originally, i was gonna create a playlist for all the days – before you told me your actual birthday. but i got busy and a little s*d but hey, now that i do know it, this is what i have for you. it isn't much, i know. but i hope it makes you smile just a little bit.

p/s: come back soon, sunshine. it's been a little too dark without you.

lots of love, indie moonlight.

dear sunshine,

it's been a while since i've called you that, huh? i don't even know if you will see this but i hope you do. actually, a part of me hopes you do and the other part? not so much. i'm sorry i pushed you away right after what happened. it was selfish of me, i know. but i couldn't help it because i felt so.. hurt. was it okay to feel hurt? when i knew that we wouldn't go anywhere? maybe it hurt just a little (a lot) because i had a little bit of hope that we would be.. something. i don't blame you, though. you made it clear on your part, i just got lost in my little fantasy sometimes, i guess.

i wanted to message you, i wanted to come back to you and talk to you in hopes that i wouldn't be in so much pain; but every single time i tried to type a reply to you, i just couldn't muster the strength, the energy to pretend like i wasn't affe...

hey. happy, happy birthday sunshine. first of all, let me just begin with saying how truly honoured i am to be the only (?) one who knows your birthday and i promise, your secret is safe with me. as i'm typing this, you're on your hiatus. but i hope you're out there having fun on YOUR birthday, it's YOUR day. unleash your leo, baby.

uh, i don't really know where to proper start this letter but i do know that i really like you. and adore you, really. but i don't wanna scare you away. and i don't wanna scare myself away. i just don't want you to.. stop liking me, i guess. because i like you a lot. and i'm. idk. what am i saying – i'm just babbling now. i hope you really like the gift, sunshine. i know it's not much but it's the least i could do. i miss you a lot, and i miss having our rabbit dates. hopefully when you come back we can do so, and catch up on...

(because this dumbass fell asleep)

• grandson - stick up
• grandson - blood // water
• dorothy - wicked ones
• I FORGOT THE OTHER WOMAN FUC K
• chase atlantic - friends
• hey violet - guys my age
• hey violet - brand new moves
• i don't really remember who we listened to on the dynmk channel but.. i'll put in who i THINK we listened to?
• diveline - 2 hearts
• i swear we listened to more i just don't remember because i fell asleep i'm such an IDIOT

i adore you. i always will.

in no particular order:

• pretty girl rock by keri hilson
• all star by smash mouth
• super xanax by tiny meat gang
• keep ya d fat by tiny meat gang
• la di da by the internet
• special affair/curse by the internet
• some by steve lacy
• ugotme by omar apollo
• lover boy by phum viphurit
• fallingforyou by the 1975

(okay so i get confused with this, i don't remember if we listened to medicine or me)

• medicine by the 1975

(but i'll put both anyway)

• me by the 1975
• dear caramel by lambc
• last nite by the strokes