college time is coming and i want to explode i am scared deeply i'm scared this is not what i actually want to do. i'm scared it will be way harder than i ever thought it could be. i'm scared the college i'm applying to won't be good enough, i'm scared i won't be good enough. i want to be someone filled with knowledge and talent. i want to do great things with head and hands, like paula scher. she's my graphic design god. i want to be some who revolutionizes, who sees things differently, who changes. but i'm just one in a billion who want the same thing. i just hope i'll be fine, hope i'll be happy and college won't be the nightmare i feel like it will be. be good to me, please.