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What a beautiful face I have found in this place that is circling all round the sun. What a beautiful dream that could flash on the screen in a blink of an eye and be gone from me. Let me hold it close and keep it here with me. And one day we will die and our ashes will fly from the aeroplane over the sea. But for now we are young, let us lay in the sun and LIST every beautiful thing we see.

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  • everything about airplane bathrooms
  • when folks think they’re smart because they can regurgitate information
  • celery. really hate celery.
  • bad lighting
  • waiting to de-plane
  • loud music levels in intimate spaces
  • waking up with sheet creases on my face
  • trying to be a woman sitting alone at a bar for a drink and being harassed by man after man to dance, take a picture with them, talk, etc.
  • paying parking meters and/or getting parking tickets
  • the spiraling horrific effects of oppression and colonization
  • when a spider comes down on you from a tree or accidentally walking into a web
  • when trapped in a car with an insect
  • how colors look different when you hold them up against other colors (picking paint and fabric difficulty)
  • the dudes at the gym or massage therapist who moan loudly
  • virality flattening all forms of art
  • the slow death of science, truth, morality
  • the cult of personality - the internet selling us charismatic garbage people
  • a man invents the smart phone and we're slaves to it. it was that easy.
  • when James is going to trap a spider to take it outside but he misses and then I'm nervous about where the spider went all night––and its potential revenge
  • communication becoming more and more passive, distant, dehumanizing
  • pilling on clothing
  • excessive personal content on social media to fill our brains with their lives
  • 20% of green house emissions coming from livestock (93 billion animals killed every year) We are a terrible species.
  • when you jump into the carpool lane all liberated but then it also comes to a stop
  • when I forget my grocery bags and my self esteem is lowered
  • the loss of Sinead O'Connor — mentally ill systems, create mentally ill people
  • when I whisper something to James discretely in public and he says it back to me really loud cause he’s not sure if he heard it correctly
  • the insane notion that a god would deliver blessings through American capitalism
  • That I didn’t get abs from coughing
  • when the ice maker shoots ice at me right when I open the freezer
  • when your arm is out the window and the driver starts rolling the window up
  • going to a frame store to get a quote on how much to frame something and every time walking out in complete shock and definitely not doing that
  • getting really bad covid ––and wishing I had got the last booster that's clearly been protecting me these past few years from really bad covid (the vaccines suck too but I think Covid is worse)
  • all of us, drunk on empty content
  • getting rid of clothes, coupled with the certainty that I won't fit into them again (also comforting too)
  • the daunting number that over 500,000 books are published every year in the US
  • dogs who are never walked and kept in the yard
  • that weird television setting ("motion smoothing/video interpolation") that makes everything look like a soap opera
  • scenes of animals killing prey in nature documentaries
  • the amount of terror we mass produce in factory animal farming
  • waiting for test results
  • how so many of our identities are built from socioeconomic conditions, which means we are just the end result of capitalism, never knowing who we really are
  • road rage
  • therapists on TT that over simplify psychology to clickbait you into believing you have a disorder or that someone else does
  • perfectly healthy women taking prescription drugs to get abnormally skinny so they can sell that skinniness back to the rest of us
  • waiting for a show to start
  • when you are asked to tip people when ordering at the counter and bussing your own table
  • panic attacks around leaving rumi because of how toki died
  • when clothing falls off the hanger when I’m looking through racks
  • when I take my plant dying personally, like they didn’t like me or I failed them
  • the time between a movie being in the theater and streaming
  • the process of colonoscopy prep
  • how little authors are paid, despite the years of work (people reading less, downloading, content overload)
  • the endless barrage of unnecessary beauty products being sold to me by fellow women (gross), telling me to de-puff my eyes, make my skin more radiant, stop having wrinkles, tone my face, etc.
  • hollis jump-scaring me all over the house since she was five
  • jury duty summons
  • endless, endless pictures of everything. I’ve seen everything.
