Friday, May 1:

• can't believe it's already May!!!
• still don't know why i choose to have 9am starts (and yet next sem every day i have is a 9am start lol)
• first tute - seriously need to find a way to enjoy this subject because i am struggling so much
  • although this week wasn't so bad because it was about food hehe
• spent my lunch break with some Spanish mates - talked about our exam, the Bali 9, living/studying abroad
  • mum also got our Les Mis tickets as my birthday present!!! you da real mvp
• Spanish to end the week - slowly starting to get the hang of sentence structuring, but not really lol
• came home to 4 more little kittens in our backyard - they drank all the milk i brought out haha
• got ready for our double date night hehe
  • A picked me up - it's legit a 30 min straight line to the diner place haha
  • as we got there the guy in front of us left and we got a mad parking spot in front of the diner
• double date with Dean and Karren at Back Galley Split
  • much good, very full
  • their gelatos and burgers were pretty good though - underestimated how filling their fries were haha
  • talked for agesssss - to the point where the diner had already closed lol woops
  • we should totally go on double dates more often haha
• chilled at home for a bit before A took his usual power nap before his drives

Saturday, May 2:

• woke up after the worst dream - never have i ever been harassed by a creepy guy until now
• had brunch with the fams - dad choked on a fish bone
• tried to finish my part of the group assignment due Tuesday before mass singing but i was struggling to find the sources i needed
• showered and headed to Good Sheps for mass
  • Carlos came back and Ron came to Mass
• headed home and tried to smash through my part of the assignment - i wanted to fix the reference list and get it out of the way but apparently some of my group hadn't finished their reference lists - sigh oh wells
• asked A to come over since he didn't have food at his and i needed moral support
  • he ended up just chilling with Cis watching Mayweather/Pacquiao stuff. cool.
  • left early to play GTA with the boys. even cooler.
• i'm not gonna let this upset me. nope. i'm gonna stop being a fricken sensitive emotional girl and get over it.

Sunday, May 3:

• Pacquiao vs. Mayweather!!! - and I'm at work today lol... and he lost :(
• got to work in 30 mins - new record haha
• was a slow start consisting of embarrassing fall stories, singing and dancing to early '00s jams but from about 10:30-1:30 we got smashed
  • some customers just need to realise that not all their needs can be met and learn not to complain about every little thing - smh
• was zoning out and auto-piloting on the drive home 'cause of lack of sleep and exhaustion
• had da best shower and almost da best nap lol
• Golden King for dinner - mmmm
• tried to smash through all the referencing - I love doing bibliographies, but having to fix sources that I never even looked at is actually hard work D:
• beb telling me has a lil' some'n some'n for me - hmmm ^_^

Monday, May 4:

• the struggle to get up this morning - team no sleep :(
• such a quiet morning with Jae, Kim and Mark but quickly turned to such a busy morning coffee rush to a crazy lunch rush that went on until i finished
• Jae hid my phone this whole time i was working - troll haha
• when i finally got my phone, first message i see is one of beb's lovely morning messages :') he knows me too well
• got home, showered, smashed through the rest of our group assignment due tomorrow and have been watching itsjudytime up until dinner because my brain is so fried D:
• and i still have another assignment to work on. ceeeeeebs
• on another note. my birthday is in 9 days. WHAT.

Tuesday, May 5:

• struggled to get up this morning again - idk why but i find it so hard to get up on tuesdays haha
• knocked out on the drive to the station again lol woopsie
• had breakfast at The Coffee Emporium before i headed to uni - just wanted to try their coffee and break my $20 so i had less change for the train hey?
  • pretty strong coffee though haha
• got to uni, tried to do the readings for today but failed
• watched a documentary called 'Inside Job' for the lecture today - started off pretty boring and weird but ended up being interesting, and made us feel slightly depressed because of how poor we are compared to the corporate world
• had lunch with the tuesday usuals - finished the rest of dad's pesto chicken sandwich - pretty good tbh
  • finally learnt where Mecca is - gonna try their coffee tomorrow before Spanish
• i was zoning in and out of my tute though - struggle street
• caught the train home with Koreen - got to catch up with her for a bit; talked so much that she almost missed her stop haha missed that gal!
• beb picked me up at the station and we did insanity before Routine Tuesday
  • even though it was only Cardio Recovery we still died hahaha gotta get back on dat grind!
• mass with A and the fams - feels like i haven't been in a while :(
• in need of a catch up with Franny - something's not right :/
• ribs and calamari with corn and brown rice for din din
• beb kept me company while i did spanish homework - man i've got to make a start on my group presentation for next friday D:
• it's always lovely when beb watches itsjudyslife with me :)

