Tuesday, December 1:

• first day of december/summer / 24 days 'til christmas!!!
• slept in, had brunch, got ready and headed to valley plaza for my passport photos
• got home, finished working on my session and sharing, napped for a bit and then got picked up by A
• dropped by tito rhei's and visited nanay, tatay, aldrei and elyze before they leave for phils
• confession and mass at good sheps
  • definitely something i needed - "God doesn't love you because you are perfect. Remember that" - thanks bro. pat
• screening/preps at the cerdan's residence
  • full house - A, sam, dean, karren, danny, nyn, joseph, chris, thom, annemarie, faye, ej, yeli, kevin, mayon, riz, serenade, cissy
  • the coords full intimidating at first when going to screen but oh man tita bern especially is so hilarious
  • wedding dress, scattegories, thom's laptop dilemma, arroz caldo, calamansi juice
  • solid worship by dean to end the night

Wednesday, December 2:

• work 8:30-2:00
  • was almost late 'cause of m4 traffic
  • worked with kim, jae, frances and tin
  • morning was pretty smooth - nek minnit gets smashed all throughout lunch D:
• got home, showered and did nothing but youtube and chill out 'cause my body's knackered

Thursday, December 3:

• work 8:30-2:00
  • worked with kim, mark and jae
  • pretty chill compared to yesterday
  • the biebs, willy wonka, learning how to cut chicken
• got home, knocked out, showered and got ready
• late night at the square with the parentals
  • tried to find good sales at dick smith but it's not until saturday lol
• visited A before i left - always lovely being able to surprise him
• bought myself a creme brulee chiller at GJ's - totally forgot there was coffee in it haha hopefully i don't stay up too late tonight
• final preps + packing before discovery tomorrow D:

Friday, December 4:

• DAY 1 OF INSIDE OUT - DISCOVERY CAMP!!!!
• last minute preps at home before heading out with cis - dropped off stuff at tita lani's, powerpoint, packing
• gerry met us at home and we picked up ralph before heading to wedderburn
• dat trek to get there though - drive itself wasn't so bad
• friday nights never run on time because everyone's coming from everywhere but it worked out in the end
• kevin for opening worship!
• trust thom and his creative games to break the ice
• talk 1: through the father's eyes (kevin)
  • thom and i for skit - many nerves
  • sharer - dean
  • laminin
• talk 2: perfect moments (cissy)
  • sharers - joseph and serenade
  • embarrassing family photos - even jeb had a mad throwback photo of us hahaha
• stayed up waiting for nyn and the rest of the fairfield girls who came straight from sam smith

Saturday, December 5:

• DAY TWO OF DISCOVERY
• A for opening service team worship
• CPT to start the day off - it was lovely doing reflection songs with A again
• talk 3: friends for life (nyn)
  • sharers: A and myself - was able to keep it together with the emotions
• more of thom's ice-breaking games haha
• free-time/lunch!!
• talk 3.5: exhortation/talents (yeli)
  • so proud of her for leading her first session ever!!!
• WORKSHOPS!!!
  • karren and A for cooking - made us the best carb-loaded dinner haha
  • nelly and cis for band-ter - YOUR SKIN, OH YEAH YOUR SKIN AND BONES
  • thom for acting - cute inside out skit
  • nyn and danny for dance - kev and i ended up joining in hahaha
• showcasing of all the talents after dinner
• mad anxious and stressed moment after how far behind we were - shoutout to kevin and thom for calming me down again
• talk 4: true love waits (thom)
  • sharer - dad (much cute)
  • such a good wake up call in reflecting upon my relationship with A
• brothers/sisters forum
  • so glad the sisters opened up and started expressing their opinions and asking more questions
• cissy for closing praisefest
  • pour and flow = tears and feelzzz
  • prayovers - was doing SO well until i reached thom and cissy and even B
• midnight brownies and ice-cream and bonfire/stargazing/photo ops with West

Sunday, December 6:

• LAST DAY OF DISCOVERY :(((
• again, late start 'cause of how late we all slept
• pancakes for breakfast doe
• talk 5: free to choose (led by me)
  • sharers - ej and faye (always so inspired by them)
• mass with fr. bong - thanks to thom, cissy and A for being so clutch with liturgy preps
• lunch time! - finishing letter writing, playing with hannah
• closing praisefest led by thom - more feelzzz
  • my heart seeing A cry during their ctown circle :(
• super doopers, packing, photo slides, group photo, 'hot' potato, poolside chills with West afterwards
  • newcomb ball, marco polo, battle royal, bull rush, being flipped all over the place by A
• memphis wings for a last feed before we all headed home
• catching up with the parentals, post-camp shower and chills in your bed, reading letters with A over the phone and catching up on social media

Monday, December 7:

• slept in until 1 today lol woops
• chilled out, got ready then headed to bonny plaza to buy part 2 of cissy's present
• swapped cars with dad before heading to work
• staff meeting - many changes at work but i'm keen for hopefully more shifts

Tuesday, December 8:

• Feast of the Immaculate Conception of Mary
• A picked me up and we dropped off his car to get it serviced
• had brunch at cafe cherry bean at stockies
  • chicken and cheese melt with mushroom and avo was so good
  • great iced coffee too
• started our christmas shopping - bought the rest of cissy's present + bebe roshes and jordan onesies for bebe martins
  • bumped into bencio and dre at almost every store we went to - they even watched creed with us too haha
• used mum's free ticket to watch creed - pretty good
• picked up A's car and chilled back at home
• celebrated mass with the fams - saw fran for the last time before she heads to the phills next week
• had pho for dinner - didn't realise how hungry i was until i smashed through the pepper steak
• finally watched the mid-season finale of walking dead - so many cliffhangers
• also tried out the family feud board game - pretty fun, keen to play with a massive group
• what started out as a lovely day ended in weirdness and feeling crappy about myself - sigh :(

Wednesday, December 9:

• work 10:30-4:00
  • woke up not wanting to go to work 'cause of last night - forced myself to get up
  • worked with jeric, tin and alisha - got smashed
  • stayed back to help out with the rearranging of the cafe nek minnit didn't have the powerpoints we needed for the plumbing system to be installed
  • at least we got free dinner - thanks kim and candice :)
• drove home to thunder and humidity
• had the best shower - spent the whole night on the interwebs
• it sucks though when he's not around when you need him most

Thursday, December 10:

• most unproductive day
• slept in 'til about 10
• did nothing but scroll through social media, watch jane the virgin, VS fashion show and annie
• started looking up christmas presents to distract myself

Friday, December 11:

• training 10:30-4:00
  • whole day at work spent training around in the kitchen, learning how to prep and cook and how to use my time wisely
  • kinda scared to be cooking by myself but i gotta start somewhere
• got home, glad traffic wasn't so bad
• got my semester grades - 1 D and 2 Cs not bad considering how much i struggled this sem
• high school musical 2 and legally blonde 2 to try and distract me 'cause i always get so worried whenever A doesn't update me during his nights that involve drinking

Saturday, December 12:

• work 9:00-4:00
  • worked with kim, claire, jae, candice and dillon
  • got smashed the first half of the day 'cause dillon didn't rock up 'til late
  • body is rekt :(
  • did my first successful upsell though hehe
• got home, showered and then headed to mass at bossley with cis
  • bui came too - it was actually pretty lovely seeing him go to mass on his own accord hehe
• fatmans for dinner afterwards with cis, bui and A
• got home, folded clothes, watched LOTR and the end of hancock
  • now i know why it'll take forever to get through the whole trilogy lol
  • autopilot beb is my favourite

Sunday, December 13:

• work 9:00-4:00
  • worked with kim, bella, mark, jae and candice
  • wasn't as crazy as yesterday which is good
• drove straight to tita myrn's from work for the novena
  • even got to shower at hers
  • played with the little kiddies today - angelo so chubzzz, gerard who will be your bestfriend if you give him your keys, ano the most makulit, and ate alessandra who's finally opening up to me more
• cis and i left for ball
• last mixed game for the year
  • we were up the whole game and then somehow in the last minute we tied
  • nek minnit cissy gets a buzzer beater 3 for us wooooo
• ended up knocking out on the couch with A
  • dad woke me up at 12 to go back into my room and now i can't sleep. great.

