↳ September 2017

• 29/9/17: jasper & rosie talking to each other, walk around the lake in the rain, grebes, editing photos, what would you do.
• 30/9/17: spying/eavesdropping, clearing out the food cupboard, muffins, organizing photos, LOST.

↳ October 2017

• 1/10/17: lazy, the used, organizing photos, bored, pokemon go.
• 2/10/17: nervous, blood test, painful arm, shopping, mild.
• 3/10/17: painful arm, didn't feel like doing much, LOST, facebook, went to sleep late.
• 4/10/17: arm doesn't hurt anymore, went out without makeup for the first time in 9 years, walk around the lake & in the woods, photographing kites, bunny.
• 5/10/17: heavy rain woke me up, tidying my room, ambulance (documentary on tv), really tired, LOST.
• 6/10/17: packing, caitlin waved hello at me, watching caitlin in the waiting room at the hospital building, colouring in, fish 'n' chips.
• 7/10/17: sneezing, stayed in, colouring in, reading to caitlin, wotsits.
• 8/10/17: sitting in the back of the new car for the first time, going in the ball pits and down the slide with george, taking caitlin around the higher levels of the play area, tired, carvery.
• 9/10/17: singing with caitlin, getting george from nursery, playing, bored, cottage pie.
• 10/10/17: reading to george, walking back from nursery in the rain, dinner with dad, babysitting, air bed.
• 11/10/17: paw patrol, george and caitlin sitting next to me on the sofa, driving home, red lion dinner, "buh bye".
• 12/10/17: didn't feel like doing anything, sore throat, tired, laundry, what would you do.
• 13/10/17: tired, blood test results/referral to hospital, worried, upset, DMs.
• 14/10/17: upset, good charlotte, yum yums, achy head, DMs.
• 15/10/17: lozenges, nap, spiderman homecoming, the x factor, tissues.
• 16/10/17: coughing, pink glowing sun, red sun, weird yellow sky/really dark in the afternoon, feed.
• 17/10/17: painful ribs, video compliments, starset, instagram, what would you do.
• 18/10/17: what would you do, unexpected letter from hospital, upset, anxiety, editing.
• 19/10/17: headache, walk around the lake & in the woods, red leaves, herons in the field, reading about crohns meds/treatment.
• 20/10/17: eyeshadow, taking photos, found lost 2008 pics, period pain, asmr.
• 21/10/17: in bed until 1pm, starset, editing, the x factor, what would you do.
• 22/10/17: tonight alive - temple, editing, organizing photos, the x factor, LOST.
• 23/10/17: scorpio season, new music, cleaning, DMs, tired.
• 24/10/17: making my social media halloween themed, lazy, ordered red's new album, burnt my finger, asmr.
• 25/10/17: clearing out the cupboards in the lounge, recycling, chipsticks, LOST, ash costello insta live.
• 26/10/17: fine rain, anxiety, hospital appointment with nurse, feeling more relaxed, LOST.
• 27/11/17: star constellations at 4am, RED's new album, sunny all day, walk around the lake and in the woods, stranger things season 2.
• 28/10/17: chester bennington tribute concert livestream, RED, donuts, creepy moon, stranger things.
• 29/10/17: editing, RED, faceboook, LOST, tired.
• 30/10/17: the day went quickly, organizing pc files, facebook, editing, stranger things.
• 31/10/17: really tired, backache, walk around the lake and by the canal, lazy, stranger things.