Wednesday, May 6:

• craziest day - too many emotions
• got to uni on time 'cause the early train got delayed by a few minutes
  • finally tried Mecca's coffee; not bad
• my brain died during Spanish :( too much content, not enough sleep
• drove to beb's house to do insanity after uni... ended up sleeping 'cause he knocked out and obviously couldn't really do much uni work 'cause i left my laptop at home
• emotional crazy miss grumpy pants came out after that
• had to calm myself down and think positive things before household
• Syd West Upper HH at Tito Jay's
  • Cis and Nyn came too - woooo transitioning!
  • planning for the second half of the year
  • forgot to do camp eval lol woops
  • Gel and Tails came by to talk about SFC as well
• probably gonna stay up again. i wouldn't be surprised

Thursday, May 7:

• spent the day at A's - tried to get some studying done
  • spent more than half of it napping and chillin' tbh
• had a pre-training feed at HJs - whopper, double cheeseburger, fries, 3 nuggets and a drink all for $12 - not bad
• pre-con training at Minto with the West kids
  • felt sorry for the soccer and touch kids 'cause they didn't have a court to play on for half of the night 'cause it was way too cold outdoors and no one brought a soccer ball
  • King of the Court was fun though
• drove Vince and Gerard home
• tried to smash through my readings before my 9am class

Friday, May 8:

• 9am starts in this current weather are actually a struggle
  • the mornings start off soooo cold and then when it hits lunchtime it gets so warm D:
• today's tute was actually pointless - wish i slept in :(
• spent the break with Claire and Nathan again because we have no friends lol
• my brain just malfunctioned and died during Spanish :( can't keep up anymore
• started feeling sick and uneasy and anxious on the train ride home
• got a phone call from Tails about SFC - feeling a bit iffy about joining it right now considering my age and circumstances
• A came over and drove us to Minto for cissy's game
  • such a struggle to watch the majority of the game - S.M.H - still relieved they won but they should've smashed that team considering they only had 4 players and one even fouled out
• had a Maccas feed afterwards - thought Bonnyrigg had the Build Your Own Burgers but it wasn't open yet :( oh well
• started getting a move on with my group presentation for next week
  • legit it feels like it's only Jahnsen and myself working on this assignment =="

Saturday, May 9:

• woooo 8am start on a Saturday for work - worked with Jeje, Frances, Don, Megan and Dillon
  • got smashed today - oh man i honestly don't know how i did it without collapsing i was on struggle street towards the end
  • Donico's crazy laugh over Doug the Pug hahahaha
• took the best shower afterwards
• DROSE CLUTCHED IT FOR DA BULLS 2-1 AGAINST CAVS WOOO
• pizza night with the parentals while cissy parties and A rests tonight after his stye diagnosis :(

Sunday, May 10:

• was supposed to watch Cissy's game at Sutherland in the morning
• ended up sleeping in until past 1 in the afternoon - probs catching up from all the sleep i didn't get this week
• woke up to mum cooking us a nice brunch on Mothers Day haha oh, Ma :')
• procrastinated until i had to get ready for mass, watching WahlieTV, itsjudyslife and BuzzFeed haha
• bumped into everyone at Mass today aka the Villas, both Sentinas, Adrian and his fams, the Molinas, Deniece and her fams, and even Aldric's cuzzies
• had dinner at Thai Rock afterwards
  • smashed through everything
  • accompanied by awesome old school jams on the guit
• kept beb company for the rest of the night while he chills and prepares himself for his last block of placement ever!!!

Monday, May 11:

• got called into work today - worked with Jeje, Bella and Jae today
• pretty chill day tbh - wasn't stressful at all and i even got to dance with Carter haha
• got home, had the best shower and spent the whole time waiting for Kuya Fredney to pick me up trying to find a PDF for A's homework for placement instead of my own uni work
  • best girlfriend award should totally go to me haha jokes
• Upper HH at Elizabeth's house! - almost complete; missing Faith and Thom and even had some guests from YFC Switzerland and Austria!!!
  • was basically a night of sharings in relation to us all being part of one body
  • that time when Laurence and I related to one another for each discussion question
  • that time Lorraine and I failed to coordinate and draw a house together hahahaha
  • finding out Bernard's gonna be in our HH makes me soooo excited! haha
  • i missed these HHs ahhhh such a great refresher for what's going to be a stressful week or 2 or 3 :)
• wanted to tell A my stories when i got home but he's all knocked out :( my poor bebe ko already ceebs and stressed out for placement