  • hang nails
  • cdc study reporting mass female teen depression crisis, 60% rise in suicidal ideation since 2012 (shortly after iPhones & social media invented)
  • accidentally taking a screenshot of my phone
  • pop psychology
  • papercuts
  • micro entertainment for the attention economy (but damn those doggy videos)
  • rumi hogging the bed
  • when I bring something into the dressing room that I’m sure will fit and it is way too small
  • tripping over computer charging cords and dragging the computer along with me
  • tv deaths at home or hospital where the person looks basically the same even though they're dying
  • when rumi decides to poop on someone’s lawn just as they’ve walked out the front door
  • nuanced psychological terms used as petty insults or social media trends for the world to play with
  • seeing water bottles filled with pee while out for a walk
  • cell phone dead zones
  • pyramid schemes, cults, gifting tables --that all take advantage of vulnerable people
  • flimsy spirituality
  • the sound of a telephone ringing
  • when the massage therapist whispers “finished”
  • the use of lovebombimg when in replace of a person’s ability to critically think and make good choices, versus falling under a spell of helplessness because someone said nice things
  • riding backwards on forward moving transportation, like trains
  • when the soup spoon falls all the way into the soup
  • all these strange phone numbers that call me but don’t leave a message
  • receiving all those notifications about million dollar class action lawsuits I'm a part of but then getting a check for $2.98.
  • dental work (even when they're super nice)
  • the claustrophobic nature of MRI machines
  • oppressive patriarchal inventions like the nuclear family and marriage
  • when it’s a mystery how many hours I slept
  • the sound of an airplane toilet flush
  • tinnitus
  • gang tag graffiti (artless)
  • when I can’t remember which one is Hall and which one is Oates
  • getting to the airport toooo early or crazy late
  • when adults don't believe in vaccines and children needlessly die as a result (ie 700 children who recently died in zimbabwe due to measles, polio's return, etc)
  • when I accidentally hit RUMI in the head with the poop bag while walking and I feel like a terrible dog mom
  • the sound of a car accident
  • when a taxi driver is complaining about LA traffic
  • mega churches, esp all the ones with sexual abuse
  • when I can smell someone’s burp under my mask
  • when bands don’t play the favorites
  • when Rumi accidentally pees on someone’s leg thinking it's a tree
  • driving thru snow closures and fire closures over the years up the barren 5 Freeway to Bay Area - making trips 3 hours longer :/
  • people livin out cliches
  • when rumi snobbishly refuses water
  • a pile of keys in a jar and not knowing what they’re all for but not wanting to get rid of them cuz they might be important
  • celebrities hawking their skincare lines
  • when I'm looking for glasses that are on my head
  • having to listen to public radio fundraising even tho I’m already a monthly subscriber
  • wet feet in shoes
  • hiking up a steep never-ending staircase and folks are passing you barefoot in faster time with huge backpacks, and you ask them if they're camping up there, and they casually say, "no we're paragliding off the mountain after" LOL!!
  • googling what my npr hosts look like and being completely wrong in comparison to the image in my head
  • not getting to wear my gothy shoes to clubs when we travel because they’re not practical and too heavy to pack
  • social media harassment from un-evolved beings, the spectrum of Alex Jones to Kanye to many many others
  • that our dog has nightmares
  • people who set others up for failure then criticize their failings
  • James explaining time travel plots, crypto, or NFTs to me
  • notifications, esp that my laptop needs a software update
  • that one person wins an enormous amount of money in lotto, and that the algorithm is not designed to spread millions amongst many winners
  • 29,000 bits of space trash, satellites, etc that orbit the earth. human beings are an awful species.
  • when people don’t realize they’re on the same team
  • packing
  • that we have to crowdfund to help pay our medical bills in america
  • progressives splintering from academic liberal critique while the right gets unified :/
  • mockingbirds outside the window in springtime
  • the hardships, health concerns, and chaos attached to unplanned pregnancies and abortion laws forcing them to term
  • when I'm not sure if I donated something or if I lost it ––like not remembering where a piece of luggage went!
