- 16th april new job. Photo graphics shop. Can't shake the feeling that I should be somewhere else. Realized I think less of people when they say 'pacific' instead of 'specific'.
- 21st April every now and then I get angry about all the lives I'm not living. Sometimes sad, then just angry, haha. 'sometimes I can feel my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I'm not living'. There aren't really any words that can adequately describe how much my soul yearns for that. For 'it all'. For people who are similarly-minded and equally passionate and are uplifting and positive to be around... I want to be there, now.
- 21st April 7.43pm is this what we've been waiting for? Is this it? Could this be it?
- 22nd april how weird are names?
- 23rd april for fuck sake. Why do I feel like I'm never actually going to get anywhere or leave this place? I know how lonely I'll be by myself and how I'll regret it all but god damn can't I get a chance? I can't not do this. I need this, I need to try and I need it soon. But I feel like it'll never happen.
- 3rd may wow. 'you have been selected for further processing'. dv2013. The funny thing is, this all feels so right. Like, I'm certain that this is how things were meant to happen. I never felt like Sydney was my true path. I never did. These things fall into place and things feel so right. I truly feel like my body and my soul knew this was my path. Like it felt something was evolving and spinning into motion. I can't wait for my future. I am nervous and scared as hell, but I can't wait.
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