Tuesday, May 12:

• such an eventful day - and not in the greatest way
• bought a weekly ticket from Blacktown not realising i was going home and getting off at different stations from Central so i'll be spending more than i will be saving lel fail
• Koreen left me today for her Switzerland meeting and thank goodness i had Erica with me to keep me company today because legit it's so hard to enjoy this subject
  • also a good thing that half the lesson was on doing presentations which took up majority of the tute
• first routine tuesday with beb for a while 'cause of placement :(
• franny got me the cutest birthday present - a display for all my polaroids - much pinterest haha and she had the loveliest card to go with it
• was all over the place in the evening even after it reached midnight, stressing about all my assignments and presentations and having friends rant to me about different things, and not understanding spanish homework
• my brain wanted to explode by the end of the night - so grateful for him and his patience

Wednesday, May 13:

• thank You Lord for better days and for 19 years of life! i know this year's been one of the hardest yet but you're still here by my side and i'm forever grateful for all the experiences that come my way, good or bad
• had spanish in the morning - i honestly feel like i'm gonna struggle more for this coming exam :(
• did group work with my Foundations friends for our presentation on Friday - finally getting somewhere!!!
• had coffee with Jahnsen before she went to class and i got to be reunited with beb!!! even though i've only been away from him since friday lol
• snuggling and cuddling with beb is always great :') got my little some'n some'n too hehe
• Mass at JB followed by dinner at Star Buffet with the fams :)
  • so thankful for Fr. Epeli and his homilies and for always somehow connecting with me and my life - God bless him and his discernment for his new parish :(: gonna miss him!!!
• ALDRIC GOT ME FULL HOUSE. I AM SO CONTENT. BEST WAY TO END THE EVENING!
  • a little upset that he had to go home early, but then again dat 4:30 wake up call D:

Thursday, May 14:

• got to uni early because i didn't want to have to park far at Glenfield or Leppington today
• tried to smash through Spanish homework and other stuff before i met up with my Foundations group
• ended up having lunch with Koreen, Carmina and Darren and Stones Crow pub - $10 burger and fries deal with top notch BBQ sauce and Lemon Lime Bitters!!!
  • thanks for the birthday shout!!! haha
  • bumped into Miguel on the way hehe
  • Koreen's fails at life made my day
  • was also so tempted to by the Rita Ora sliders but mmm still waiting on my paycheck haha
• Anita's gelato for dessert
  • bumped into Emily and Rainier!!! - missed them two!
  • the lady who served us was the absolute sweetest! - she let us try pretty much ALL the samples AND we were able to get half and half on the smallest cup (and she packed it on real good!!!)
• tried to finalise everything for my group presentation tomorrow before i met up with Mum at Westpoint
  • bumped into Ate Shella and Tita Faye as well
• drove to Minto for precon training
  • soooo cold!!!
  • played better than last time = got my first legit rebound where it felt so good haha as well as some naice lay ups and shots in hehe so keen for saturday now!
  • my body is so dead though
• as soon as i got home went straight into finishing the smaller details of my presentation - still need to read through my dialogue for spanish as well as start and finish my writing task D:
  • WHAT IS SLEEP :(

Friday, May 15:

• still don't know why i still choose to do 9am starts :(
• finally got our group presentation out of the way - even got our marks back haha YAY DISTINCTION!!!
• legit Claire and I have become mates because of our 1 hour breaks
  • spent majority of it her googling how to survive an earthquake for when she goes to Chile lol
• so scared for our Spanish finals D: - legit, so much content to learn
• spent the rest of the afternoon and even a bit of Elijah's tute trying to get our Spanish video done
  • don't even know how we're gonna do our role play
• the rest of the night was spent feeling empty. neutral. nothingness. and not in a good way.