  • watching the uber or lyft car moving super slow on the map
  • riding in an airplane for anything over two hours
  • how much the world is invested in their opinions of the private lives of rich celebrities while everything else falls apart
  • how dark and divided the world feels because the worst of our nature is what sells to ravenous audiences
  • horror movie scenes
  • when people do not see where they align with others, and work from hate over love
  • drought
  • people who put their poison or prejudice into their children's ear
  • when nurses can’t find my vein for an IV in the ER
  • onions
  • when someone is out of town when you're in town
  • that to be American is to disassociate on some level or otherwise go insane
  • litterbugs
  • the sound of a fly in the house
  • our terrible system of government, that functions like a bad resentful relationship where nothing changes
  • going to the emergency room because my autoimmune disease is dumb
  • crooked pictures
  • equating skinny with success or happiness
  • how it became passé to directly communicate
  • being on hold then being hung up on
  • full sun
  • cancellations
  • when my voice changes because spit is stuck on my vocal cord
  • anything crawling on me
  • insomnia
  • when somebody doesn't "like" something, and they unskillfully shit on it (not everything is designed for you)
  • mosquito bites
  • toxic femininity as much as toxic masculinity
  • when James gets to start eating but I’m occupied with finding something to watch
  • when I accidentally dial a phone number on the calculator (and I'm waiting for it to ring)
  • when someone rubs their nose or picks their teeth in conversation and I think I must have something in my nose or on my teeth
  • when the ceiling fan makes a little crickety sound all of a sudden
  • cultivators of hate and conflict
  • how covid precautions wiped out james tattooing for a couple years, then when things got better, a different health problem hit
  • how we are becoming inured to horrific stories because we are bombarded with them daily (the effects this might have on our ability to empathize)
  • how I always seem to be looking for my napkin!
  • that I can’t drink water without spilling the first sip on me
  • remembering to and changing filters for all the things that need filters in the house and car
  • not understanding how inflation works
  • health and fitness people narcissistically trying to be a guru of some kind
  • going to three different grocery stores to get what everyone in the house likes (including the dog)
  • remembering how daylight savings time works and calculating whether I'm losing sleep or gaining sleep
  • grooming (nail clipping, etc)
  • loud motorcycles that set off a string of car alarms
  • beeping from a fire alarm battery that needs replacing
  • when I can feel a pill go down my throat
  • when a bird poops on me ––even if it’s good luck (three times so far)
  • parallel parking
  • when sex or romance between a white couple on tv is set to historically important black music, like Marvin Gaye's "What's Goin On"
  • doctor misdiagnoses
  • excessive cancelled flights throughout Covid (James flight being cancelled on the way to Bay Area, and having to scramble for another one at 3am, then his flight cancelled on his return, and he had to sleep at the airport)
  • being assigned the middle seat on the airplane
  • riddles
  • pulling street chicken out of my dog’s mouth
  • when people back into parking spots while you're waiting but it takes them quite a while
  • multi-level marketing pyramid schemes and gifting tables ("murder on middle beach" doc)
  • when windex causes its own kind of smudging
  • being seated next to a silent couple in a restaurant and knowing they are only hearing our conversation
  • any kind of car light warning telling me to do something
  • professionally staged relationship photos that look like catalog ads
  • NFTs or cryptocurrency
  • hiccups
  • when your friend on the phone doesn't realize they can't hear you or you can't hear them
  • when you are asked to step aside and fill out the address at the post office and all these people come and you have anxiety about returning to the counter, like you're cutting a line
  • the negative aspects of social media on all of humanity
  • the last 15 minutes of dissent in an airplane
  • when James forgets to tell me the gas tank is empty
  • the rye chips in Chex Mix
  • waiting for the bathroom at a restaurant
  • automated voice services. I ALWAYS want to talk to a representative!
