dissapointed in myself that i haven't been actively searching for a job, getting a chance to interview, be an adult. now i feel sorry for myself and there's no one else to blame but me.

i've been chilling, not doing anything. what will it take for me to get down to actual business and face the real world head on?

please, god, help me find a job. i just want to contribute something to myself and my family.

why am i such a dissapointment.