Saturday, May 16:

• 8am starts for SPORTS PRECON
• the longest day but it was totally worth it!!!
• praise God for West's God-given talents :)))
• and i got my first lay up and 3 in during a game and it felt so good!
• Hooters feed afterwards with the squad + Darren and Analiz followed by dessert at Maccas
  • Analiz wants to be part of West so had she wore her Wests jacket hahahaha
• legs are soooo dead though - it's not even 10:30 yet and i am e x h a u s t e d

Sunday, May 17:

• 9-4 shift at work - so ded from precon, but in a good way
  • we. got. totally. smashed.
  • blessed with great managers and workmates though
    • Jae added extra chicken to my wrap
    • Kim and Candice surprised me with an ice-cream sandwich cake for my birthday hehe
• Mass with A and the family
• mum's failed roast chicken for dinner lol
• watched Catching Milat to end the night while beb left early to get rest for his 8am start tomorrow :( poor beb

Monday, May 18:

• thought i was gonna spend this day off being productive - spent it sleeping in and watching the Bruce Jenner special on KUWTK and the Billboard Music Awards
• T-SWIZZLE'S BAD BLOOD MV THOUGH
• hopefully tonight i'll be a little more productive - at least i sent in my part of tomorrow's presentation hehe
• not keen for my last assessment block next week - so close but so far from holidays D:

Tuesday, May 19:

• today was a weird day
• carpooled with mum again - felt more exhausted than usual and i wasn't quite sure why (i got the same amount of sleep i'd usually get for uni)
  • was such a struggle to get up this morning though
• had a brunch date with myself before going to the lecture - i don't know why people can't go out to cafes and restaurants by themselves
  • it's actually pretty lovely
  • had an egg and bacon bagel with melted cheese and hollandaise sauce and coffee at Jamaica Blue - top notch
• made some progress with one of my essays - already behind schedule on my study plan lol
• usual lecture and tute shenanigan with the SEG mates
  • went over our presentation as a group before the tute
• train ride home was pretty melancholy
• caught up on Jane the Virgin and pretty much did everything but uni work tonight
  • i just don't have a passion or drive to do anything right now

Wednesday, May 20:

• it's getting so much harder to get up every morning :(
• mum was running a little late so i didn't have time to have breakfast in the morning before Spanish just coffee
• i am so not ready for my Spanish exams next week. nope.
  • gonna fail at directions for listening D:
  • and it makes me feel uneasy when people say i'm good because i'm actually struggling just as much as you guys are
• went to parra after class and had butter chicken with dad - so good
  • had to drive dad home from his work 'cause his back started acting up again
• chilled out before HH at Thom's
  • everyone came except Danny, Mayon and some of the titas
  • Thom made spaghetti and bought da best garlic bread evaaaaa
  • starting to be so keen for precon but also dying at the thought of all the assessments i have to get through first
• wanted to talk to A about a certain dilemma(?) i have but he knocked out straight away. sigh.

Thursday, May 21:

• work 8:30-2
  • we. got. smashed. - did not expect today to be THAT busy
  • everything was such a big blur. sure work ended up going faster than i thought but it was soooo exhausting
• satay chicken and rice for merienda - butter chicken was still da best
• tried to get myself to start work but couldn't so i showered and went to Mass
• tried to get myself to go to confession but was waaaaaaay too anxious and i kept crying so i just spent some time with God and praying to Mama Mary
• made some little progress with one of my essays and Spanish
  • but at this rate, i'm gonna be chucking all nighters again :(
• and i'm so glad that he's able to vent out to me with all his frustrations but i can't do the same because he gets so exhausted nowadays and i don't want to wake him up anymore :(
• on the plus side, i got a pay rise!!!

Friday, May 22:

• such an eventful day, praise God
• waking up for a rainy 9am start was such a struggle
  • considering skipping the last 9am tute simply because i am so over uni and i'd rather get enough rest for my Spanish exam
• so glad i had a great Spanish teacher this sem who is so lovely and so helpful i really hope you get to teach us next sem Anna :(
• bumped into Audrian and Amelia while waiting for A
• late lunch at Stone's Crow - my treat after a rough week especially on his end
• exploring around Broadway and Central Park
  • bought myself these comfy Stella McCartney Adidas pants for $49 from $70 wooooo
• drove home, changed, picked up Cis and Nyn and headed to Thom's
• spent the night filming and coming up with ideas for precon
  • had one of those perf moments when i went to pick up cis from his game at Minto
  • felt like i drove so much today lol
• ended the night the worst way possible. i'm not even sure what i feel right now i'm in that much shock. prayers up for his family. Rest in Peace Susie.