  • when management doesn't put effort into signs they have up (like in the bathroom a warning that the "door doesn't automatically lock behind you" and it's becoming untaped and messed up and handwriting is terrible even tho it's kinda an important message!)
  • when popsicles get all that icy build up on them
  • being cold
  • when there's a heavy sex scene on tv and I am self conscious about my breathing while cuddling, like am I revealing that I'm turned on?
  • when people leave negative amazon reviews about how it arrived damaged (esp for authors who have nothing to do with the shipping)
  • structures built by white supremacy
  • bad tasting baby carrots
  • when people categorize watching films and documentaries as "watching TV" - big difference
  • people who do NOT understand fragrance sensitivity and look at you like you're nuts. yes we get migraines from fragrance.
  • how I drop ice cubes on the floor every time I am putting it in my glass
  • trying to get the produce baggies open with my fingertips at grocery stores
  • the seatbelt warning sound
  • shuffling or dealing cards
  • willful ignorance
  • when people choose sides after a break up (not our business, unless they're suddenly violent)
  • pandemics
  • accidentally eating my own hair in a food bite
  • receiving a confirmation email that I've unsubscribed from emails
  • when the lotion pump doesn’t get all the lotion up from the bottom
  • events where you have to have a handwritten or any kind of name tag
  • when mexican restaurants don't have chips
  • when restaurants have lunch buffets but not dinner buffets
  • the flu (esp a temperature)
  • when people talk really loud in inappropriate spaces like a comedy show, movies, concert
  • when places don't have bathrooms, esp restaurants or teahouses
  • when restaurants run out of avocado
  • arriving in a foreign country after long flight and waiting in customs lines
  • when people are using their cell phones in dark spaces, like concerts, theaters, etc
  • ear popping when someone has one window rolled down in the car
  • when people have their break lights on like they are pulling out of a parking spot soon but then just sit there for a really long time
  • cats, the musical
  • decorative and excessive bed pillows in hotel rooms
  • that tipping for a scoop of ice cream is a thing!? they’re barely doing anything And it’s the singular only thing their job requires And it can’t really de done wrong
  • when it’s unclear when the public bathroom door you’re using is locked cause it’s janky or weird and you just have to put your faith in god
  • animals who steal from fellow animals to impress a female with their collection (like the fish who steals shells from another fish, penguins who steal rocks from another penguin)
  • unfindable eyelash in my eye
  • when djs speed up music (specifically artists that mean a lot to people like Joy Division The Cure) so mainstream people can dance to it
  • when people talk really loud after you've arrived at the final destination of a hike (some beautiful place you hike to and they fill it with loud conversation)
  • when I can't get christmas ornaments to hang facing the right direction
  • when people say they were "homeless" or "poor" when really they were staying with parents
  • getting up because you forgot something after you just sat down
  • people at bars pressing against you to order a drink
  • dishwasher soap residue on glasses
  • when friends have time for social media but not phone calls
  • when people have mean dogs and have them off leash or say they’re nice
  • when people leave their expired garage sale signs up
  • inaccurate portrayals of molly in film/tv (lookin at u insecure)
  • band tour dates on back of T-shirts - who cares
  • when venues don't post set times!!!!
  • getting the tape to come off evenly from packing tape or any kinda tape
  • toilets without proper handles, like the circles you push down on
  • soap holders that are placed right in line of shower water — wasting soap
  • when people ask “how are you” in a text message
  • when people leave garage sale signs up
  • when sale folks follow you around showing you clothing you might like
  • when people go to the movies really sick and sneeze and cough a lot
  • reading directions for board games
  • when an actor plays twins in a film and they use special effects -- too stressed they're going to misalign
  • when scotch tape isn't aligned and you're trying to get it even
  • when trampy girls with coors lights are trying to dance to joy division in a sexy way
  • when people take selfies at inapprpriate places like holocaust memorials
  • close ups during "dead scenes". I know they're not dead so don't get close up!
