So I've been back only a couple of days but so far things have been amazing. Unfortunately though I have made a complete fool of myself in front of Chris because I told him about my small crush on a certain someone. I look like an idiot because I am not in any position to have any crushes. I mean it's nothing really. I just need to be exposed more often in order to not feel like a little school girl about this anymore. After I've gotten drunk a couple of times or even just soberly hangout with him I think I will be okay. I do think Chris thinks I am a complete mess now though which I will only have to counter by showing and proving to him that I am not a complete mess. There's nothing I hate more than having to wait a whole week or at least almost a whole week before actually seeing and being with people that I need to show that I am not a crazy bitch. Or maybe I am? But even if I am I should still be able to conceal my feelings and emotions in a way where my dearest and nearest friends will believe it. I wonder if he knows. He probably does. I'm pretty obvious which is a bit shameful.