Monday, December 14:

• woke up grumpy 'cause i had to drop dad off at livo station at 7:30
  • A kept me company on my drive
  • bumped into Mark at one of the traffic lights haha he was even head bopping as usual :p
• went back to sleep for a bit before getting ready to go drop A's car off to get it serviced (again)
• drove to A's - fell back asleep again while A was showering and washing up (derped for a bit too :p)
• eventually headed out and had brunch at cafe cherry bean at campbelltown mall (biggest servings out of all that we've been to)
• started christmas shopping at kmart for KKs before heading to mac square
  • was actually very productive and crossed off 90% of my list! wooooo
• headed back to bonnyrigg to pick up A's car
  • bought some sour watermelon slurpees from HJs 'cause it was sooooo hot today
• chilled back at mine before he had to go and save his ate from being locked out
• tried out the new 'saladmaker' for dinner - not bad, just less flavour and seasoning
• spent the night wrapping presents while A and cis played some games at the salvos'

Tuesday, December 15:

• work 10:30-4:00
  • actually ended up working 10:00-4:15 'cause of all the new renovations at work
  • worked with jeric, dillon and tin
  • cafe didn't open 'til 11 'cause we had a short circuit and the coffee machine was down
  • weirdest day though - went by slow but also fast at the same time?
• got home and quickly showered, got ready and printed off the photos for thom's present
• kevin picked us up and we met up with everyone at glenfield station
  • scattegories on the train ride to central
• all you can eat brazilian at fogo central park
  • 100% ATTENDANCE YAY
  • food coma from ALL the meat - the beef and chorizo and calamari salad were my faves as well as the lemon lime bitters
• ALL the photos ops first at the stairs at central park, some random steps and eventually darling harbour
• ended up catching the last train home before nightriders lol
  • more scattegories - dede long legs, stupid humour after 12am

Wednesday, December 16:

• woke up at 10:30ish, got ready and headed to wetherill
  • managed to get a parking spot
• finally finished all my christmas shopping (except for A's little something special)
• brought home butter chicken for cis and i
• finally wrapped all my presents before thom came and picked me up
• cooked our roast for HH at kevin's
• final yfc nsw upper HH for 2015!!!
  • almost full attendance - faith, joseph, thom, kevin, lorraine, cyron, bernard, koreen, alyssa, laurence, topher, nikki, tim, mandrid, karen, janbee (for a bit)
  • ALL the chicken and food and ice-cream
  • scattegories and dirty santa - got myself a new backpack for uni hehe
• first midnight screening ever for TFA with A (and kevin and cis and bernard haha)!!!
  • bumped into heaps of people - darren cabs, gaddi, lorraine, nyn, danny, david, bonita, EJ

Thursday, December 17:

• star wars wasn't as amazing as the hype made it to be
• slept in until 1pm
• was weird the whole day, but so thankful for A and his patience and love
  • he had to leave early though for work :(
• late night with the familya
  • bought cissy's presents for KK and angelo
  • mamak for dinner - glad we have fast food malaysian now
• ordered the last of A's present too when i got home - praying it comes on time!
• slowly getting better at wrapping presents though

Friday, December 18:

• first 7am shift - 7:00-1:00
  • more kitchen training with candice - slowly getting there
  • photos with santa, bella and claire
• checked out nike factory store on the way home
  • bought myself a new sports bra to hopefully motivate me to exercise again lol - it was 50% off!
• chilled out for the rest of the day before 2 more days of work :(:

Saturday, December 19:

• work 8:30-3:30
  • worked with bella, jeric, dillon, jae and candice
  • wasn't as busy as other saturdays
  • bella twerking on dillon
  • dillon going on and on about his present for christine
• drove straight to mass singing afterwards
  • creepy carlos in finding out louise's scent hahaha
• got home and quickly showered, got ready then drove with A to tin's house
• christine's birthday shindig
  • chilled out with the work crew the whole night
  • cute bebe carter, roasting dillon and mark, scary stories with jeje, dillon and A 'til everyone pretty much left
• A took a quick nap at mine before heading home

Sunday, December 20:

• work 9:00-4:00
  • blue christmas for beyond blue!!!
  • worked with kim, mark, tin, jae and candice
  • started off not being really busy... until the live music started playing
  • ate maiko, aika and jessica day sounded greaaat!
  • tin, kim and i being reindeers thanks to sean's face-painting station
  • faith, qwayne and gelina even dropped by to listen to some tunes and had lunch
• was supposed to go tita myrn's after work but i went home instead 'cause i was too exhausted from work the past 3 days - honestly don't know how full time workers who work 5 days a week do it
• was supposed to go on a double date with dean and karren but they wanted to go ctown area and the cascades. yeah nah not today.
• you know what would be a nice gesture though? actually having plans and asking me if i want to go out or something and not always leaving me to do the organising and asking to hang out. i know people show love in different ways but it's also very difficult when they don't know what i appreciate most. presence > presents any day.
  • so you're keen to go out tonight but since it's cancelled you don't want to anymore. cool. i know i should be vocal about it but i can't deal with anymore confrontation.
  • rant over. what a way to end the weekend.

Monday, December 21:

• kept waking up during the night and even in the morning
• eventually got up at 1 'cause my package arrived - dat express shipping doe
  • new fave sandals! plus i hope A likes his little present hehe
• spent the afternoon wrapping presents and watching high school musical with cis
• headed to stockies with the fams
  • grill'd for dinner
  • mum's last minute christmas shopping
  • should've gone mac square and visited beb hey

Tuesday, December 22:

• fell asleep watching miss universe - woke up with the TV still on woops
• work 10:30-4:00
  • worked with jeje, alisha and jae
  • wasn't too busy because of the rain
• got home and was too tired to do anything
• eventually showered and got ready for mass singing practice
  • actually getting throat pains from failing to reach the high F for dad's favourite song :(
• smashed through dinner 'cause i hadn't eaten since 1
• gotta get used to A not being around. especially when 2017 comes along :(

Wednesday, December 23:

• HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE EVE
• another sleep in for me - got scared 'cause i woke up to knocking nek minnit it was the lawn mowing guys lol
• chill day at home catching up on youtube and what not
• A surprised me with flowers, gaytime tub and a snack pack run for dinner hahaha he da baest!
  • watched movies all night - missed him heaps!

Thursday, December 24:

• CHRISTMAS EVE ALREADY WHATTTT
• another chill day at home before getting ready for mass singing
• Christmas Mass singing at good sheps
  • the most packed our choirs' been praise God
• dinner with the Angeles clan
  • first time participating in their family traditions aka staying alert for money! haha
  • played family feud - we clutched it in the end after losing 3/4 rounds and winning golden point hehe
  • most intense game of popping balloons blindfolded HAHA sorry tita susan!
  • opened some pressies at A's place - feeling more and more loved and welcomed by his fams each year :)
  • A got his undies, fifa and fallout haha
  • anthony getting excited over justin bieber hahahaha
• headed back to mine and opened pressies with my fams
  • cissy finally gets his PS4!
  • parentals actually got me the daisy by marc jacobs perfume yaaaas
  • BB-8 and R2-D2 pop vinyl figures, watermelon candle, all black huaraches!!!, gabe bondoc tickets, nano-block pikachu and a Marc Jacobs watch from bebbbbb - super spoilt to the max!!!
  • super super blessed - thank You Lord!
• A slept over and tucked me in after playing a few fifa games with cis haha

Friday, December 25:

• 8am wake up call for a last minute photo shoot with the fams aka ballers haha
• got ready and headed to the hall near blacktown for our christmas party with the fams!
• so good seeing everyone again - finally got to meet benji han!!!
• ALL the food, cis, A and me winning all the parlour games hehehe, A and cis getting more moolah during bad santa and chilling with all the cuzzies and playing with ano and angelo
  • even got angelo to knock out in my arms haha
• headed home and the parentals and A had a siesta while cis and i played some battlefront and fifa lol
• chilled with A when he woke up, playing guess that song and being the odd lovebirds that we are which i missed heaps :)
• played some battlefront with A and little big planet with cis before he had to leave :( - withdrawals haha
• mini reflection of just how great God is and how much He loves me despite my imperfections, constantly blessing me with His graces and love through him and my family :) happy birthday, Jesus!