↳ November 2017

• 1/11/17: really tired, didn't feel like doing anything, facebook, stranger things, LOST.
• 2/11/17: backache, walk around the lake, cleaning the front door and windows, yum yums, stranger things.
• 3/11/17: wore my coat for the first time this season, misty/sunny walk around the lake in the morning, cormorants, toad - medicine, LOST.
• 4/11/17: ovulation pain, clearing out some of the kitchen, pens, nap, stranger things.
• 5/11/17: not feeling good, nap, watching fireworks out the window, photographing the full moon, finished stranger things 2.
• 6/11/17: organizing pc files, stranger things edits, the day went quickly, IT, tired.
• 7/11/17: nice dream, organizing pc files, kerrang, sorting out my clothes, snapchat.
• 8/11/17: kerrang, dyeing my hair, getting my birthday cake, langley/one AF sign still up, laughing.
• 9/11/17: 26, some sunshine, cute waiter, rainbows & unicorns,
• 10/11/17: really tired, facebook, annoyed, ben liked his thank you note, lindt.
• 11/11/17: kerrang, instagram, watching fireworks out the window, cold, couldn't get to sleep for ages.
• 12/11/17: nap, kerrang, putting my winter duvet on, belated birthday presents, rainbows & unicorns.
• 13/11/17: my signed red album came, guylian seashells, didn't feel like doing anything, michael barnes (red) liked my tweet, stomach pain.
• 14/11/17: colonoscopy date came in the post, laundry, kerrang, editing, stomach pain.
• 15/11/17: nap, asda, my little pony advent calendar, stomach pain, went to bed early.
• 16/11/17: tired, nappy cream, sore hands, upset
• 17/11/17: feeling a bit better, vlogging, nap, cold,
• 18/11/17: feeling worse than yesterday/felt like throwing up, youtube, hollywood undead - renegade, nap, editing.
• 19/11/17: feeling slightly less sick, organizing pc files, im a celeb,

↳ December 2017

• 10/12/17: snow, resting in bed, taking photos, starting to feel better
• 11/12/17: drive in the countryside, bird of prey swooping in front of the car in the road, neck deep - in bloom, tired, editing.
• 12/12/17: very cold, neck deep,
• 13/12/17: rain, piano music, dusting, putting the christmas tree up, meet the parents.
• 14/12/17: walk around the lake and in the woods, robins, snowberries, tesco, really tired.
• 15/12/17: putting the lights on the christmas tree, christmas shopping for mum, walk around the lake at sunset, so tired, went to bed really early.
• 16/12/17: light period, editing, asmr
• 17/12/17: period pain, resting in bed, LOST, couldn't get to sleep for ages.
• 18/12/17: looking at the christmas presents from other people, editing, garden centre, pretty sunset, headache.
• 19/12/17: kerrang, squirrel on the window sill looking in, wrapping up christmas presents, jasper playing with baubles, cleaning.
• 20/12/17: tired, mist, walk around the lake, goldcrests, tidying my room a bit.
• 21/12/17: breakfast at 5.30am (too hungry to sleep!), milder weather, christmas tree eyebrows, taking photos, one ok rock - i was king.
• 22/12/17: laundry, tired, kerrang, doing a bit of cleaning, seeing nan.
• 23/12/17: cleaning my room, kerrang, christmas food shopping, really tired, sore hands.
• christmas eve: cleaning my room, youtube, decorating, elf, putting the presents under the tree.
• christmas: so tired, grey/dark all day, christmas music, lots of nice presents, really windy/heavy rain.
• boxing day: tired, I was mentioned on kerrang radio!!, bored, instagram, home alone.
• 27/12/17: snow, bored, nice twitter replies, scattergories, asmr.
• 28/12/17: cold, walk around the lake at sunset, pretty birdsong after sunset by the river, 2017 snapchat memories, editing.
• 29/12/17: cold, tesco, editing, pringles
• 30/12/17: editing,
• 31/12/17: tired, editing, feeling sick, throwing up at midnight/missing the countdown