Saturday, May 23:

• spent the morning with Fairfield playing games, watching Cis and Nyn lead their unit - they got this :)
  • who knew party pies could be so great with 'chilli' BBQ sauce???
• left early to go sing for a Confirmation Mass at Good Sheps
  • saw A's ex lol so glad we didn't make eye contact
• mass at All Saints with A
• Tita Lota's 65th birthday dinner at Mounties
  • was so hungry it didn't matter that mum got my order wrong lol
  • smashed through two slices of cake too
• first night in aaaaagessss where I got to chill with A
  • you know i'm tired and needed to sleep when i knock out on A's chest - if only he could sleep with me every day :(

Sunday, May 24:

• slept like a baby and woke up at 1 hehehe
• had a whole McCain Meatlovers to myself - could've had lunch with the fams but they didn't call me early enough
• got ready and headed to Nyn's to watch dance prac while i work on my essay - like 2/3 of the way there
• had leftover chicken curry and rice for dinner
• so not keen for the week ahead but it's my last week of the semester so i gotta power through!!!

Monday, May 25:

• of course its that time of the month again, right when i have my crazy assessment block :(
• so glad work went by quickly
• not going anywhere with my essay because of my stupid cramps. plsssssss.

Tuesday, May 26:

• skipped uni today to finish my Foundations essay - which i did!!!
  • apparently i missed out on Troy, my tutor, giving out wine to everyone hahahaha
• i don't remember doing anything else except complain about how painful my cramps and headaches and chest pains were to bebe ko - which i'm so sorry that he has to deal with all that :(
• such a struggle studying for my oral task for Spanish

Wednesday, May 27:

• got to uni early after getting dropped off by the madre
• bought my usual coffee/brownie combo to wake myself up and started reading through the different dialogues for today's oral task
• Elijah and I felt soooo unprepared but praise God for Anna, for being such a great teacher and for letting us take some notes down for our role play/oral task
  • she made it seem a little less difficult, despite all our stuttering
• got picked up by A afterwards
• felt so good being able to chill out and snuggle and nap with him even for just a little bit
  • i never get to do that with him anymore because i barely see him :( damn you beecroft for being so far!!!
  • started watching Kingsman but had to leave for dance prac
• tried to get work done while they practiced but i was getting nowhere with my journal articles
• A dropped me off and he had dinner with us (which felt weird 'cause he's never over anymore) while we watched State of Origin
  • actually watched through the whole game for once lol
  • i think it was to distract myself from my essay
• still in the middle of typing up my essay as we speak - gonna be a long night. and it's due 5pm tomorrow. yay me.

Thursday, May 28:

• so i knocked out at around 4am and took a "power" nap for 2-3 hours with bebe ko trying to wake me up hahahaha
• literally spent the whole day trying to smash through this stupid essay. finally at around 4pm i was done!!!
• spent the rest of the afternoon/evening napping, pigging out, buying TIH merch (he's closing down for good :( but so proud of him!), and studying for spanish

Friday, May 29:

• honestly just wanted to stay in bed today and NOT do my exam
• got to uni an hour and a half early to study but i spent half of that trying to find the assignment boxes for me to hand my essay in lol
• got to my exam - wasn't as bad as i thought although kinda wish i did a bit more revising
• got a HD for the videos!!! woooooo
• did some retail therapy at the newly-opened Uniqlo at Parra :))
• got home and had to leave straight away for dance prac - kinda wish i chose dance now but ceebs
  • i think the jive's my fave part of dance haha
• had to leave for a bit to drive cis to his game
  • smashed Santi's team by like 30 points haha
• got home and instead of finally catching up on sleep i started folding everyone's clothes and changed my bedsheets haha

Saturday, May 30:

• slept in 'til 12, had brunch with the fams and helped mum with the sampay
• beb came over early and we napped together before we got ready for mass
• mass with Cis, A and Windsor's fams haha
• date night with beb to celebrate me finishing the semester
  • took us about 20 mins to find parking - hangry dez came out
  • dinner at Pho
    • smashed my crispy skin chicken with tomato rice haha
    • had fried ice cream for dessert
  • watched Pitch Perfect 2 - pretty good
• beb chilled at mine for a bit before he headed home
  • watched the rest of Catching Milat

Sunday, May 31:

• winter officially starts tomorrow but it was soooo cold today :(
• work 9-4
  • got smashed from start to finish - so exhausted :(
  • was supposed to get trained to be assistant cook for upcoming shifts but it was way too busy :(
• dance prac at Nyn's
  • dropped cis off - ended up just chillin 'cause ceebs driving back and forth
  • had pizza and party pies for dinner - thanks Danny and Yeli!
• got home - finally worked out our costume for Karren's - wooo Juno!!!
• spent the rest of the night on Youtube
• ps. HAPPY 19 MY LOVE!!!