a youtube comment just summed up my sexuality (atleast for now):

sooo I guess I'm just not sure what to "label" myself yet. I've always identified as straight or just not identified at all but lately I'm beginning to realize that that's not entirely who I am. My issue though is that I haven't done anything with anyone yet (neither guys, nor girls and I'm like 20) so I'm kind of confused because how can I know if I haven't tried right? And in my head whenever I'm attracted to someone seriously I tend to rationalize everything and make it look like it's not real and that's probably the reason I've never dated or been with anyone... Like my brain always goes like "wait what you're feeling isn't real. it's just your head" and I whenever I kind of bring something out of my head and into the real world, it gets automatically devalued by my brain and I no longer feel it for some reason. I don't know if anyone feels like this or what does that make me but you know.. and I always hear people say that they've always known what they were but I guess that's not the case with me and not only concerning sexuality. I just don't feel like I am anything even though I've always wanted to.

heteroflexibe? idk.

i've been listening to this playlist about girls. my current fave song is im not gonna teach your boyfriend how to dance by kate nash.