then others, having a sense of trust in someone is definitely a plus. I can’t stand it when people lie to me and I find out someway or another. It’s degrading to see someone that you thought you could trust lie to your face like that. I also hate it when people make false accusation about others, it is so disappointing. Trust and honesty plays a large role in a relationship. It keeps the bond true and flawless because no ties are being cut off by a lie. I believe that people should always be truthful, whether it may hurt a person or not because what’s the point of lying if it’s not something that you meant? You could also be decent enough to say certain things in an easier... jul 1 2010 ∞
jul 8 2010 + I find it extremely amazing how it has already been somewhat days since things have been falling out of place. It’s extraordinary how I’m able to with-stand all the pain that you’ve put me through at times with your actions and words. Sometimes, it hurts to notice how comfortable you are in calling me by my name rather than babe or baby. It pains me to know how well you have gotten along without me, although we barely hangout and text almost everday,still there always seem to be a large chunk missing. Maybe it’s just me missing your company and being able to call you my boyfriend or maybe it’s just that we have sort of gotten used to how things are already. I hope not. Although I feel this way, I am quite grateful that I’m still the first girl that you wake up thinking about and the last girl that you go to bed dreaming of. Sometimes I wish time would move along quicker so that... jun 27 2010 ∞
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My mind thinks too much. It's literally all over the place. I've thought up, down, sideways, diagonal, name it I have probably done it. Over thinking man. Ruins me sometimes. Anyways... Blaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Im so blessed to have the best boyfriend ever. I have never loved someone so much in my life. Im not sure if he has ever been in love.. we never really talk about our past. But yeah, idk if hes ever been. I know i thought i was in my past. But never really loved someone like i loved brandend. Haha. Wow i sound so stupid for even blogging this. He takes care of me the best way he can. I love how he makes me realize that im happy about the little things in life. Like seriously.. haha. The thing i love most about him is that he tries to make the best out of everything he/we have. Even the little things. Like I didnt have a mug for my hot chocolate, we used a measuring cup :) Dont have nice pl... jan 22 2014 ∞
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sep 20 2013 + Sometimes a girl just wants to be loved. In my opinion, even though all the romantic gestures may seem cheesy, the ladies will love it no matter what. Guys shouldn't be afraid or shy when it comes to their woman. Buy her some flowers, hug and kiss her in front of her or your friends, show her off, tell her she's beautiful, notice what she wears or how she changes her makeup, compliment her, open the car door for her, walk her out, walk her to the door, tell her you love her, if you don't yet then tell her you really like her, show her that she's your world. All these things I just mentioned are very RARE in a couple. And the couples I see that do these things make me believe that love lasts forever.. I mean vice versa, girls should do the same thing for their man, treat and love eachother unconditionally. sep 3 2013 ∞
sep 3 2013 + " I like Beautiful melodies tellin' me terrible things" feb 8 2013 ∞
feb 8 2013 + Where to even start.. lol. My boyfriend. Hes amazing. When we first started talking it was a little unexpected. Then we stopped because of something... then months later we started dating/talking again. My feelings at the time were freakin confusing. Ive never had a time in my life where I was actually indecisive about my feelings. Usually when I date someone I know what I want. Haha but anyway, since after my birthday in 2011 hes changed so much. He may not notice that, or maybe he does. Hes opened up to me a lot too.. I guess its fair I do the same. Its not fair to him that I havent been opening up. Its so hard for me.. But im really trying. Im really falling for this guy everyday haha. Thank the lawd he doesnt read this. I sound so stupid :) dec 20 2012 ∞
jan 11 2013 + It’s kinda sad that every single day, different people go through the same shit we go through. It’s sad because I could understand what they are going through and I put myself into their shoes, re-living every single second. When the going gets tough, you then realize that it either breaks you or makes you. We find reasons to blame - we look at society and wonder why it did what it did, but while we are too busy contemplating on what happened, we lose sight of what IS happening. We wait too long, only allowing the time to consume our every happy moments in life. We do shit we don’t mean to do and by the time we realize what we did, it would have been just a little too late. Now we sit around, wondering how the hell things got the way they are, only to realize that we caused our own pain, yet alone created our own happiness. We all make mistakes, BUT IT TAKES A LOT MORE HEART TO FIX ... mar 14 2012 ∞
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I do not necessarily have just one fear when it comes to relationships, but generally, it would have to be the feeling of having everything one day, then waking up the next morning with nothing. Time quickly passes by and you will never know what hit you. “Shit happens.” If I had to add to what my fears are, it would have to be the act of being lied to and/or cheated on. Personally, I have learned that if you live each day with fear, you will never be genuinely happy with your life. Never let someone be a priority in your life if you are not theirs. Never trust too much because disappointment lies in every waking eye. Lastly, never give in too quickly to the blindness of love because it shall be the death of you. Fear - “Fear is the mind killer. Fear is the littl... dec 18 2011 ∞