↳ January 2018

• 1/1/18 -- 7/1/18: ill with the flu.
• 8/1/18: stayed up all day, wisdom tooth pain, removing plaster from ear painfully, rosie and the syringe, lullabies.
• 9/1/18: wisdom tooth pain, laundry, organizing pc files, bored, LOST.
• 10/1/18: kerrang, wisdom tooth pain, clearing out the cabinet in the lounge/throwing out really old receipts, walk in the woods and around the lake at sunset/twilight, three days grace.
• 11/1/18: clearing out the cabinet in the lounge, three days grace - life starts now, breaking benjamin, making jacket potatoes from scratch, LOST.
• 12/1/18: kerrang, clearing out the cabinets in the lounge, looking at photography on flickr, dustin bates, starset crack.
• 13/1/18: tidying up, upset, clearing out bits in the kitchen, a street cat named bob, three days grace youtube vids.
• 14/1/18: period pain, naps, lying in bed, starset, instagram.
• 15/1/18: filming time lapses, three days grace, epic sunset, cool clouds, rainbow.
• 16/1/18: filming time lapses, cleaning the bathroom, starset, editing, downplay - dark on me.
• 17/1/18: tired, sad about youtube partner changes, vlogging, hollywood undead - bang bang, chocolate peanuts.
• 18/1/18: cute dream, tired, sorting out adsense details, cool clouds, walk in the woods at sunset.
• 19/1/18: tired, cold, youtube music reactions, walk in the woods at sunset, waterparks - warriors.
• 20/1/18: grey, cold, bored, doughnuts, instagram.
• 21/1/18: tired, snow, first google payment, short hair, red.
• 22/1/18: eczema, snapchat minnie mouse, red, LOST, asmr.
• 23/1/18: grey, walk around the lake, organizing tablet files, LOST, instagram.
• 24/1/18: tired, rain, facebook, falling in reverse, editing.
• 25/1/18: walk around the lake, mike shinoda's EP, editing, LOST, asmr.
• 26/1/18: escape the fate - broken heart, instagram DMs, editing, LOST, tired.
• 27/1/18: editing, editing, editing, editing, editing (finished recovery vid!).
• 28/1/18: snapchat, rendering, tumblr, LOST, asmr.
• 29/1/18: uploading, helping mum with pharmacy stuff, LOST, insta DMs, asmr.
• 30/1/18: uploading, incubus - 8, organizing pc files, LOST, going to sleep late again.
• 31/1/18: laundry, organizing pc files, insta DMS, blue moon, LOST.

↳ February 2018

• 1/2/18: tidying up my coats and scarves, from ashes to new - crazy, walk around the lake at sunset, fallen tree, LOST.
• 2/2/18: tired, bored, origami, papa roach liked my tweet, LOST.
• 3/2/18: tired, rain, kerrang, pre-period pain, thor: ragnarok.
• 4/2/18: phantom period, editing, dinner alone, asmr, new JWFK trailer.
• 5/2/18: phantom period, stayed in bed late, really cold, driving around for ages/tyres, LOST.
• 6/2/18: phantom period, really cold, dyeing my hair, walk around the lake, the cloverfield paradox.
• 7/2/18: phantom period, really cold, wispy clouds, nap, walk around the lake.
• 8/2/18: youtube, phantom period, organizing pc files, tidying my room, upset.
• 9/2/18: phantom period, cancelled plans for the weekend, liquid ibuprofen, walk at sunset in the woods and around the lake, snowdrops.
• 10/2/18: real period started, stomach pain, resting in bed, youtube, from ashes to new replied to me on facebook.
• 11/2/18: stomach pain, backache, in bed most of the day, youtube,

--- feb - march // ill (flare-up) ---

↳ March 2018

• 23/3/18: early breakfast, jumanji: welcome to the jungle, youtube, upset about my tablet charger, drowsy.
• 24/3/18: a lot of toast, strained my arm, ring donuts, flare-up over, the florida project.
• 25/3/18: listening to jurassic podcasts, mini eggs, tired, pretty clouds, sweet potato chips.
• 26/3/18: tired, youtube, mcr, reading the dinosaur protection group website, cooking me and mum dinner for the first time in 8 weeks.
• 27/3/18: period pain, in bed all day, crap dinner, upset, headache.
• 28/3/18: headache, tired, listening to the rain in bed, laundry, strained my arm.
• 29/3/18: pvris, asmr, cheese and onion crisps, waterparks, tired.
• 30/3/18: nan passed away, upset, rained all day, music, couldn't get to sleep for ages.
• 31/3/18: laundry, rain, asmr, sainsburys, went to bed late.