  • when you are trapped in a room with a loud fly
  • when things are wrapped in that insane plastic packaging that you have to use knives and scissors to get open
  • a long shot on an actor after they've died. I'm worried I'll see them breathing.
  • when your touch up paint doesn’t match after it dries
  • when people respond to birthday wishes on facebook like they're winning an academy award
  • when you get little soup splats on you when eating soup or when you get a drop of soup on your chin
  • when blinds are crooked or bent
  • when people think god or the universe steps in to guide their life without consideration/logic for all those who suffer
  • getting the duvet cover on the duvet
  • when all of a sudden it smells farty and you don't want to say anything in case it's them but you don't want to be silent in case they think it's you
  • that little nugget of dried up lotion that gets pressed out onto your hands
  • when vegetable pieces are too big in your meal
  • when you're waiting for the car door to be unlocked
  • when you can't focus on dinner conversation because you're trying to flag down a waiter for water - cause you really need water
  • when only one car window is open and you get that air pressure noise
  • when you sit down to eat and watch tv and you can't find anything to watch so you can't eat yet
  • when friends call you when they're driving somewhere
  • audience participation
  • the birthday song esp if sung to me
  • when pop stars thank god for their award or success as though a god would intervene for them but then somehow not intervene for countless suffering across the planet
  • when they bus the tables but don't wipe the seat (and there's crumbs all over it)
  • christmas music before thanksgiving
  • when Toki seems to shed year round
  • cold grocery stores when you're not properly dressed
  • when you're sharing your phone number or credit card and you're interrupted because they say uhhh huh and you're not sure if they got the last part
  • when you've just finished the dishes and then turn around and realize there's one more on the stove
  • people who leave their yard sale signs up after it's over
  • the coin spot in the car that just fills with dirt and dog hair mixed with useless pennies
  • pennies
  • when couples block the entire sidewalk because they want to hold hands
  • when the escalator is broken and still and you get that disoriented feeling when you take the first step
  • when you hit the nail incorrectly with the hammer and it makes that noise indicating it ain't going in or you've bent the nail
  • when people say "college is a waste of time" and only measure it in terms of financial gain or obtaining a job and not education and enrichment.
  • when the garden hose gets a kink in it and the water stops flowing
  • when people have inside-joke laughter in your presence
  • when you pause something on cable and it switches over to the loud cable advertisement announcements
  • when flies poop on the window
  • when people cancel an appt or date last minute for non-emergency reasons (we arrange our lives around ya'll)
  • pilling on sweaters and t-shirts or little tiny holes that appear
  • when the pump on the lotion bottle won't pump up the last inch or so
  • when people drag their flip flops when they walk
  • when you can hear water leaking in the drain when you are in the tub
  • when you can't get the remaining liquid out of any squirt bottle
  • when the windshield wiper won't wipe away all the water and leaves marks
  • adjusting a ceiling fan and having to wait to see what speed it's at
  • 3d movies
  • g.e. smith
  • when folks don't rsvp (takes a bit of effort and money to have a dinner so nice to know who is coming)
  • when the last bite of your meal is a bad (off kilter) one and then you have to take muster another bite in the hopes it counteracts it
  • watching tourists who record videos of boring stuff I know they'll never watch
  • broken taste bud on your tongue
  • when u buy everyone's ticket and they forget to pay u or u gotta ask
  • little holes that develop in your t-shirts for mysterious reasons
  • people posting sexy pics of themselves
  • people who call into NPR and start by asking the host how they're doing
  • when you're making dinner for someone (not a party but dinner) and they arrive late --timing is very important for cooking
  • when people behind you sing really loud at a concert...because i've just paid a lot of money to hear the singer sing (exception: neil diamond sweet caroline sing a long)
  • when too much of the popsicle breaks off into your mouth while you're sucking on it and you get a cold headache
  • when people are overtly nice to children in front of others but not as kind to adults
  • that wnyc plays the jonathan schwartz show all day sat and sun. i like him but not for that many hours.
