Thursday, January 1:

• what a way to start the year
• intoxication + emotional drunk dez = not a good combination
• i'm blessed with great friends and even greater company though
• even got to see
• wouldn't have wanted to spend new years any other way
• "your personality, your spirituality, and your long legs" - B.C - hahahaha, made my night
• SQUAD 2013 = faves
• inflatable pools, DIY water slides, KFC and halo-halo are the perfs way to cure a hangover

Friday, January 2:

• can't believe the cafe across the street isn't open until the 6th of jan
• i can't deal with getting smashed at work 3 days in a row now
• so glad i have a day off saturday before i go back sunday
• broke a latte glass and dropped food out of stress, burnt myself with hot water AND got an aching back from washing dishes and a headache from the heat
• BUT praise God for an incredible boyfriend who told me to list something positive that happened for every negative thing that happened at work. as hard as it was to do, i came up with it
  • I got to see Elodie again (missed working with her)
  • I got to finish work on time (even though I didn't get a break)
  • I made a great salad for brunch
  • Candice and Jae came in to help us even though it was their day off (even though Jeric left us)
• on the plus side, there was no traffic on the way to work and back
• memories from last night are slowly coming back to me now
• this year is gonna be a different one. A lot of reflecting and actually doing something about what needs to be changed and done
• "this is your year Dez. 2015 will be our year" - K.D

Saturday, January 3:

• catching up with the bespren is always great
• Franny is great
• made me realise even more things about who I am and what values I have
• spontaneous games/movie night with the most random group - villas, Jeb, Vince, Yumul and A
• the joy of mass singing :') - using my talent to glorify God

Sunday, January 4:

• another day of getting smashed at work
• as much as I love the people I work with, I need another job. I honestly wouldn't mind working two jobs. Anything that beats just getting 1-2 shifts a week
• what started as a lovely night with bae always ends in me and my stupid pride and stubbornness. Probably my worst flaws. Lord please.

Monday, January 5:

• can't believe I actually thought that alcohol would make me feel better about myself
• so glad I chose not to scull that bottle down
• what the heck am I doing with my life?
• feels good to exercise again... even though i felt like passing out afterwards
• man i'm unfit. i need to get back into shape

Tuesday, January 6:

• staying at home does have it's pros and cons
  • PRO: some much needed me-time
  • CON: overthinking and all the 'what if's
• keen for a night with great company though
  • big hero 6 = feels fest
  • biggest letdown driving to hooters only to have them tell us that kitchen's closed
  • Harry's and KKs for ages
  • worst time to have a mini attack though. So hard to keep it together

Wednesday, January 7:

• had the craziest dream - totally action movie material - with gun shooting and me being used as bait/hostage and potential bombings and bae trying to be the hero type stuff
• probably had my worst attack to date - this is why i can never be left alone
• and all because of this idea that has been planted into my head that i did not think about or have to worry about until now. frick i'm already failing my resolution of not doubting and not overthinking. ugh.
• i am starting to appreciate my afternoon jogs/walks to and around the park though

Thursday, January 8:

• instead of being out at the beach I'm stuck here watching the tennis
• on the plus side had a great dinner out at Hooters AND Outback Steakhouse for Tito Jhune's birthday :)
• and a spontaneous night of Just Dance with the Salvos - dem piggybacks and changing formations hahaha
• praise God I didn't have an attack today :)
• A's attempt at trying to freestyle about me always makes my night
• stayed up waiting for my aircon to cool my room + started playing duolingo (time to practice my Spanish)

Friday, January 9:

• got smashed at work, yet again. thought it was going to be our first chill day in like over a week. JOKES
• Jilly and Bonita + Sam and Gina visited though - always great to see their lovely faces
• biggest clutz (is that the word?) today - kept making the coffees wrong and i kept spilling everything. ahhhh today was not my day
• what i get for having a 5 day break from work lol
• girls night at Alanis' :D (minus Karen :( i miss her!)
  • potato scallops, chicken kebab sticks, calamari, prawn cutlets, chicken caesar salad, potato salad, chips and gravy and a whole chicken with garlic sauce for dinner (whatta feast!!!)
  • learning about what we're like drunk HAHAHA
  • Penguins of Madagascar, bits and pieces of Horrible Bosses 2 and the start of Birdman (looked like a trippy movie that I'd like lol)
  • midnight Ben and Jerry's run (hence why I'm still up at 2am lol)
  • crying at how we still haven't been able to play Taboo and Cards Against Humanity haha
  • grateful that I'm still in contact with my girls even though I barely see them anymore

Saturday, January 10:

• miss grumpy pants appeared in the morning after sleeping in way too late and feeling sick from all the rice
• spontaneous family outing to DFO - bought myself another kimono (woooo) and a '96 tee
• first time going to mass as a whole family in a while - felt nice being with them today
• mumma spoiling us not only with shopping money for DFO but also dinner at Rashays to celebrate her bonus
• most intense Brisbane International finals - battle of the beauties Ivanovic vs. Sharapova (proud of you Maria! you totally deserved that win!)
• feeling down by the end of night, as usual, no surprise
• sorta not keen for an 8am instead of a 9am start for work but i need the money. sigh (mo' money mo' problems)

Sunday, January 11:

• probably the most quietest Sunday I've worked so far - darn you rain
• was privileged enough to be barista for the day - felt pretty great
• dat pulled pork burger was amaaaaazing
• some customers can be so stubborn (smh)
• mumma flaunting her new Michael Kors bag probably made my day
• such a mission cleaning my room today (achievement unlocked though!) - on the plus side I found my old GameBoy Colour: Pokemon edition hehe

Monday, January 12:

• basketball at Miller to celebrate Ron's return hehe
• the struggle to find a good place to eat after a crazy ball sesh - Tornados will do
• most spontaneous Just Dance sesh for ages with the Salvos and A (JDC - Just Dance Crew for Australia's best dance crew hahaha)
  • A's sassy walk
  • Cissy's dancing face
  • my leg kick during Aladdin
• PewDiePie and other random YouTube videos to end the night

Tuesday, January 13:

• slept in 'til 2pm
• ate leftover calamari and prawn cutlets for brunch (if you can still consider that brunch)
• watched the Golden Globes - YAYYYYYY Gina Rodriguez!!!
• finally got to start routine Tuesdays with the bae agaain for 2015
  • couldn't control my emotions though and i kinda broke down during and after Mass
• had Golden King for dinner - mmm two unhealthy dinners in a row
• was gonna watch Boyhood but then found out Nick Kygrios is playing - nek minnit rain delays. sighhhh
• even more mood swings to end the night. lovely.

Wednesday, January 14:

• slept in 'til 11
• found out that there's an In-N-Out pop up store in Parra today
• went all the way there with A to find out it's sold out :(
• wanted to try Paper Plane Cafe to find out it's closed until the 27th :( (it's Frangos all over again)
• had Papparich instead - his first time (dat watermelon juice was pretty great though)
• walked around Parra in the aircon before we headed back
  • bought a couple more summer tops and another kimono 'cause it was on sale at Valleygirl - woooo bargains! (wanted these sandals too but they were out of my size :( damn my abnormally small feet haha)
  • got some Boost for the road - dat Watermelon Crush!
• A had to leave early 'cause of his work meeting :(

Thursday, January 15:

• slept in 'til 12 (man either I sleep too late or I just sleep in way too much but ugh I need to work on my sleeping patterns ASAP or else I'm screwed for work and uni)
• got a random phone call from Cyron regarding the rules of Shipwreck haha
• had leftover Golden King for brunch
• chilled out until I needed to get ready for the staff meeting/farewell dinner for Els
• got to work late 'cause Jeric slept in and we couldn't find parking
• had dinner at Korean BBQ at Strathfield
  • so crowded - food was worth it but
  • Jeric and our struggle to find parking
  • Jeric and I smashing all the BBQ
  • sharing our best memories with Elodie :(:
• got dropped home by the Sentinas - had some Adriano Zumbo Tim Tams and talked about clubbing and uni

Friday, January 16:

• another sleep in for me
• woke up to bae's morning prayer for me - always one of the best things to wake up to
• woke up to dad saying brunch is ready - didn't go to work 'cause he had a doctor's appointment
• dropped him off at livo to get a CT scan
• parked at livo and bought myself a nice hat for Queensland and used the rest of my Myer gift card to buy Revlon matte Colour Burst lipbalm 'cause it was one sale - ended up using only $2.45 hehe
• Michel's iced coffee for the drive home
• had a nice chill afternoon 'til Cis called me in 'cause dad got shooting pains again
  • first time i saw Cis cry in a long time
  • had to call mum to come home 'cause we didn't know what to do - we couldn't move him at all; just gave him his medication
  • prayed the Rosary as a family
• A came over after work to help see how dad is doing - dat physio lyf
• did insanity with A and Cis - death
• chicken katsu and rice for dinner
• watched Kill Bill Vol. 2 to end the night
• too many emotions when it's late at night. so not good for me

Saturday, January 17:

• woke up with a throbbing back pain - sympathy pains for dad or post-insanity pain orrrrr?
• went with mum to pick up dad's results from the CT scan
• Crunchy Nut for brunch
• New Girl marathon with Cis and Mumma
• Pho for merienda
• Mass with cissy at JB
• dinner + movie Saturdate with bae
  • one of A's regulars served us haha
  • food came late 'cause the docket got burnt lol - got drinks on the house wooooo
  • gave us waaaaay too many fries though haha - dem onion rings and cheese steak hey?
  • just made it to the movies - Taken 3 (was alright, wasn't the best ending though

Sunday, January 18:

• I seriously love my work mates - they make work fun and make me forget how tiring it can be
  • showing my inner ghetto-ness thanks to jeje's playlist
• made it to our first halo-halo game of the year on time
• played one of my worst though - heaps rusty
• fun drive home with jeb and cissy
• nice having dinner with the fams
• mood swings and crazy emotions and super-senstive, annoying, overthinking dez comes out. ugh, i hate this. i hate how i can't get rid of this lump in my throat. why. why does this always have to ruin everything.

