- stay in one place your whole life
- eat at one restaurant and order the same exact thing everytime
- save up your money for a plasma tv instead of a plane ticket
- talk a lot about things that hurt you in the past
- try to relive those moments that hurt you
- have an affair with someone you don’t even find attractive
- refuse to forget someone who meant everything to you
- make it impossible for yourself to do anything without remembering that you used to do it with them
- miss out on everything
- remind yourself daily of how empty you feel
- find new ways to make yourself sad
- get drunk all the time
- major in something you have no interest in
- look at old facebook photos of your high school friends and wonder how much better their lives are now compared to yours
- never do anything that could potentially be “bad” for you
- go to bed at ten sharp
- turn down cake on your birthday
- succumb to everything
- constantly compare yourself to others
- scroll through pictures of skinny girls on tumblr while feeling wistful and inadequate
- pull at the skin on your hipbones, stomach, and thighs in the mirror
- sigh a lot
- refuse to fall in love with anyone or anything
- put an impenetrable wall between yourself and other people
- be suspicious of everyone’s motives
- hold grudges long after you’ve forgotten what for
- throw your heart into every stranger’s hands and be genuinely surprised to be hurt
- refuse to learn
- stare at the ceiling for hours upon hours and think of nothing
- regret everything
- hate you body, your face, your skins, and your bones
jun 7 2012 ∞
apr 15 2016 +