↳ April 2018

• 1/4/18: late breakfast, mini eggs, tumblr, made roast potatoes for easter dinner, started watching a series of unfortunate events season 2.
• 2/4/18: emotional dream, "keep smiling!" (old bday tag from nan), grey all day, walk around the lake, donkeys.
• 3/4/18: walk around the lake, white horse, dinner out with fiona and tasha, new star constellation, feeling better.
• 4/4/18: walk around the lake, rain, meeting/drinks in the pub, funeral directors, feeling traumatized.
• 5/4/18: sunny, seeing fiona briefly, walk around the lake and in the woods, green butterfly, muntjac deer.
• 6/4/18: stayed in, unmotivated, hopeless, depressed?, tired.
• 7/4/18: dawn chorus, looking through old photos of nan, sainsburys, asmr, really tired.
• 8/4/18: grey, starset, made roast

potatoes, tumblr, thirty seconds to mars.

• 9/4/18: grey, chocolate cake, garden centre, purple flowers, early dinner at the crooked billet.
• 10/4/18: tesco, "fries before guys" socks, yum yums, LOST soundtrack, jacket potato.
• 11/4/18: laundry, sorting out my clothes, kerrang, facebook, toast at midnight.
• 12/4/18: really tired, quiet walk around the lake, organizing, twitter, asmr.
• 13/4/18: walk around the lake, herons fighting, breaking benjamin - ember, new JWFK teaser, gifs.
• 14/4/18: warm, laundry, cleaning the kitchen, yum yums, m&ms.
• 15/4/18: organizing pc files, listening to music in alphabetical order, watching old videos, funeral discussion, asmr.
• 16/4/18: trying on outfits for the funeral, meeting in the pub, funeral directors/meeting the celebrant, designing nan's leaflet cover, breaking benjamin.
• 17/4/18: garden centre, pets at home, strained my arm, bored, doctor strange.
• 18/4/18: woke up at sunrise, walk around the lake/in the woods, bluebells, watching the lambs in the field, looking through childhood drawings I had done with nan.
• 19/4/18: walk around the lake/in the woods, hottest day in april in 70 years (27/28*c), ducks in a tree, tan, drowsy.
• 20/4/18: hot, youtube nature sounds, organizing/tidying some things in my room, fairies, bluebells in the garden.
• 21/4/18: garden with jasper, sainsburys, doughnuts, humid, kerrang.
• 22/4/18: crematorium, reorganizing my makeup stuff, placebo, roast, asmr.
• 23/4/18: editing george's bday video, whole nut chocolate, cleaning my trainers, gardening, heatwave over.
• 24/4/18: meeting new relatives, nan's funeral, looking at the flowers, wake/sitting at the smaller table, drinks at the hotel.
• 25/4/18: feeling awful/crying a lot, gardening, period pain, tesco, starset - ricochet acoustic.
• 26/4/18: facebook, going back to the crematorium to look at/collect nan's flowers, photographing the flowers, cemetery, sunny.
• 27/4/18: feeling like I'm in limbo again, chilly, grey, went out for lunch, bored.
• 28/4/18: grey, cold, sainsburys, M&Ms, LOST.
• 29/4/18: cold, organizing pc files, irritable/bitter, listening to music from my teenage years, asmr.
• 30/4/18: grey, cold, asmr, listening to music from my teenage years, pretty orange/pink sunset.

↳ May 2018

• 1/5/18: sunny at last, walk around the lake and partly in the woods towards the canal, ducklings, forget me nots, finding more cards from nan.
• 2/5/18: headache, got up late, rain & sunshine, cleaning the bathroom, new music.
• 3/5/18: walk around the lake and in the woods, butterflies, achy feet, chewy cookies, asmr.
• 4/5/18: walk around the lake, coots in nests, goldcrest, pressing funeral flowers, tidying my room.
• 5/5/18: kerrang, cleaning the bathroom, trying on tops, total film magazine jurassic special, rose smell wafting over in the lounge a few times.
• 6/5/18: tired, boring day, instagram, reading about cemetery regulations, tidying my room.
• 7/5/18: hot, picking up fiona/talking at home/taking her to the train station, cemetery, reading about ashes, upset before bed.
• 8/5/18: tired, cleaning downstairs, gardening, tidying my room, researching woodland burials/services that aren't too far away.
• 9/5/18: really tired, kerrang, tidying my room, yum yums & cookies, relaxing nature sound videos.
• 10/5/18: youtube, tesco for mum's birthday stuff, putting funeral flowers into frames, kerrang, upset about nan's ashes.
• 11/5/18: wrapping up mum's birthday presents, walk around the lake, dark pink flowers in trees, sainsburys, pringles.
• 12/5/18: raining all day, mum loved her present, lunch out at the orchard, compliments about the pressed flower frames I made, pink and green roses.
• 13/5/18: cemetery, going to nan's house for the first time since she died, looking through old photos/finding childhood photos from norfolk, dinner at the red lion, went to bed really late.
• 14/5/18: tired, lazy, facebook, touching up scanned photos, scattering the funeral flowers that were left in the garden.
• 15/5/18: bored, touching up scanned photos, facebook, adopt a dino
  
