i could name endless reasons to why you're special to me, and it still would feel blank cause nothing is able to explain how i feel about you.

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firstly, it all started during october. my expectations over sf9's debut were growing kinda slowly, i watched the mv a few times and thought it was ok. but somehow, less than a week after your debut, my attention got caught by the redhead boy with the red beret that rocked his dance during the song's chorus with that shoulder swing. after seeing how bright, charismatic, funny and talented you were, i could actually see myself falling in love with your sweet ways. your scenes on dob were so precious to me, every time i saw your smile or every little thing you did i could feel my heart being dominated for you. that time you hurt your feet on the stage made me worry so much, it felt like the pain was on me. i don't ever want you to feel tired, hurt, sad or anything that doesn't match your vibrating personality. i wish i could absorb all your pain. i see you tired sometimes, falling asleep during lives and that hurts so much cause there's nothing i can do for you, except to wish that all your hard work is compensated in the future and that your path's glorious. you are an amazing dancer with sweet vocals with excepcional talent for MC. you deserve so much more recognition cause you are everything an idol needs to be outstanding and even more, but that's only the start for you, debuts are always difficults and your endless effort will be appreciated by many. i hate it when you say you don't think you're handsome cause to me you are the personification of what heavens looks like. your chubby cheeks, almond eyes and plump lips couldn't get any prettier, so please look at yourself throught my eyes and see the lovely human being you are and see how much i care and look for you everyday even though you're miles and miles away from me. your autograph is one of the most precious things in my life and just thinking that you, held a pen and wrote your name on an album that you had no idea would come to my house, makes me really emotional cause that means so much to me. i will cherish it forever, even if time's actions cause it to slowly disappear. lee sanghyuk, you are my silver, my gold and my platinum. you are my earth, my fire, my air and my water. you are evertyhing someone could ever mean to a person. i love you way too much i could write about you for hours and i would always find something about you that is worth my loving. i hope someday i'll see you close and you'll know how you are the crucial part of my life's puzzle. i love you so much.