WOW where do i begin, lets get this done so i can throw 2o18 out of the window (insert "the truth untold - BTS in the background whilst i get ready to type this essay). I wanna do something like this so that i feel i am officially throwing 2018 out where it belongs, in the TRASH and set myself some goals for the future that 2019 will be, what i want to achieve and improve for myself. Soooooo lets start off! Music START! Lets start by saying, at the start of 2018 you would not have predicted that your life will be in the position it is in now. at the start of 2018, you was in a relationship, a college student, a bit of a pussy tbf. but now you are developing into a woman, and honestly lucy, im so proud of you for this year. Girl, havent we put up with a load of crap!!! January, february, march and april were just STRESS!!! including them mock exams girl, oof dont even, on your birthday week how cruel! but we did it, did shit but we did it. You had no faith or hope in yourself, you was down to say the least but still through these months you had great times. You met natalie!! who has now become a friend for life with great experiences which we will get to later on in this round up. February you went to London with... lets get his name out there, Elliot. ugh i know try not to cry or throw up whichever lmao. but yes you went away for a few days and honestly it was such a lovely time also seeing your nana AHHHH! through these times you also completed many college activities like your drama performances of Happy Jack and your duologue which were all well n good. April saw your birthday where your ass became the big 18! wow feeling old rn whilst i type this. But you had such a lovely birth day.....s. bc ofc you make the occasion spread to multiple days bc thats the kinda bitch you are. Then shortly after you had your... A LEVELS AAA and honestly they were absolute hell, but you know what, you achieved them, and ngl, you did so well! honestly, they may not have been A's, but they were what you need for uni, and through them you experienced so much stress, anxiety. days spent till 8pm in the evening revising, hardly eating other than a pack of squashies a day. Theres one person you never have to forget for getting you through it other than yourself, his name is Nik!! he was literally your rock through exams and he did amazing and ofc our ass is so proud of him! so without him really, you wouldnt have made it to the next stage of your life.... university. BUT we are skipping a bit ahead of ourselves so, lets get to summer IT WAS WELL AF NEEDED GIRL. you went on your girls holiday with Anna, Katie,Holly,Aoife and Megan. Yoi had the best time, i mean, it was kinda lowkey ruined by some scouse lads next door which split the group in 2 (Single vs non single) for some of the holiday, and you kinda damaging your ankle... well when i say kinda it was really bad girl, remember you got taken round manchester airport in a wheel chair oh that was a highlight what a hot mess you actually are. Spending time with your friends through the summer was great. But summer, did also bring its difficulties. On August 12/13, your heart was broken. The person who you thought was the love of your life, broke up with you. And honestly, it was awful. the pain is something that never wants to be experienced again. It felt like it came from nowhere, it was originally over text whilst he was on holiday before coming the next day to explain himself. Honestly, that day will still remain one of the worst days.Just remembering how broken you were, you didnt stop crying for weeks, sometimes your soft ass still cries now. but you know what thats ok, you are getting though it and the worst part is over now. It hurts that feeling of the person you love and knew, leaving you. in some weird way its like you both grew up together. But ofc, all good things must come to an end at some point in your life. And it made you realise how many amazing friends you have, shout out to the relationship consultation gc, fran as well who was the most amazing person through it all. Without these people you wouldnt have got to where you are now and whilst you try to live your best life this 2019, its important to never forget that. But honestly, im telling August 2018 lulu this, that you are SOOOO much better from it now. you may get sad and feel lonely but deep down he did not treat you how you deserved and its allowed you to really focus on yourself. let loose and have fun.... which we will get to. the biggie is here!! september has allowed for.. UNIVERSITY. Girl you got into MMU to do early years and childhood studies!!!! which was your dream scenario! so, 15th of september, your ass moves into Flat 116. not gonna say the accomodation incase this shit gets out but girlie you know!!! and you meet Aaron and caitlin.. aka mum and dad! and honestly, these two are the bestest flatmates you could ask for! flat cuddles, best nights out, the discovery of the deaf institute!!! also... the many lads, dates, sleepovers, muggings off :( which is the worst bit, being back at square one with it all. oh yeah and girl ya number is now at 3... your welcome?? hopefully it doesnt increase in 2019 as we are hoping at some point.. we find something genuine. fingers crossed? also 2019 is gonna be the year we dint allow ourselves to be a mug! just this morning you deleted a lad off sc (4am travel n cuddle boi) bc the mugginess and ignorance of him was sooo clear u was not allowing yourself to be ignored after the effort u acc tried to put into him despite him liking the drugs... nah delete his ass !!! this is the kinda shit i mean gal, dont let yourself be taken for granted this 2019! by lads or even by friends, anyone!!! you are enjoying your course, the gals on it are lovely, made some good friends for life on it i hope!!! g izz and georgia :) many group projects and essay stress have already occured but youve got this travis, make em wait for it ... BOOM!! also you achieved many concert goals such as clubland which oh my god u just loved, u saw raksu, amazing and, the most important. YOU SAW YA BOYS BTS!!!! with natalie and megan and honestly was the best experience.. ever. you cried, laughed, was nearly sick through that 6 hour coach journey ( but national express your my one true love this year) but all in all u couldnt have wished for it to be any different than it was like.. u and jungkook breathed the same air! tho he wasnt dancing my poor bby :(. coming to the end of 2018, you are realising oh hell... this years been a rollercoaster. Its different, youve made many mistakes and tragic moments for yourself, became single and a tad bit more of a drinker. but also, though we say we wanna throw it out of the window, it really was a year of change and growth, so many new people and exciting opportunities came about this year. You as a person have grown stronger, and honestly, i am so proud of myself, coming out of 3rd person now ahaha but, really i am. youve achieved so much, kept ya head high through all the shit and proved a lot of people wrong. Keep thriving this 2019 Lucy, it will be a year full of more experiences and opportunities. and make this year, your year, not anyone elses, yours. Focus on you, and whats good for you. dont be a mug!!! be a strong sassy bitch (not an acc bitch but.. ygm... you have the fur coat now). but just dont take no shit. stil l continue to have ya fun, but be cautious maybe cut it down a lil ahahaha.but if something serious comes around this year then great!! you deserve the happiness but, dont rush <3 LOve yourself this year Be happy Be hopeful and dont ... fuck it up so, 2018 is rounded up, onto the next you hot mess xoxo good luck, and love <32018 Lucy xo

(ofc theres many tragic and funny moments that i couldnt and didnt include on here to do with uni but if those are needed... just check ya insta xo)