  , looking through old photos with mum.
• 16/5/18: dyeing my hair, kerrang, finding another sweet card from nan, scanning in nan's art, making roast dinner.
• 17/5/18: got up early, clearing out downstairs, kerrang, in the garden with rosie, finding dad's old camera.
• 18/5/18: seeing photos of me and nan I've never seen before on dad's old camera, walk around the lake and in the woods, raven, in the garden with rosie, LOST.
• __19/5/18:__rosie and jasper sharing the garden, clearing out downstairs, sitting in the garden, doughnuts and cookies, upset.
• 20/5/18: cookies, asmr, sitting in the garden, making photo prints, going to bed really late.
• 21/5/18: making photo collage prints, too much junk food, period pain, LOST, went to bed early.
• 22/5/18: period pain, youtube, chocolate cake, sitting in the garden, BDH on instagram live.
• 23/5/18: youtube, bit of gardening, sitting in the garden, tidying my room, asmr.
• 24/5/18: being woken up by really loud rain, twitter, photo collage prints came in the post, jasper not well/spoon feeding jasper jelly, asmr.
• 25/5/18: humid, walk around the lake and in the woods, dragonflies, jasper feeling better, jwfk cast on the graham norton show.
• 26/5/18: humid, sorting out the last of the funeral flowers, tidying my room, swifts, big thunderstorm/watching lightning out the window before bed.
• 27/5/18: groggy, humid, clearing out the kitchen, recycling, pretty moon in the clouds.
• 28/5/18: excited for JWFK next week, bored, youtube, instagram, the day went pretty quickly.
• 29/5/18: lots of rain, tesco, twitter, chocolate peanuts, watching creepy night abandoned videos on youtube.
• 30/5/18: tired, lazy, clearing out the kitchen, watching creepy/exploring/abandoned places videos on youtube, went to sleep late.
• 31/5/18: lazy, clearing out the kitchen, finding another drawing nan did, youtube, went to sleep late again.