dec 18 2011 + One day, they will wake up and realize how unhappy they are without you. They will realize how lonely it is to not have you by their side. Some day, somewhere in the future, they will finally understand that they honestly left the best thing in their lives behind. Until then, the pain will always be left in your heart until one day it heals and leaves a scar. Until then, you will need to stay strong because one of these days, it will be their turn to miss everything. dec 18 2011 ∞
dec 18 2011 + This week has been a tough week, i worked a lot of hours for one of my roles and on top of that i feel out of place with my friends, and my dad just got his surgery on friday. One of the worst feelings ever is having to sit and wait for the news to see if your loved ones will make it. But its life, and thats why im so calm about it. I pray that my dad doesnt have cancer, but waiting for the news is killing me inside. Its a struggle but i dont consider this a problem. I dont consider my struggles as problems anymore because people have it worse than i do. dec 17 2011 ∞
dec 17 2011 + I sympathize to those who doesn’t realize what they’ve got til it’s gone, forreal. If you’ve got somethin’ good going on with your life, make efforts to keep it that way. When you can’t have that specific thing you had before and mistreatin’ the goodshit that you lack to see, your mind lingers on the: “how, why, and what” had caused for that thing to disappear. Save yourself from insanity! When you got somethin’ good with your family, lady/man, friends, keep it that way, it ain’t a good feelin’ to havin somethin’ good walkin’ away. dec 19 2010 ∞
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jan 6 2011 + "It’s not that I miss you. I just, for some reason, keep thinking you’re going to walk through that door and tell me that you miss me and you want me and can’t imagine your life without me. I keep thinking you need me and you’re randomly going to call me, IM me, or text me. I keep waiting for the moment you’re going to man up and tell me all this, then I realize why you haven’t done it yet because none of it’s true. You’ve moved on now, and you’re happy. Without me." sep 28 2010 ∞
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jul 31 2011 + 'Sometimes you get that strange feeling that everythings going good, then reality switches on you,leaving you way misunderstood, thinking that the group was going all good and swell, then the noticability when pass my mind, so i couldnt even tell, no texts, no phone calls, you guys been keeping it on the low, chillen and having sessions without even lettin me know, chillen with the one guy/girl you talked shit about and trying to become more pinnacle, but it seems so pitiful, how youre just acting so hypocritical, so dont come back, talking all this shit you dont even mean, cause im ready to pour out the words like water from a canteen, leaving you breathless, choked out from my green, blunt going through my vains, green got me speaking the truth, but im gonna keep bittersweet , like a little kids sweet tooth, this is the real thing, no more being promo, its time to be better the good enou... sep 26 2010 ∞
sep 26 2010 + As much as I enjoy the concept of being “just friends,” in reality, it’s a bizarre form of torture. Thoughts of it contemplatin’ in my mind " dec 19 2010 ∞
dec 19 2010 + I think people pay too much attention to what they dont have then what they do have. The fact that we, as people, sometimes care too much is a great thing, but it also frightens me just a tad bit. Its not that caring too much is a bad thing. But it could be the reason why people have been hurting so much. Once we have a good thing in our life, we tend to think that this will never leave because during the spur of the moment, its basically considered apart of your life, apart of you. Reality is, that special thing in your life could leave anytime they want, with or without any notice. I also believe that we are the founders of our own destiny and happiness. We do certain things because we choose to. We do it because it makes us happy to see someone else happy, but little do we all know, that we can just stop it entirely. Its interesting how people always say that they are in love when reall... jul 9 2010 ∞
jul 9 2010 + Its amazing how days are dragging by and yet, it seems like we were just together yesterday. I dont feel the need to write about my feelings anymore because ive realized that it hasnt really helped me with anything other than ranting to people aobut my life. I feel like my rants lead to endless trouble and it branches out to more and more insecurities. Although this may be true, writing down my feelings is the only time where i could collect my thoughts, maybe not entirely, but a good portion of it. I will be completely honest with you, I feel like we're still scared or not ready to come back, even though i said id try to win you back. Im still scared to admit that i want to come back for sure and that brings me disappointment. There are many nights where ive needed you and days where i just want to show you some affection. I may be asking or saying too much because we are not together, bu... jul 7 2010 ∞
jul 11 2010 + I know that ive changed a whole lot since this whole thing happened, but today, todays going to be different. I can already feel the extra burst of energy. I can tell that things are going to be different from now on. Im going to live up to my own happiness. Live for what i want. Live for what i need. Ive been so stressed lately that i dont know where to begin. Im going to take things slowly, one at a time. finish my school work, chase my dreams, spend time with friends, eat normal, etc. As for us, its like everyone has said - "If its meant to be, it will find its way to happen." Im sorry for acting so strange lately, but i guess its because i didnt know how to handle myself. As I slept through the night, Ive thought about how i could change this problem and finally, Ive come to a conclusion. "Actions speak louder than words" so i suppose that i shall show you rather than tell you. Since i... jul 7 2010 ∞
