• ✿ delightful ┆ ꕤ productive ┆ ▞ somber ┆ ✐ pensive

january whispers ・・ ( 01﹕2025 )

( 12 ✿ ) i really do like him.

( 30 ▞ ) somebody made me smile today.

february whispers ・・ ( 02﹕2025 )

( 2 ▞ ) missing the rainy season.

( 4 ꕤ ) i wish to create a positive surrounding.

( 6 ▞ ) yet again kindness is not reciprocal.

( 7 ✐ ) my thesis is finally done.

( 11 ✿ ) rented him for valentines.

( 26 ✐ ) oh no.

march whispers ・・ ( 03﹕2025 )

( 11 ✐ ) lemon bergamot cake and black coffee.

( 12 ꕤ ) had a dream where i got shot in the leg with a gun and some say it's a fortuitous dream.

( 13 ꕤ ) was again late for the meeting and i am sad to disappoint her.

( 16 ✿ ) he’s so adorable. i bawled my eyes out because i was having some trouble with my professor. i had to exchange couple emails with her.

( 17 ▞ ) my head is about to explode and i have so many pressuring upcoming due dates.

( 18 ▞ ) made a new friend named max.

( 20 ✿ ) tasks are all done.

( 21 ✿ ) i sold some of my online accounts and it was an overall nice deal. customer was courteous.

( 22 ✿ ) good day but i am physically so worn out.

( 23 ꕤ ) what a beautiful day.

( 25 ✿ ) a feeling between romance and nurture.

( 26 ꕤ ) worked on my application form the whole day. feeling proud of the progress!

( 28 ꕤ ) all i remember about this day is that it was very windy.

( 29 ▞ ) please stop being like this. stop procrastinating.

( 30 ▞ ) i am missing you so badly. i want external validations, praises, and approbations.

( 31 ▞ ) i went to my parents' university to submit my documents.

april whispers ・・ ( 04﹕2025 )

( 02 ✿ ) new hair.

( 05 ✿ ) atonement.

( 06 ▞ ) i am really low on motivation and under tremendous stress.

( 08 ✐ ) be safe.

( 09 ✐ ) can you stop disappearing?

( 11 ▞ ) i am sick and my sleep schedule has become beyond ridiculous.

( 12 ✿ ) it was such a cute day, my he is so cute.

( 13 ✿ ) i hope people see beauty in innocence.

( 15 ▞ ) i hate my appearance.

( 17 ✐ ) you will learn and know how to make things and yourself satiating to your preference.

( 19 ✿ ) progress is progress.

( 25 ✐ ) chest pain was horrible. the air conditioner at the local cafe was also horrid.

( 29 ꕤ ) throat pain, drinking warm tea and had a pill of acetaminophen.

may whispers ・・ ( 05﹕2025 )

( 01 ✐ ) i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you...

( 02 ✐ ) zolpidem and alprazolam and brupropion.

( 05 ✐ ) yes, today was my birthday...

( 17 ✿ ) admission process is finally over!

( 25 ▞ ) i think i have signals of alprazolam addiction.

june whispers ・・ ( 06﹕2025 )

( 05 ▞ ) today was my first day of my swimming lesson. i loved the atmosphere overall. my neck is so stiff and it hurts a bit but i am still proud of myself to finally get back into swimming.

( 12 ✿ ) i was barely able to swim at today's class. i mostly just floated around. i am still proud that i attended the class.

( 17 ▞ ) had quite a bunch of neurotic sessions the couple past days.

( 20 ▞ ) i crave intimacy and connection but i am also scared to take responsibilities.

( 21 ▞ ) it is an endless battle of mine to make me feel content of myself.

july whispers ・・ ( 07﹕2025 )

( 03 ✿ ) learned breaststroke today.

august whispers ・・ ( 08﹕2025 )

( 06 ✿ ) pondering about the concept of marriage. reading a book related to this matter.

( 08 ✿ ) i don't wanna show up on this date i have. next week-ish. ugh.

( 11 ▞ ) neuroticcccccccccc. :c

( 20 ▞ ) (still) neuroticcccccccccc. :c

( 21 ✿ ) i impulse bought a custom blythe doll!

december whispers ・・ ( 12﹕2025 )

( 25 ✿ ) advent d-day. may you have the jolliest holidays and best luck for 2026.

( 28 ▞ ) really not sure why but i do feel extremely demotivated and upset over the past two to three days. it feels like my emotions have been oscillating between rock bottom and sky high. i feel disgusted to my guts but i can't figure it out.

( 29 ✿ ) happy early new year; been binge playing adopt me and straight up locking in for more than a week now yippee!!

( 31 ✿ ) called my brother and wished him a happy new year! also the project is finally over and my partner research assistant and i are waiting for professor's feedback.