↳ June 2018

• 1/6/18: groggy, walk around half the lake, humid, clearing out the kitchen, youtube.
• 2/6/18: youtube, clearing out the kitchen, seeing a JWFK poster on a bus for the first time, sainsburys, fozzy.
• 3/6/18: hot, fozzy, making tasha's pressed funeral flowers frame, sitting in the garden, youtube.
• 4/6/18: nan's ashes going into the grave, talking to gravediggers/seeing inside the chapels, lunch at the red lion, funeral directors, family history/drawing family tree.
• 5/6/18: really tired, lazy, writing notes about what I've learnt about death/cemeteries/funerals, found out about an annual remembrance service in december opposite the funeral directors,
• 6/6/18: sunny, greenacres chilterns, dinner at the swan (amersham), sitting by nan's grave/walking around the cemetery in the evening, twitter.
• 7/6/18: really tired, backache, looking at photography on flickr, watching all the Jurassic movies, mood ruined.
• 8/6/18: upset, watched JWFK in the cinema, free poster, mixed thoughts, went to bed really late.
• 9/6/18: exhausted, twitter notifications, sainsburys, giving jasper baby food, jwfk trailer theme on spotify.
• 10/6/18: laundry, twitter, facebook, bored, got ready late.
• 11/6/18: twitter, cemetery, hot, drowsy, LOST.
• 12/6/18: clearing out the kitchen, chocolate cake, organizing video files, twitter, LOST.
• 13/6/18: clearing out the kitchen, combing jasper for ages, vets, upset, worried.
• 14/6/18: anxiety, phone call from the vet, crying all day, saying goodbye to jasper/him looking at us and purring his best, jasper passed away.
• 22/6/18: taking in package for next-door, ashes delayed, upset, garden centre to get sleeping ginger cat ornament, cat ornament on the scratching post.
• 23/6/18: youtube, cleaning all the cat bowls, tidying up, cookies, jasper's scent in the kitchen.
• 24/6/18: hot, laundry, asmr, rosie being cute with sammy the snake toy, organizing pc files.
• 25/6/18: hot, found out gemma's pregnant, brought jasper's ashes home, upset, put a photo of him by his ashes.
• 26/6/18: anxiety, youtube, hot, found jasper's orange paper crown from christmas 2011, got locked out of rosie's twitter.
• 27/6/18: anxiety, felt jasper's presence around my ankles, organizing school/uni stuff & bank statements etc, cleaning my room, spanish chocolates from ben.
• 28/6/18: tidying my room, youtube, feeling extra apathetic & depressed, irritable, crying a lot/doing the washing up before bed for the first time since jasper passed away.
• 29/6/18: walk around the lake for the first time this month, gardening, clearing up maxie's grave, with rosie in the garden/robin hanging out near me, youtube.
• 30/6/18: hot, laundry, putting flowers on maxie's grave, noisy neighbours, cleaning the back door/chairs/table/window sill.

↳ July 2018

• 1/7/18: really hot, clearing out clothes/bedding/towels from nan's house, bags ripping, sitting in nan's garden talking, charity shop.
• 2/7/18: drowsy, youtube, gardening in the evening, listening to starset in the dark outside, sitting in the garden with rosie until 11pm.
• 3/7/18: tired, hot, clearing out the kitchen, cleaning, sitting in the garden with rosie.
• 4/7/18: walk around the lake, deadheading roses in the front garden, organizing pc files, lying on the floor with rosie in the lounge
• 5/7/18: clearing out the kitchen, organizing video files, waiting 8 hours for an ambulance for mum, paramedics at 3am, went to sleep at 5am.
• 6/7/18: panic attack?, cramp/strained my leg, phone calls, exhausted, facebook.
• 7/7/18: phone calls, walked to hospital to visit mum, very hot, cold bath, sitting in the garden with rosie in the evening.
• 8/7/18: oiling the windows, facebook, money, clearing out/organizing mum's room, talking to ben on the phone.
• 9/7/18: organizing mum's room, hot, walking to hospital, popcorn, facebook
• 10/7/18: rushing around, clearing out/cleaning mum's room, tesco by myself, mum came home, cooler.
• 11/7/18: tired, tesco by myself, popcorn, organizing mum's drawers, laundry.
• 12/7/18: tired, organizing video files, facebook, asmr
• 13/7/18: tidying, putting hooks on the back of my door, gardening, organizing video files, new simon's cat game.
• 14/7/18: upset, hot, clearing out nan's bedroom, finding more childhood photos from norfolk, reading postcards/letters.
• 15/7/18: foxes moved bowl into middle of garden, drowsy, making collage of me and jasper, upset, sitting in the garden with rosie in the evening.
• 16/7/18: stomach bug?, tired, asmr, ordered memorial necklace for jasper, naps/resting.
• 17/7/18: feeling better, B&M, pets at home/getting rosie a cooling mat, gardening, poppy in next-door's garden/looking into ours.
• 18/7/18: period pain, nap, youtube, every day (film), poppy on the front fence at midnight.
• 19/7/18: tesco by myself, hot/feeling sick, talking to phone advisers online, ordered a new phone, fox running off with rich tea biscuits from our trash.
• 20/7/18: headache, feeling better after washing my hair & drinking water, tesco by myself, popcorn, gardening.
• 21/7/18: jasper's spirit lying next to me in bed at night/playing with (sammy) snake toy upstairs, B&M, gardening, rained for the first time in about 6 or 7 weeks, youtube.
• 22/7/18: no water, youtube, annnoying noisy neighbours all day, organizing pc files, boston manor - halo.
• 23/7/18: really hot, tesco by myself, got my memorial necklace for jasper in the post, organizing pc files, new cat in our garden for hours in the evening (eating & drinking).
• 24/7/18: the new cat stayed in our garden all night/early morning, getting my new phone in the post, really hot, new cat in our garden half the day, facebook, vodafone hassle,
• 25/7/18: the new cat's collar came off, tesco by myself, really hot, facebook, gardening in the evening.
• 26/7/18 got up early, walk around half the lake and in the woods, fan in the back bedroom for rosie, hottest day of the year, mike shinoda - post traumatic.
• 27/7/18: very tired, tesco by myself, heavy rain, really humid, editing video montage of nan.
• 28/7/18: windy, B&M, cleaning the car, garden centre, cemetery.
• 29/7/18: raining all day, asking alexandria, tidying my room, asmr
• 30/7/18: tesco by myself, facebook, youtube, bit of gardening, daisy in the garden all day.
• 31/7/18: woken up early morning by really loud rain, went to nan's house to pick up some things I wanted, vodafone being irritating as usual, setting up my new phone, daisy in our garden all day.

