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What a beautiful face I have found in this place that is circling all round the sun. What a beautiful dream that could flash on the screen in a blink of an eye and be gone from me. Let me hold it close and keep it here with me. And one day we will die and our ashes will fly from the aeroplane over the sea. But for now we are young, let us lay in the sun and LIST every beautiful thing we see.

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For my grave:

  • "Well well well, I found out I'm dying, darling. Now what do i do To keep the sunshine in? Oh I will save you. Yeah I will hold you. I'll be there when you need me, And I will die with you." Black Angels, Boat Song
  • "Her philosophy of life, she told me, is that she might die at any moment. The tragedy, she said, was that she didn't". — Fight Club
  • “And I'm learning so I'm leaving, And even though I'm grieving, I'm trying to find a meaning, Let loss reveal it.” — Florence
  • “Don’t you forget about me.” - Simple Minds
  • “I hope the exit is joyful and I hope never to return!” - Frida Kahlo
  • "She has now gone, from this unhappy planet, with all the carnivores, and the destructors on it..." - The Smiths
  • "Screaming from beneath the waves." - Echo and the Bunnymen
  • "You know, the world was made for men." — Belle and Sebastian
  • She lived years in a period of silent indignation.
  • I was here for the body experience. And now I'm done.
  • "Thought there was love in everything and everyone. You're so naive." — Belle and Sebastian
  • "Now I think I know. What you tried to say to me. And how you suffered for your sanity. They would not listen, they're not listening still. Perhaps they never will." -- Don Mclean, Vincent
  • "Sometimes I feel so happy. Sometimes I feel so sad." — Lou Reed
  • I didn't want to stay here anyway!
  • "Somethin' filled up my heart with nothin', Someone told me not to cry, Now that I'm older, My heart's colder, And I can see that it was a lie." - Arcade Fire
  • "I have lived a full life, I have seen things that you will never see, And these are the eyes that I want you to remember." - REM
  • "And we don't know, Just where our bones will rest, To dust I guess, Forgotten and absorbed into the earth Below." - Smashing Pumpkins
  • "I'm wondering if I'll ever know. If I'll be better than I was before. When I surface through the service door. Bye, I'm on standby. Powered down for redesign." - Granddaddy
  • “I was a wound and a blade.” - dir. Toshio Matsumoto
  • “Know what I really love though? Thinking about everything. How we met. All of that. I can live in the present And think about the past. When I'm old and gray, I won't remember my past. You got to be young when you do it. It's really nice, you know? To look back and see the arc of your life, How it's all connected. How you got from there to here. To see the line, you know? It really has been an adventure.” — The World According to Garp
  • Why did I get to live this magical life with magical people?
  • To be played upon my death: Dark Lolita.
  • To be watched upon my death: Midnight Gospel Episode 8 Mouse of Silver (netflix)
  • It was so silly how much time we spent here shopping.
  • Amor Fati: I die with love for both the good and the bad.
  • No one asked me to suffer. It was my idea.
  • “One day it'll all be over. One day it'll all be gone.” — Black Angels
  • "Love, peace and harmony. Very nice. Very nice. But maybe in the next world." - The Smiths
  • Everyday I wanted to die. And everyday I wanted to live.
  • It feels impossible to my small mind that we end.
  • "Lisa knows a girl who's been abused. It changed her philosophy in '82. I think that I could help her out, But the girl's got a lot to be mad about. She knows she's losing it, yeah she's losing it." -- Belle and Sebastian
  • A song for goodbyes: But I lead my heart to become so cruel. As to imprison an idea of you. It's not your fault, it's my disease. And I must learn to set you free.
  • Don't feel bad for me / I want you to know / Deep in the cell of my heart / I will feel so glad to go/ There is another world / There is a better world / Well, there must be - The Smiths
  • This was just a body to live in. That's all.
  • So grateful to love, be loved, protest, have great sex, eat delicious food, teach others, educate myself, dance a lot, explore, travel, fight, nurture, celebrate, mature, breakdown, live with animals, cry, and laugh, read, watch great shows and view some beautiful art, and arrive and leave.
  • There were so many things to love and so many things to hate.
  • Sometimes I feel like I can't even sing. I'm very scared for this world, I'm very scared for me. The stars are the greatest thing you've ever seen. And they're there for you. For you alone, you are the everything. -- REM
  • First I'm gonna make it then I'm gonna break it till it falls apart. -- Echo and The Bunnymen
  • I’ll see you in heaven if you make the list —- R.E.M.
  • “Sometimes I think I have felt everything I'm ever gonna feel. And from here on out, I'm not gonna feel anything new. Just lesser versions of what I've already felt.” - Her (film)
  • She's kind of like an artist / Sitting on the floor / Never finishes / She abandons / Never shows her soul / And she's kind of like a movie / That everyone rushes to see / And no one understands it / Sitting in their seats. / She opens her mouth to speak and / What comes out's a mystery / Thought about. Not understood / She's aching to be. -- Replacements
  • Death is not a tragedy. It is a privilege of living.
  • No one in the world ever gets what they want and that is beautiful. Everybody dies frustrated and sad and that is beautiful. -- They Might Be Giants

Mirah's "While We Have The Sun"

Let's take the time to walk together while we have the sun You never know when temperamental weather's gonna come And if you want to face the death you're never that far from Just take a breath and sing to it when all the day is done

So sorry about all the sorrow in your life you'll know It's true that all the ones you love will someday have to go And everytime you say goodbye you'll hear the trumpets blow A serenade to the soul, all surrounded by the glow

If you feel all broken 'cause i left you there too soon Just know that it's not up to you to make the flowers wilt or bloom And if you think you're lonely then just listen for the tune Of all the stars i left for you in the chest of the moon

If you want to shake whatever separates you from The holiness you want to make your life on earth become Live your life with a compassion you can be proud of Then let your last breath fade away with dignity and love

Let's take the time to walk together while we have the sun You never know when temperamental weather's gonna come And if you want to face the death you're never that far from Just take a breath and sing to it when all the day is done

Iris DeMent's "Let The Mystery Be" Everybody is wondering what and where They all came from Everybody is worrying about where they're going to go When the whole thing's done But no one knows for certain and so it's all the same to me I think I'll just let the mystery be.

Some say once gone you're gone forever And some say you're going to come back Some say you rest in the arms of the Saviour If in sinful ways you lack Some say that they're coming back in a garden Bunch of carrots and little sweet peas I think I'll just let the mystery be.

Everybody is wondering what and where They all came from Everybody is worrying about where they're going to go When the whole thing's done But no one knows for certain and so it's all the same to me I think I'll just let the mystery be.

Some say they're going to a place called Glory And I ain't saying it ain't a fact But I've heard that I'm on the road to Purgatory And I don't like the sound of that I believe in love and I live my life accordingly But I choose to let the mystery be.

may 1 2022 ∞
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