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jan 23 2014 + It sucks when you only get to see your lover once a week. It's bad enough it's only a day once a week now. I also kinda dislike how he made plans. I barely get to see him.. Oh well. I guess I'm being selfish.. Ugh nov 24 2013 ∞
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oct 9 2013 + I haven't felt so sad in so long... To this fall apart made me cry today. How do you abandon your own child? I can definitely understand if the child isn't your blood, but your own blood? And on top of that we didn't even do anything to make you hate us. As a father, you always said "you should know what's right and what's wrong". Well now it's your turn, open your fucking eyes and realize that giving up on your child just means that you can't handle it anymore and everyone was right. Hey, maybe you do need a break but don't say that you're going to LEAVE. Come back and face your problems. Everyone has them and just because for once you're the one with the problem now, you're gonna go and runaway. You had the option of choosing your family over your girlfriend. You say you're not choosing her but your actions speak otherwise. You move out when she moves out but not move in with her? Okay, ... sep 10 2013 ∞
sep 11 2013 + Oh my god I start school tomorrow.. I honestly don't want to go but I'm actually kind of looking forward to it. I'm also looking forward to getting back into the studio with my friend brooks and start writing some lyrics! I have so much sh*t in my music pad. I can't wait to put some melody with it, I mean I kind of already have some melody it's just a mess.. I need to put it together. It's like a puzzle lol. I think we already know what the album will be called even though we're still debating on it. We really like serendipity just because we know most of our songs is basically the subject. Lol wells, I can't wait. I like doing this but it's not really something I'd want as a career, everyone keeps asking if music is my major haha. sep 3 2013 ∞
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Its funny how I put up this front about not showing that it bothers me, but deep down, it’s killing me. I don’t know. Each day still gets harder and harder, but now that I think about it, hiding my feelings and not saying how I feel to anyone might be a better option for me. Life has been a lot different without you. It’s an amazing thought how you’ve put me through all of these tests and obstacles and in the end, it’s still you that I want. Life, according to how I live it, is incredibly unfair. I don’t know what to think anymore. Waiting is painful, but not waiting is like death. Is it the fact that I’m still here for you no matter what, the reason why it’s so hard on the both of us? Have you ever thought how it would be like if I weren’t there anym... feb 11 2013 ∞
feb 11 2013 + Im stressed the fuck out. I hate money and people right now. Lol.. I have to pay house bills this week and its stressing me out because I'm suppose to be saving money for a car, but I can't save as much as I did last year because of all these fucking bills. I have my own bills to pay and my dads and then on top of that I have to worry about my grandpa, ugh. And taxes! Omg I beyond hate tax season. Such a pain in the ass lol. But whatever's. and I seriously don't want to redo my fafsa! Ugh, they're just like so much to do this month. And I feel like I have to worry about everyone in my life first before I worry about me. Because that's just me. I'm such a dumbass sometimes.. Lol. And fuck the bitches that are trying to mess with me right now... I wish I could tell my boyfriend but I can't because he's going through things and if I tell him the stuff that's going through my head it'll mess t... feb 8 2013 ∞
feb 8 2013 + I think I lost my passion for the things I love to do.. I dont know why. And I havent been happy lately.. Im trying to figure out why but I cant, and it sucks. -__- Acting, dancing, planning events, working, writing, etc. I really lost my passion for it. Maybe its just a phase im going through right now, or somethings affecting me and I havent realized it yet. UGH, I dont know :( But I want to get back into doing the things I love. I want that feeling back. jan 11 2013 ∞
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dec 5 2012 + Often times we forget about the ones we love most. We forget how to treat them, how to express our love to them, and even forget to show our true feelings to them. We allow our social life to take over us. We allow school to defeat us. Yet, we have all this time to do other things, but never enough time to acknowledge those we care about most. dec 18 2011 ∞
dec 18 2011 + Fuck the bitches who said I wouldn’t be anything. I grew up, now bitches be giving me everything. Got their wallets emptying, and now I’m sitting here with the steeze that I’m carrying. I stepped up my grind, just in time for the rhymes that go through my mind, which cannot define how our two hearts were simply combined. Filled with doubt, I cannot comprehend, why my heart fell for this fellow friend. Although we have had our differences, the goods created the vivid images that gave me the privileges to express my love in front of our witnesses. dec 18 2011 ∞
dec 18 2011 + GUYS, dont you hate it when other guys constantly check out your lady when you are standing right next to them. Doesnt it get you so aggravated, but at the same time it makes you feel a tad bit proud because they’re looking at YOUR girl. If someone has the nerve to hit on my guy while I am gone for a second or even in front of me, I will confront her in the nastiest way possible. Of course, I would not throw a fist or anything violent, but I would give them the dirtiest look and eventually it leads to something. Knowing me, I’m not a drama type of person so when it does happens, it’s usually someone who has ticked me off to an extent. I am a nice girl, really. I just don’t like it when people try to step all over me, even if they didn’t mean it intentionally. I don’t take shit from anyone, whether what race, size, and age they are. If you come off as a dick/bitch, I will stand ... dec 18 2011 ∞