↳ August 2018

• 1/8/18: cleaning my room, headache, new mattress arrived, runny nose, red liked my reply on instagram!.
• 2/8/18: daisy slowly blinked at me/seemed more relaxed, tesco by myself, really hot, youtube, phone backgrounds/lockscreens.
• 3/8/18: headache, really hot, daisy rolled on her back happily/meowed at us, gardening in the evening, packing.
• 4/8/18: packing, drive to MK in the evening, singing in the car, fish 'n' chips, lots of kisses from the kids.
• 5/8/18: driving to norfolk, long walk to holkham beach, paddling in the sea with caitlin, KFC, got back late.
• 6/8/18: stayed in all day, bored, playing with jax, caitlin talking to me more, babysitting nightmare with george.
• 7/8/18: got caitlin up, hugs from caitlin, splash place, ice cream/wasp chaos, playing with jax in the garden.
• 8/8/18: mcdonalds, walking with caitlin, pets at home/looking at rabbits with caitlin, impractical jokers, bad weather tv shows.
• 9/8/18: arguing, dad off work sick, naughty caitlin, walk with jax, nuts.
• 10/8/18: dad off work sick, caitlin doing my hair, playing with caitlin on the floor, you've been framed, late dinner.
• 11/8/18: caitlin said my name a lot, hughenden, chip shop chips, hyper kids, impractical jokers.
• 12/8/18: carvery with gemma, george trying to climb on me/pulling me down, driving home, caitlin kissing my hand, facebook.
• 13/8/18: meeting daisy, lazy, organizing pc files, sitting outside with daisy on my lap, asmr.
• 14/8/18: got up early, tesco by myself, daisy climbing on my shoulders, organizing pc files, watching videos of warped tour.
• 15/8/18: daisy nearly falling asleep in my arms, dyeing my hair, cleaning the bathroom, laundry, singing.
• 16/8/18: period pain, flight paths (band), naps/lying in bed, went to bed really early, asmr.
• 17/8/18: groggy, didn't feel like doing much, facebook, daisy fell asleep on my lap, starset announced new version of vessels album.
• 18/8/18: bad dreams, pets at home, gardening, cookies, daisy tried to cuddle me?.
• 19/8/18: gardening, huji app.
• 21/8/18: sweet asmr youtube reply, lazy, snapchat, new bmth song, huji, youtube, haloscene
• 22/8/18: walk around the lake, spotify me, tesco, papa roach liked my instagram post, asmr, facebook/roollerocat talk
• 23/8/18: eating too much junk food, lazy, lockscreens, chilly, asmr.
• 24/8/18: star constellations at 4/5am, walk around the lake and in the woods, huji, motionless in white, bmth - mantra music vid.
• 25/8/18: tired, gardening, chilly, daisy on my shoulders, watching videos from reading festival.
• 26/8/18: raining all day, youtube, unmotivated, sad, bored.
• 27/8/18: tired, asmr, sainsburys, cookies, daisy falling asleep on my lap/on my chest/in my cardigan in the evening.
• 28/8/18: tired, sorting out my clothes, chocolate, gardening, asmr.
• 29/8/18: B&M, pets at home, gardening, twitter, watching documentaries on youtube.
• 30/8/18: watching jail documentary on youtube, walk around the lake and in the woods, daisy cuddling mum's arm, papa roach liked 2 of my tweets!, ordering clothes from h&m.
• 31/8/18: walk around the lake in the morning, mice, clearing out downstairs, gardening, upset thinking about this summer.

