an on going list of songs that quell the intensity (some in a goofy kind of way, but they're my anthems)...

• mgmt: time to pretend

I'm feeling rough, I'm feeling raw, I'm in the prime of my life. Let's make some music, make some money, find some models for wives. I'll move to Paris, shoot some heroin, and fuck with the stars. This is our decision, to live fast and die young. We've got the vision, now let's have some fun. Yeah, it's overwhelming, but what else can we do. Get jobs in offices, and wake up for the morning commute.

• morrissey: disappointed

I have spent my whole life in ruins Because of people who are nice

• tom petty: american girl

Well she was an american girl Raised on promises She couldn't help thinkin that there Was a little more to life Somewhere else After all it was a great big world With lots of places to run to Yeah, and if she had to die Tryin she had one little promise She was gonna keep God its so painful Something thats so close And still so far out of reach

• paul simon: train the distance

Everybody thinks its true Everybody loves the sound of a train in the distance Everybody thinks its true The thought that life could be better Is woven indelibly Into our hearts And our brains

• fleetwood mac: storms

I haven't felt this way I feel Since many a year ago But in those years and the lifetimes past I did not deal with the road And I did not deal with you I know Tho the love has always been So I search to find an answer there So I can truly win But never have I been a blue calm sea I have always been a storm I have always been a storm We were frail

• ween: zoloft

Gimme that z, o-l-o-f-t Gimme a grip, make me love me Suckin' 'em down, I'm happy man Can feel it inside, makin' me smile realize that the sky's not made of gold don't disguise the nature of your soul

• talking heads: once in a lifetime

You may ask yourself What is that beautiful house? You may ask yourself Where does that highway GO to? You may ask yourself Am I right?...Am I wrong? You may say to yourself MY GOD!...WHAT HAVE I DONE?

• oingo boingo: out of control

You're out of control--and you move without direction And people look right through your soul You're out of control--and you want someone to tell you When you wake up in the morning it'll only be a dream

• tom petty: i won't back down

Well I know what's right, I got just one life in a world that keeps on pushin me around but I'll stand my ground and I won't back down

• bright eyes: road to joy

So I'm drinkin, breathin, writin, singin Every day I'm on the clock My mind races with all my longings But can't keep up with what I got

• cat stevens: don't be shy

Don't be shy just let your feelings roll on by Don't wear fear or nobody will know you're there Just lift your head, and let your feelings out instead

• oingo boingo: we close our eyes

I looked death in the face last night I saw him in a mirror And he simply smiled He told me not to worry He told me just to take my time

• tom petty: learning to fly

Well some say life will beat you down Break your heart, steal your crown So I started out for God knows where But I guess i'll know when I get there

• neutral milk hotel: in the aeroplane over the sea

And one day we will die And our ashes will fly from the aeroplane over the sea But for now we are young Let us lay in the sun And count every beautiful thing we can see Love to be In the arms of all I'm keeping here with me, me

• pink floyd: fearless

You say you'd like to see me try, Climbing! You pick the place and I'll choose the time And I'll climb The hill in my own way just wait a while, for the right day And as I rise above the treeline and the clouds I look down hear the sound of the things you said today

• queen: under pressure

It's the terror of knowing What this world is about Watching some good friends Screaming 'Let me out' Pray tomorrow - gets me higher high high Keep coming up with love but it's so slashed and torn Insanity laughs under pressure we're cracking Can't we give ourselves one more chance Why can't we give love that one more chance

• trembling blue stars: open skies

finally looking forward the future seems brightly colored today was such a good day that fell in place around us and we have not surrendered open skies await us i promise not to leave you but no one can promise that so i'll just say i love you all the days that i can

• unbunny: nothing comes to rest

hey charlie nothing comes to rest on the chests of those always running and in this life i have been blessed with starcrossed maps that kept me moving hey charlies when's it gonna click? i've been waiting all my life for this i'm tired of living from the wrist and leaving all decision to coincidence

• paul simon: only living boy in new york

Tom, get your plane right on time. I know your part'll go fine. Fly down to Mexico. Da-n-da-da-n-da-n-da-da and here I am, The only living boy in New York. I get the news I need on the weather report. I can gather all the news I need on the weather report. Hey, I've got nothing to do today but smile.

• modest mouse: float on

I ran my mouth off a bit too much, oh what did I say? Well you just laughed it off, it was all OK. And we'll all float on OK. And we'll all float on OK. And we'll all float on OK. And we'll all float on anyway.

• harry nillson: everybody's talking at me

everybody's talking at me I don't hear a word they're saying Only the echoes of my mind

• cat stevens: on the road to find out

Well I left my happy home to see what I could find out I left my folk and friends with the aim to clear my mind out Well I hit the rowdy road and many kinds I met there Many stories told me of the way to get there So on and on I go, the seconds tick the time out There's so much left to know, and I'm on the road to find out Well in the end I'll know, but on the way I wonder

• love and rockets: all in my mind

Walk around so cold So cold and lonely Or lay in vbed wondering what To do with time You've got no sense of fun Until you know you've won again And yet you feel so much You feel so much inside You want to rip all the Jewels off all the idiots' backs so badly You scream give me what I've always Missed, give me a good time but if you look into your mirror You'll see that nobody has ever ripped you off It's all in your mind

• neil diamond: i am i said

I am, I said To no one there And no one heard at all Not even the chair I am, I cried I am, said I And I am lost, and I can't even say why Leavin' me lonely still But I got an emptiness deep inside And I've tried but it won't let me go And I'm not a man who likes to swear But I've never cared for the sound of being alone

• pink floyd: wot's...uh deal

Mile after mile Stone after stone Just turn to speak but you're alone Million miles from home you're on your own So let me in from the cold Turn my lead into gold Cause there's chill wind blowing in my soul And I think I'm growing old

• t-rex: life's a gas

I could have built a house On the ocean I could have placed your love In the sky. But it really doesn't matter at all No it really doesn't matter at all Life's a gas, I hope it's gonna last

• wonder stuff: mission drive

My Mission Drive, is to open up my eyes, and I don't car who wants to stare these days. To realize, to be brought back down to size, the wicked lies and all the shite you say. I'm not losing my mind, no I'm not changing my lines, I'm just learning new things with the passage of time.

• dolly parton: travellin thru

Well I can't tell you where I'm going, I'm not sure of where I've been But I know I must keep travelin' till my road comes to an end I'm out here on my journey, trying to make the most of it I'm a puzzle, I must figure out where all my pieces fit

• john parr: st elmo's fire

Growin' up, you don't see the writing on the wall Passin' by, movin' straight ahead, you knew it all But maybe sometime if you feel the pain You'll find you're all alone, everything has changed Play the game, you know you can't quit until it's won Soldier on, only you can do what must be done You know in some way you're a lot like me You're just a prisoner and you're tryin' to break free

• modest mouse: gravity rides everything

Oh gotta see, gotta know right now What's that riding on your everything? It isn't anything at all I wanna go back to sleep In the motions and the things that you say It all will fall, fall right into place As fruit drops, flesh it sags Everything will fall right into place When we die, some sink and some lay But at least I don't see you float away And all the spilt milk, sex and weight It all will fall, fall right into place