i hope you can't hear my thoughts but i suppose you can read them through my face which seems to be in a permanent scowl. i drain my cup of tea and the marks at the bottom seem to scream that things have to change and things have to change fast i have to leave everything here and let them throw it all away even the things i think i care about. no matter how many times i wash my hands with the bleach they never feel clean even when the skin peels away and a new one grows back i am disappointed to find it is exactly the same as before.

aug 30 2012 ∞
aug 30 2012 +

2012

  • the bell jar
  • lolita
  • trainspotting
  • kafka on the shore
  • the rum diary
  • the virgin suicides
  • the lovely bones
  • how to be a woman
  • blind faith
  • hollywood
  • despair
  • brave new world
  • the curious incident of the dog in the night time
  • fear and loathing in las vegas
  • to the lighthouse
  • running with scissors
  • the great gatsby
  • the color purple
  • the handmaid's tale
jul 4 2012 ∞
sep 6 2012 +
  • people ignoring me for a long time
  • veganism
  • booksbooksbooksbooksbooks
  • feminist invasion?
  • jelly shoes
  • sometimes to disappear altogether
  • well-crafted writing
  • people's secrets
  • never crying about boys
  • the sea
  • an escape route
  • red nail varnish
  • storie ideas
  • grow up
  • blonder hair
  • that particular shade of smile
  • cactus garden
jul 21 2012 ∞
aug 8 2012 +

on my shelf

  • annie on my mind
  • ecstasy
  • the picture of dorian gray
  • jude the obscure
  • norweigan wood
  • the unbearable lightness of being
  • little women
  • girl, interrupted
  • cat's cradle
  • lady oracle
  • the master and margarita
  • great expectations
  • the castle
  • nine stories
  • the picture of dorian grey
  • the slynx
  • naked lunch
  • the green mile
  • the liar
  • cloud atlas
jul 13 2012 ∞
sep 6 2012 +
  • tokophobia
  • you make me really sick
  • plants
  • misanthropy (or rather forgetting people altogether)
  • savoury
  • vegetarianism
  • lost inside books
  • reaching out but pulled back
  • notebooks incompleted
jul 21 2012 ∞
jul 24 2012 +
  • i no longer have to think about this stupid tiny little thing anymore
  • green camomile chai tea
  • burning candles incense
  • going on jogs in the evening?
  • reading curled up in bed after college
  • getting dark early (i am kinda sick of long days & stuff now))
  • big jumpers
aug 25 2012 ∞
aug 25 2012 +

things other people love

  • black swan
  • catch 22
  • mumford and sons
  • looking for alaska
  • an education
  • the curious incident of the dog in the night time
  • pulp fiction
  • white oleander
jul 21 2012 ∞
sep 6 2012 +

04 07

  • sometimes i feel fluid, free, trapped, dizzy: all at the same time
  • du bist der ozean, deine augen sind sterne und dein herz ist der mond
  • nobody really needed full stops in the first place

08 07

  • the air is stale and the same air from 5 years ago circulates around and around again into my mouth invades my nose
  • was i ever really here or did i sleep the entire time?
  • unable to make eye contact
    • you remind me of a cat
    • the surrealist experience of a bedroom like an ancient map
  • bunk beds are nice
  • they are frivolous here
jul 4 2012 ∞
aug 30 2012 +
  • i wrote with blue pen {instead of black}
  • twitter was over one hundred and forty characters
  • the seasons made daily switches
  • nobody ate meat ever, eating meat was unheard of
  • landscape changes
  • i connect with poetry
  • they still make ribbons for this typewriter
jul 24 2012 ∞
aug 24 2012 +
  • temptation
  • magic spells
  • lemonade
  • lights out, words gone
  • jesus
  • touched by the hand of god
  • america's boy
  • sound and vision
  • runway, houses, city, clouds
  • your eyes
  • heroes/helden
  • back to the old house
  • seancing song
  • headmaster ritual
  • happiness
  • gemini
  • take it as it comes
jan 2 2012 ∞
aug 30 2012 +