Saturday, December 26:

• BOXING DAY!!!
• kinda wish i wasn't working so i could try and get some mad boxing day steals but i do need the money lol
• work 9:00-2:00
  • considering we were the only cafe open in the area it was surprisingly not too busy hence i was able to leave at 2 instead of 4
• ended up heading to mac square with the parentals after work hehe
  • got a cute duster coat, skirt and striped tee + fran's christmas present as well as a lil something for myself and A hehe
  • visited A when it was "quiet"
  • dora came as well to pick up bernard
• christmas dinner at spurs with A and the familya - cis came straight from the city
  • food coma D:
• got left behind at all the red lights while dad kept driving nek minnit ended up beating him home hehe

Saturday, December 27:

• woke up with TOM, cramps and no voice :(
• mass singing in the morning was a struggle
• brunch at pho with kuya jun, ate odette and bebe andrea - we became best mates hehe
• got home and knocked out after taking my gamot lol
• jeje picked me up and we headed to olympic park for our work christmas party
• FX trampoline dodgeball with the twine and twig famz
  • jeje, dillon, tin, bella, claire, kim, candice, mark, jae, richard, mark's sister
  • pretty fun getting hit in the face and jumping around like little kids haha
  • one hour is more than enough time though hehe
• dinner at cookies pub
  • mediocre food and service tbh - drinks were good haha
  • dirty santa - most fun one i've had hahahaha poor jeric and his gift
• dessert at cheeky chocolate
  • had this nice hazelnut cake with my coffee
• jammin' on the drive home with jeric, dillon and tin to old school faves hahaha
• chillin' and catchin' up with bae over the phone afterwards

Monday, December 28:

• woke up at around 11ish
• friends marathon for literally though whole day 'cause TOM lol
• A came over after work - showed him mum's side of our family tree hehe
• dinner at ace's house - tita's famous mango float yaaaas!!!
  • caught up with ace as well
• got a free massage from beb which knocked us both out - it's always lovely when we nap together :)

Tuesday, December 29:

• work 10:30-4:00
  • worked with jeric, tin and alisha
  • went by pretty fast even though it wasn't so busy and it felt slow lol
  • bebe carter so cute though haha
• got home pretty much the same time as beb
• last routine tuesday of the year with A :)
  • franny's back!!!
• 2K and rocket league before i got all kawawa and got A to stay and watched taken and ate gaytimes to make me feel better - oh man how did i get blessed with a patient and loving man like him? :')

Wednesday, December 30:

• slept in 'till about 11
• got ready and dropped my car off at franny's
• brunch/catch up/coffee date with franny at pie&co
  • almost everything had already sold out though :(
  • had an awesome catch up though about life and what not - from weddings to love lives to career/uni to our own personal lives ahhhhh super blessed to have her in my life
• got home, helped fold and do laundry and watched cissy play 2K
• agreed with the parentals of my new prescription sunnies and phone wooooo hopefully get them tomorrow hehe

Thursday, December 31:

• slept in 'til about 10:30
• headed to livo westfields with mumma to see if i can get my new phone and sunnies
  • can't upgrade until feb and i can't get the ray bans i want anymore 'cause mum had an argument with the crazy lady lol
  • had a lovely brunch with her and ninong robert and ninang sally hehe - dem poached eggs with pesto and avo but
  • picked out prettier frames and even got my eyes checked out at specsavers - new optometrist is heaps friendly and actually explains what's wrong with my eyes haha
  • did last minute grocery shopping as well before the new year
• chilled out and got ready to go ace's
• new year's eve party at ace's
  • mainly played games with ace's friends
  • had a good run at tekken and scored my first three goals in fifa ever hehehe dat team work with beb
  • got weird throughout the night though 'cause of A's salty losses
  • watching the fireworks together made it feel better
• headed to karren's after midnight
  • miguel, jilly, efren, dean, karren, A, cis, kev, jeb and justin
  • drinks with the boyzzz, the stupid bottle cap game, family feud (the golden point that took foreverrrr), beer pong and somehow fitting in karren's granny flat before moving to the living room at 6am haha