Monday, January 19:

• dropped cis off at livo only to find out all his mates bailed - poor guy
• had a great catch up with Mayon! - drove her to work - had brekkie for lunch :p
  • reminiscing about Phills
  • reminiscing about YFC
  • changes in West
  • Jeric joining us on his break
  • singing Taylor Swift
• Basketball at Wenden - always good to see a little improvement with my shots
• watching the tennis with bae - GO KOKKINAKIS!!!
• always ending the night in sadness.

Tuesday, January 20:

• woke up to rain - best sleep in weather... unfortunately I had to work
• quiet start to the day 'cause of the rain. then lunch time came and we were kinda getting smashed. at least i'm getting better at coffees :)
• can never go wrong with chicken and avo on multigrain sourdough
• felt like passing out the whole day
• the drive home was the worst. felt like i was gonna KO or pass out from the fatigue.
• slept for almost 4 hours when i got home - ultimate mood swings came after that.
• the tennis sorta made me feel better. and also A when he came to visit.
• although now we're both not in the mood. and we're both really stubborn. this is not good. best way to end the night. i don't even know if i'll see him before I leave for Queensland. yay.

Wednesday, January 21:

• my last shift with Nonna :(
  • got to see Elodie at least before she leaves!
  • got complimented on my coffee - always a great feeling :)
• met up with Sam, Cis, A and Jeb at DFO
  • bumped into Emem at JB-Hi-Fi - hooked us up with discounts for our GoPro accessories hehehe
• tennis with the boyzzzzz - i actually miss playing! gotta work on my backhand and serve though
• Kaye's 7th birthday at Lollipops!
  • felt soooo good to be a kid again
  • awesome catch ups with Franny and Uriel
  • Adon's new girl hehehehe
• packing for Queensland - ceebs
  • Uriel kept me company though with her serenading and stories
• thank You Lord for better days

Thursday, January 22:

• galavanting with the Buenos: Gold Coast edition
• woke up with TOM - always the greatest timing -_-
• our flight left at 12pm and we landed 1215 Queensland time (dat time travel though)
• lunch at Pacific Fair - scouting out potential items I wanted to buy here
• checked in at Wyndham Resorts - perks of my parents being owners (free hotel!!!)
• first night in watching tennis and drinking cruisers
  • talking about how I don't get any of mum's traits except her drunkenness LOL

Friday, January 23:

• was supposed to go Movie World today but the rain was too crazy here :(
• went to Harbourtown instead for some shopping
  • missed out on $60 theas - it's okay though, they weren't meant to be
  • love my new swimsuit and sandals though! - Windsor Smith from $140 to $25 wooooo
  • also got me some workout gear from Cotton On - hopefully as motivation to continue my healthy regime
• Grill'd for lunch
• got our photos taken for our VIP passes to all the theme parks - can't believe there were still people at Movie World today despite the crazy rain
• dad's RAK - dropping off this old man who was waiting in the freezing cold rain for a cab
• pizza and Cuban chicken and fries for dinner with red velvet ice-cream for dessert - you go Gold Coast
• got to catch up with bae for a little bit - miss that derp

Saturday, January 24:

• woke up to the beautiful sun aka. perfs weather for MOVIE WORLD
• wild wild west x2 with mumma and Cis
• scooby doo ride still gets to me every time haha - child at heart
• photos with my faves - tweety, bugs bunny, batman, the flash, green lantern (missed out on the Joker, Harley Quinn and Wonder Woman my faves)
• lunch at Gotham City cafe - biggest rip off for food
• Justice League 3D ride and Rio 4D to turn down in the air con along with some Ben and Jerry's for dessert
• superman escape before the parade - will never get over how fast this ride is
• parents left us seats for the parade... which turned out to be crap compared to previous years
• bought bae's pasalubong
• green lantern ride to end the day
• maccas run for merienda - angus mac goes alright
• chillin by the beach wasting film making memories with the fams
• Asian for dinner - pork fried rice and a fake chicken Pad Thai whilst watching Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone - still remember all the lines

Sunday, January 25:

• 8am mass at St. Augustine's in Coolangatta
• HJs for brekkie - i wish they sold iced coffee there
• sea world in the morning - ragrets 'cause of the 40 degree heat and how boring the attractions are (no offence)
  • the penguins were probs the cutest thing though
  • Viking flume water ride with mum and Cis - I'm always the one that gets the most soaked
  • Spongebob 3D movie to stay in aircon for a bit - would've been better if it was in 4D tbh
• drove to surfer's paradise 'cause it got way to hot for us
  • Hurricane's for lunch for the first time - biggest wagyu burger ever!!! and i had the best lemon lime bitters so far
• strolled around the shops nearby - dad bought navy fluxes haha
  • also bought A's socks that I know he'll like
• boost and ben and jerry's for dessert
• dad and I chilled at Kirra Beach while mum and cissy took a nap
• Cuban chicken round 2 'cause dad couldn't find Nandos lol
• most intense 5 set match ever - Seppi v.s. Kyrgios
• mum and dad laughing so much they were crying because of their failed attempts to laugh without smiling
• catch ups with bae to end the night 'cause I miss him

Monday, January 26:

• HAPPY STRAYA DAY CUZ
• woke up to more sunny weather = WET N WILD
• wave pool with the fams for agessssss
• 2 rounds of the aqua loop 'cause it was dad's favourite ride (and only ride he could go on) and there were no queues 'cause not many people were game enough to go on
• 2 rounds of mammoth falls 'cause it was mum's favourite ride
• ridin' on donuts at Calypso beach
• burnt feet from the hot concrete and crazy tan lines from the sun lol
• left early and went to kirra beach to catch some real waves before the rain kicked in
• finished all our leftovers while watching the tennis
• gin rummy to end the night - they call me MISS CLUTCH
• i actually wished i was with bae today - jealous of all his adventures today and i wasn't there to spend it with him (although i shouldn't be jealous of other people's blessings and adventures when i have things to be grateful for too. sigh)

Tuesday, January 27:

• flew back to Sydney today!!! :(:
• checked in early - saw one of the regulars I serve at the cafe on the queue lol
• brunch at NRG - had nice wraps but their smoothies were pretty average and way overpriced
• HJ onion rings to make up for it
• killing time before boarding
• maddest turbulence towards the end of the flight 'cause of all the rain in Sydney
• praise God we made it home safely though!
• got to spend Routine Tuesdays with bae again!!! - 'reunited and it feels so good'
  • was good seeing Mayon, Marvi and James there too
• Golden King for dinner whilst watching QF Aus Open between Kyrgios and Murray (biggest upset though)
• sucks that bae has to leave early now 'cause of placement :(

Wednesday, January 28:

• recovery day - slept in, had brunch with the fams, watched BuzzFeed, Jimmy Fallon and Cookies dance vids for a good 2 hours or so
• yep, that's it. that's all i did today
• oh, and reading through 'The Chronicles' that bae got me for Christmas two years ago i.e. our whatsapp history from when we first started talking onwards. it's amazing how much we've changed in gotten closer and closer to each other in just two years
• oh, and started playing these 36 questions with bae to end the night - always fun getting to know just a little bit more about him

Thursday, January 29:

• first day back at work - got smashed lol - thank God I finished early
  • got to play with Noah during my break - he called me Nonna and 'Aunty Rory' hahahaha (close enough)
• parents bought us Potato Corner for merienda - their chicken tastes like Chicken Joy
• drove Cis to Minto for training - met up with bae as well - yep Mac Heat's training is more intense than Camden's
• heaps rusty with my shots - gonna be screwed for our game on Sunday and it sucks that it's at 8PM
• bae had dinner at ours afterwards - burgers and potato corner fries whilst watching the tennis - it was the first time he didn't finish his food
• ended the night the worst way - me in tears and going crazy. sigh i'm sorry beb

Friday, January 30:

• slept in 'til 12
• parents bought me satay chicken for brunch
• caught up on Jane the Virgin finally - missed that show - NEW FAVES
• saw a mouse in the house. that's it. not getting any sleep tonight until i know that mouse is dead.
• chilled until finally i got a message back from bae saying we can watch a movie tonight
• had a kebab for dinner - just as i took the last bite bae comes and kisses my oily mouth. i don't know he can say that he loves that haha
• The Theory of Everything was actually a really good movie. ON YA Eddie Redmayne!
• got to chill out with him before he had to go home for work the next day - i missed just being able to do that with him and not have an episode. so blessed to have him in my life

Saturday, January 31:

• 15 with bae!!!!
• kept him company as he drove to work this morning
• saturday in watching KUWTK (what have i become) and Youtube vids
• shopping for toiletries for SHOUT starting Monday - ended up spending $100 in total on both bae and I haha woops
• mass at John the Baptist - felt numb the whole time
• Aus Open women's finals night with bae