dec 18 2011 + You're not sorry. But you should be. Do you know what my mother said to me when I told her I wanted to start a company? She said your chances are one in a million. And I said maybe I'm that one, and she said you're not. And she was wrong. And whatever she thought she saw in me, was wrong. Because I am one in a million. And there is a child out there who has something so special inside of them but who's life is so miserable because they think that nobody wants them. And I could be great mother to that child, no matter their age or race or sex. I could help them find what makes them special. And if you can't see that then you're wrong, just like my mother, so why don't you go ahead and write that down? sep 6 2010 ∞
nov 19 2011 + This is actually really lengthy, and I haven’t written anything of this length in a while. You really don’t have to read this. It’s just something that I thought of tonight, and I just felt like writing about it for the sake of remembering. Now this is not meant to be any sort of enlightening or profound discovery, this is just a thought that seriously came to mind tonight (for no reason at all might I add). Anyways, the realization: You have to go through the bad relationships before finally being in the right one with “the one.” Like I said, this isn’t to be some sort of revelation or anything; I just thought about it randomly. It is after all a pretty simple concept that I’m sure everyone already knows, but I just came up with good reasoning tonight that makes the idea make more sense, to me at least. dec 19 2010 ∞
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nov 19 2011 + " I like the way you sound when you’re tired. The calmness in your voice, it’s very comforting. And the way you stroke my hair away from my face with your rough hands in the most gentle way. I like how nothing is forced between us and we’re comfortable with each other. We can sit in silence with your head on my lap and enjoy each other’s company. We’re two completely different people in almost every way, but for some reason, it’s like we can sort of … harmonize." ; Yawps' ... exactly how i felt. sep 28 2010 ∞
sep 28 2010 + "Sometimes you have to run away so you can see who will run after you. Sometimes you have to talk quieter, just to see who’s actually listening. Sometimes you have to take a step back, just to see who’s still standing by your side. Sometimes you have to make a wrong decision, just to see who’s there when it all falls down. Sometimes you have to let go of the one you love, just to see if they love you enough to come back." sep 28 2010 ∞
oct 19 2010 + She knows me so well.. :)
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jul 19 2010 + Life works in mysterious ways, just like you. Its fascinating at how you live each day with a smile on your face (even though that is how you are suppose to live.). You surprise me, you really do. Everytime i see you, your face lights up with that cute smile. The way your hair gently collides with the breeze of the slow, calm summer nights wishing we spent together. It is crazy how you look cute when you say that you are at your worst because to me, there is not one moment where you look ugly, love. With this being said, life is too short to live life in the fast lanes. Sometimes you need to get off the road, park on the side, and just relax. Just feel the cool breeze and enjoy life as it is. If we were always on fast lanes, we would never notice the finer things in life when things are calm and slow. And that was my mistake, realizing i had the prize all the time. And yet, i didnt take th... jul 8 2010 ∞
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nov 19 2011 + A person can only handle so much pain and sorrow. I admire those hard-working lower and middle class people in society because they work admirably hard and receive just enough to make the least of their happiness. I admire those people in third-world countries because if I were to reflect my problems onto theirs, I would feel like an idiot for even considering my hardships as “problems.” The point of this is to let out my feelings about thoughts of “being strong when you think that you cannot be.” I have been through a lot of pain emotionally (although I am contradicting myself in the above sentences) and yet I have ceased to witness my highest potential. I have been in and out of relationships, but there has been only one guy that I could never let go of. Surprisingly, I’d say that I am amazed of how young I am and to be able to experience true love. When I say this, I really me... jun 27 2010 ∞
jun 27 2010 + From past experiences, I’ve learned not to trust people 110% because you are giving them an advantage to hurt you. I’ve learned that promises are meant to be broken. I’ve learned that the common phrase, “I’m sorry” are just two words put together that will sooner or later, lose its complete meaning. I’ve learned that you have to go through hell in order to learn how to love and appreciate. I hate it when people tell me that “oh, she’s young, she has a lot to live for” or…”she’s really young, she just wants to explore.” I hate it so much because I find myself just as young as everyone else. I’ve been through struggles, probably more than others, and most likely less than the unfortunate. I’m still young and I have an opportunity to go out and explore just as everyone else does. After I graduate, I’m going to set myself free from the burden of school, proble... jun 27 2010 ∞
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