For my grave:

• "Well well well, I found out I'm dying, darling. Now what do i do To keep the sunshine in? Oh I will save you. Yeah I will hold you. I'll be there when you need me, And I will die with you." Black Angels, Boat Song
• "Her philosophy of life, she told me, is that she might die at any moment. The tragedy, she said, was that she didn't". — Fight Club
• “And I'm learning so I'm leaving, And even though I'm grieving, I'm trying to find a meaning, Let loss reveal it.” — Florence
• “I hope the exit is joyful and I hope never to return!” - Frida Kahlo
• "She has now gone, from this unhappy planet, with all the carnivores, and the destructors on it..." - The Smiths
• "Screaming from beneath the waves." - Ech...

• Adam (Adrock) sending us a beat for our dog battle rap against our neighbors.
• When I learned Lol Tolhurst from the Cure was at the KoKoKo show I was at, and then he appeared before me when the singer asked the audience to get low and he couldn't, and so I found him and then met him after the show.
• David Bowie (surprise) jumping on stage at an Arcade Fire show in Central Park.
• Walking down the back stairs of the Fillmore into fans with Rivers Cuomo holding my hand.
• Meeting Michael Stipe in the LA canals to be in REM's music video for "Drive."
• Late night after hours dancing with friends at mile high club.
• Singing and dancing in my car seat on road trips.
• Singing Molly's part in Annie at OC fair in 5th grade.

• Abandoned Book Depository, Detroit
• African Party - remote office building, Paris
• Alcatraz Prison, San Francisco
• Audium, San Francisco
• Basilica Cistern --underground water palace 532bc: Istanbul, Turkey
• Bat Flight Program, Carlsbad Caverns
• Being John Grisham and David Baldacci guests at his book fair in Florida
• Berber Camp, Sahara Desert
• Berghain, exclusive club in Berlin, partied all night
• Blue Grotto, Capri Island
• Brooklyn Underground tour (old subway lines beneath the city)
• Bus Station, out in the middle of Turkey --craziest I've ever seen
• Cagaloglu Hamami Bath House, Istanbul
• Cape Cod “Touch a Truck” parade
• Carla's apartment on the Grand Canal, Ven...

• The journey of life is coming to terms with yourself, not others.
• "One of the most lethal acts of self-harm you can commit is convincing yourself you're worthy of a higher purpose."
• “The receipts for love is grief.”
• “A vampire or a victim —it depends on who’s around.”
• Be gentle with the ones who take photos of everything. To some, it might seem they aren't living in the moment. But usually these people have experienced so much loss and are deeply sentimental. They don't want to ever forget. They never want to overlook moments in the future, knowing their memory will eventually betray them. They are nostalgic. They cherish memories. They cherish people. These are the ones you want to hold dear. They appreciate everything.
• You find peace by choosing what to ignore...

I can only have authentic experiences if I don’t post about them. And, this is a REMINDER regarding "like-based scrolling-feed" social media. The introduction of “scrolling,” and “likes,” on social media (by big tech) changed human psychology (we don't use those features here). They will NEVER stop psycho-engineering to make social media as addictive as possible. The disease is in our collective consciousness. The degradation of truth, humility, and so on. I feel it growing within myself. Unbridled capitalism's modern slavery.

Destroy what destroys you...

THOUGHTS ON SOCIAL MEDIA:

• I do not want to pull people out of their lives to look at mine.
• Social media algorithms flatten culture and art, creating cookie cutter content that sells and pleases the algorithm (versus art being provocative).