I know that ive changed a whole lot since this whole thing happened, but today, todays going to be different. I can already feel the extra burst of energy. I can tell that things are going to be different from now on. Im going to live up to my own happiness. Live for what i want. Live for what i need. Ive been so stressed lately that i dont know where to begin. Im going to take things slowly, one at a time. finish my school work, chase my dreams, spend time with friends, eat normal, etc. As for us, its like everyone has said - "If its meant to be, it will find its way to happen." Im sorry for acting so strange lately, but i guess its because i didnt know how to handle myself. As I slept through the night, Ive thought about how i could change this problem and finally, Ive come to a conclusion. "Actions speak louder than words" so i suppose that i shall show you rather than tell you. Since i have the chance to tell people how i feel about you or not, i shall do so now. Youre still important, the one im down for and the one i can see myself with in the future, but i should prepare for any outcome in the future. Im still holding on to your words. I know that i wont lose you, so i guess i should be trusting you more than i am now. I apologize for acting the way i was. I know that you were being real, and all you were trying to do was make me happy, but i failed to do the same for you. Like ive been saying, todays a different day, I promise.