↳ September 2018

• 1/9/18: tired, cleaning maxie's old bed, warm, tesco, sitting outside with daisy in the evening.
• 2/9/18: cleaning rosie's kitten bed/finding a whisker from when she was a kitten, warm, cemetery, sitting in the garden, going to bed early.
• 3/9/18: hazy sunshine, sitting in the garden, eating too much junk food, organizing video files, twitter notifications.
• 4/9/18: walk around the lake, organizing video files, RED, pets at home, playing with string with daisy.
• 5/9/18: phantom period?, organizing papers, cleaning the bathroom, sitting in the garden, mum thinks she saw poppy.
• 6/9/18: walk around the lake and in the woods, vole, clearing out downstairs, gardening, LOST.
• 7/9/18: loads of stars in the sky at 4am/5am, gardening, robin, saw poppy(?) on the fence, mum making a bridge for daisy to get over the nettles.
• 8/9/18: fudge, vlogging, cookies, mike shinoda, DMs, LOST, daisy on our laps in lounge
• 9/9/18: cliveden national trust place, lost in the maze, ponds
• 10/9/18: tired, lockscreens, bored, gardening, daisy snuggling into my arms.
• 11/9/18: period pain, resting in bed/naps, rosie staying in the landing/mum's room keeping an eye on me, asmr, watching documentaries on youtube.
• 12/9/18: period pain, organizing video files, framing hanley - puzzle pieces, LOST, asmr.
• 13/9/18: bad back pain, caitlin rang the house phone and left a message!, chocolate, LOST, asmr.
• 14/9/18: tired, back pain, jwfk soundtrack, editing, daisy on my lap on the sofa.
• 15/9/18: skull aches, cleaning cat stuff, donuts, asmr, daisy fell asleep on my lap on the sofa.
• 16/9/18: tired, tumblr, fudge, youtube, lovely instagram replies.
• 17/9/18: bored, simple plan, organizing bank statements, good charlotte, hot.
• 18/9/18: rosie relaxing to nature sounds video, cleaning my room, daisy sitting on the garden bags, twitter, kerrang.
• 19/9/18: walk around the lake, windy, donuts, astrology/my birth chart, youtube.
• 20/9/18: B&M, windy, organizing bank statements, snapchat, charcoal face wipes.
• 21/9/18: tired, walk around the lake, windy, starset - telepathic new versions, calculating how I've managed my money since finishing uni.
• 22/9/18: raining all day, sainsburys, twitter, sitting with daisy in the lounge, really tired.
• 23/9/18: rain, clearing out nan's house,
• 24/9/18: tired, cold, people boarding up the pub/cutting down the tree by the driveway, charity shop, feeling crap.
• 25/9/18: tired, cold, youtube, gardening, leave no trace.
• 26/9/18: cat that looks like jasper's brother, warmer, gardening, youtube
• 27/9/18: walk around the lake and in the woods, a lot of herons flying around, recycling, gardening, youtube.
• 28/9/18: beartooth's new album, gardening, tesco, mental health talk DMs, daisy on my lap on the sofa until midnight.
• 29/9/18: kerrang, joined the ralph site pet grief support group on facebook, cemetery, papa roach replied to me on facebook, daisy being hyper.
• 30/9/18: bored, cold, tidying my room, editing, talking to people about pet grief on facebook group.