- i was thinking today about that feeling i spent so many years chasing
- i thought it was a person i was chasing
- but it was a feeling, really
- it’s just that i believed that feeling could only be inspired in me by one person
- and i really did believe that
- i let myself be consumed by it and then i grew to hate it
- eventually it faded from me entirely
- and so did my will to live
- that part i truly didn’t expect
- i lost faith that i’d ever feel that alive again
- i abandoned hope
- but when i least expected it
- the feeling started creeping back in
- on a slow drip
- i almost didn’t recognize it
- but now it’s returned all at once
- i feel like i’ve been hit by a freight train
- i’m crawling out of my skin
- there’s something growing in me and it’s trying to climb out
- i need an exorcism
- or maybe i’m just touch starved
- either way i need it to tear me apart
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