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⋆ january whispers ・・ ( 01﹕2025 )

( 12 ✿ ) i really do like him.

( 30 ▞ ) somebody made me smile today.

⋆ february whispers ・・ ( 02﹕2025 )

( 2 ▞ ) i am missing the rainy season.

( 3 ▞ ) i am unable to please everyone and it is okay.

( 4 ꕤ ) i wish to create a positive surrounding.

( 6 ▞ ) yet again kindness is not reciprocal.

( 7 ✐ ) my thesis is finally done.

( 9 ✐ ) my heart will flutter until it shatters.

( 11 ✿ ) rented him for valentines.

( 14 ✐ ) it was such a quiet and an uneventful day, and i went to a cafe to study.

( 19 ✿ ) sweet hearted people are a blessing to my world.

( 26 ✐ ) oh no.

⋆ march whispers ・・ ( 03﹕2025 )

( 01 ✐ ) i am so unbelievably sad.

( 07 ꕤ ) today is probably the best day of this year.

( 08 ▞ ) i really need to stabilize my mood.

( 11 ✐ ) lemon bergamot cake and black coffee.

( 12 ꕤ ) had a dream where i got shot in the leg with a gun and some say it's a fortuitous dream.

( 13 ꕤ ) was again late for the meeting and i am sad to disappoint her.

( 16 ✿ ) he’s so adorable. i bawled my eyes out because i was having some trouble with my professor. i had to exchange couple emails with her.

( 17 ▞ ) my head is about to explode and i have so many pressuring upcoming due dates.

( 18 ▞ ) made a new friend named max.

( 20 ✿ ) tasks are all done.

( 21 ✿ ) i sold some of my online accounts and it was an overall nice deal. customer was courteous.

( 22 ✿ ) good day but i am physically so worn out.

( 23 ꕤ ) what a beautiful day.

( 25 ✿ ) a feeling between romance and nurture.

( 26 ꕤ ) worked on my application form the whole day. feeling proud of the progress!

( 28 ꕤ ) all i remember about this day is that it was very windy.

( 29 ▞ ) please stop being like this. stop procrastinating.

( 30 ▞ ) i am missing you so badly. i want external validations, praises, and approbations.

( 31 ▞ ) i went to my parents' university to submit my documents. was a good experience.

⋆ april whispers ・・ ( 04﹕2025 )

( 02 ✿ ) new hair.

( 05 ✿ ) atonement.

( 06 ▞ ) i am really low on motivation and under tremendous stress.

( 08 ✐ ) be safe.

( 09 ✐ ) can you stop disappearing.

( 11 ▞ ) i am sick and my sleep schedule is ridiculous.

( 12 ✿ ) it was such a cute day, my he is so cute.

( 13 ✿ ) i hope people see beauty in innocence.

( 15 ▞ ) i hate my appearance.

( 17 ✐ ) you will learn and know how to make things and yourself satiating to your preference.

( 19 ✿ ) progress is progress.

( 20 ▞ ) okay i'll be honest today is the shittiest day of this month, summed up. how am i supposed to replenish this thirst for validation and see how worthy i am.

( 21 ꕤ ) okay let's get this done.

( 22 ▞ ) suffer.

( 23 ꕤ ) i wish to know more about you.

( 25 ✐ ) chest pain was horrible. the air conditioner at starbucks was also horrid.

( 28 ꕤ ) learning to be complacent.

( 29 ꕤ ) i confessed to him... throat pain, drinking warm tea and had a pill of acetaminophen.

⋆ may whispers ・・ ( 05﹕2025 )

( 01 ✐ ) i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you

( 02 ✐ ) zolpidem and alprazolam and brupropion. first attempt to become a morning person.

( 05 ✐ ) yes, today was my birthday... so what else?

( 06 ✐ ) i am extremely under pressure and overwhelmed.

( 08 ꕤ ) i removed and blocked him.

( 10 ✿ ) i wish to get in, please.

( 12 ▞ ) i don't think i can just let you go like that...

( 14 ▞ ) i truly felt the warmth of spring today. winter is finally over.

( 17 ✿ ) whole admission process is finally over!

( 20 ✿ ) summer is knocking the door.

( 24 ▞ ) mom has been sick for nearly two weeks and it is really bugging me so much for so many reasons. my head is cluttered and i am extremely anxious.

( 25 ▞ ) i think i have signals of alprazolam addiction.

( 28 ✿ ) i will smile, because i deserve to!

( 30 ✿ ) smile smile smile.

⋆ june whispers ・・ ( 06﹕2025 )

( 04 ▞ ) i've been spending a lot.

( 05 ▞ ) today was my first day of my swimming lesson. i loved the atmosphere overall. my neck is so stiff and it hurts a bit but i am still proud of myself to finally get back into swimming.

( 09 ✿ ) i have been binge playing this indie game called who's lila.

( 11 ✿ ) swimming is so refreshing!

( 12 ✿ ) i was barely able to swim at today's class. i mostly just floated around. i am still proud that i attended the class.

( 17 ▞ ) had quite a bunch of neurotic sessions the couple past days.

( 17 ✿ ) been organizing and tidying up stuffs, and i am enjoying the progress and the outcome.

( 20 ▞ ) i crave intimacy and connection but i am also scared to take responsibilities.

( 21 ▞ ) it is an endless battle of mine to make me feel content of myself.

( 26 ▞ ) please, just go away please. disappear from my life. i know you don't feel the same way as i feel for you.

⋆ july whispers ・・ ( 07﹕2025 )

( 01 ▞ ) i should really be catching up on academics and regulate my mood.

( 02 ✐ ) revised and rewrote my whole diary entries. i try to keep things concise here. please excuse my lack of richness in language. i don't know why but whenever i try to describe my daily life here, i fall short of words.

( 03 ✿ ) learned breaststroke today!

( 04 ꕤ ) found a nice book about social sciences research methodology today so i am hooked in.

( 17 ▞ ) my bad, haven't updated this in a whole while. i have many thoughts and currently sick due to period cramps. trying to get back on reading too.

( 22 ▞ ) been feeling really distressed because i’m meeting two really crucial people within the next two weeks.

( 29 ▞ ) life. this shall be my life.