  • when a ball rolls toward me from the field and I feel like I have to return it even though I have no skills...so I get nervous
  • people using facebook as their friendships
  • balloons
  • when i take a sip of soup or a noodle bowl and a little drop spills on my chin
  • when people don't let folks know that their address has changed
  • when i burn my tongue on food because i was lame and didn't let the food sit for a bit
  • Hummers and huge SUVs
  • anything involving styrofoam
  • when gangs dance in musicals. i want it to be that kind of world but gangs just don't dance
  • when girls sit on their boyfriends shoulders at concerts
  • when u handle the money at a dinner but the bill comes up short so u gotta put in more or ask for more money
  • weak hand shakers --esp when girls use a weak handshake
  • people who have parties in moving vehicles and yell out the window at you
  • wires behind the tv set
  • when a full bottle of white-out turns gummy or it doesn't properly adhere to the page
  • eating and coming across something that tastes like sand or dirt
  • automatic anything: toilets, sinks, paper towels.
  • jet lag
  • when you are drinking from a glass that has ice in it and all the ice comes rushing forward and the water dumps out on you
  • when i have accidentally cut in front of people in line (not knowing). i hate it when i discover i've done that.
  • people who smoke and walk. it sucks because you can't get away from the smoke. and they will unknowingly ash on you.
  • incense of any kind
  • girls who have dated friends and befriend me while with them, but then disappear when they are broken up with
  • leaving something behind in the apartment that i needed to take
  • when my buttcheeks feel misaligned
  • trying to get the fitted sheet on the bed. i never pick the right side to put on first. or having to fold one.
  • when the aluminum foil completely unravels and i try to roll it back up and it's a crinkled mess
  • anonymous flame wars or verbally violent comments on the internet, especially on youtube
  • when people offer help in some way or offer to do something, but they don't follow through, and then you feel like a jerk for asking
  • when people use their kid's face as their profile photo
  • moving (forever hiring movers)
  • negative transferal of energy (a common thing on the subway)
  • the little piece that detaches itself and sticks to you from the handles of plastic grocery bags
  • un-scooped dog remains
  • people on their cellphones in quiet places with other people
  • people texting while driving or when you're in conversation with them
  • when someone behind you honks at the person in front of you, but you're the one who gets blamed
  • the sound of a small broken piece that has fallen into (what seems like) every remote control and rattles.
  • misunderstandings
  • dogs that head for your crotch
  • when someone doesn't feel like finishing a game because they're losing
  • spitting
  • tall dudes not looking around themselves when they're standing in front of short girls at a concert
  • when people clip their nails on the subway train
  • those turn style door entries at the subway station
  • when little hairs connect to that back of my t-shirts and tickle my arm
  • people who are looking at their phone a lot when they're with you but don't mention why they are (to at least point out that they're conscious that they're doing it)
  • extremists in anything
  • honking
  • when cars enter the crosswalk when you are in it
  • PERFUME
  • the sound of pencil to paper
  • people who arrogantly say: i don't watch tv
  • dirty dishes and wet sponges left in the sink all wet
  • loud music in restaurants or bars
  • overcrowded classrooms
  • sexy halloween costumes
  • people who walk in late to movie theaters and stand in the aisles looking for their seat
  • when your voice echoes on the cell phone back at you
  • spam and junk mail
  • tabloids displaying children as accessories
  • watching ice skating...I get so nervous
  • when waiters don't write down the order (creates unnecessary anxiety) and then even worse if they mess up the order
  • when the little ticket is left on your windshield from the parking garage (and I keep forgetting to take it off)
  • when I think "this american life" is coming on nrp and then turns out to be "prairie home companion"
  • sweeping generalizations
  • when one person wins an absurd amount of money in the lottery (vs it being like 10 people)
  • when people don't wear face masks on the plane etc when they're sick
  • when people are taking your email or phone number over the phone but interrupt as they are writing to say something and then you're not sure if they got it right
apr 11 2006 ∞
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