• alan james
  • kindergarten. he gave me a sand art jar he made one day at snack time and we "slow danced" at the elementary school family dance. our moms thought we were the cutest things, and we probably were.
    • we haven't spoken since kindergarten.
• michael white
  • my elementary school "boyfriend". we dated for three days when i was in third grade. his parents took us to the first pokemon movie and then to burger king. i broke up with him by emailing him telling him that i was too young to date.
    • like, duh.
    • to this day, we're still close friends.
• drew moynihan

• emotional conversations
• sad songs
• sappy moments
• thinking too much
• death
• tragedy
• watching the news
• sad movies
• romantic movies
• straws

• honesty
• reliability
• hard working-ness
• maturity
• good decisions making skills
• trustworthy-ness
• loyalty
• ambition
• bravery
• politeness
• perseverance
• determination
• devotion
• faith in others
• focused
• optimism
• modesty
• tolerance
• takes responsibility
• sensitivity
• sincerity

the greatest gift someone could give me is their time, but you know. other than that.

• a trip, anywhere, even if it's just a day trip to nantucket.
• a concert ticket.
• gummy bears.
• a small, subtle piece of jewelry from tiffany's.
  • a bright blue box tied with that ribbon? don't mind if i do!
  • give me a break, i'm only a girl.
• fun flowers.
  • i like sunflowers and daisies.
• oh, jewelry in general.
  • i like silver. not gold. white gold is okay.
  • small, understated jewelry is my favorite...

• a good time.
• long walks to nowhere.
• room to grow.
• stupid jokes.
• to cook for someone.
• to dance.
• cuddling.
• travel.

• ian
  • truth or dare. it was both our first kisses ever. i was fourteen, on nantucket, in my grandfather's trailer with him, ryan, and katie. they dared us to kiss for three seconds. i lasted two before i laughed. oops.
• tony papoutsuckit.
  • my first ~real kiss. it was in my basement after freshman year homecoming. i was fourteen. it was the quickest kiss ever, like one you'd give your grandmother. he never did end up making out with me.
• crosby.
  • in my basement. he leaned over and stuck his tongue in my mouth. i kept my teeth clamped shut tight.
• cam.

• i'm a perfectionist
• i don't stand up for myself
• i'm shy
• i'm sometimes irrational
• i think i'm more innocent than i probably am
• i tend to downplay my real, major accomplishments
• i'm stubborn
  • ted calls this determination, and i like that better.
• i can't ask for help if i need it
• i expect people to know when i need them and am afraid to tell them i do

• summer
• emily
• david
• McKinley
• mackenzie
• rose
• everett
• noah
• berkely
• kelsey

• when the majority of peoples' prof pics are of them and their boyfriend.
  • especially the kissing ones.
  • they're trying to prove something.
• when people ignore me when i ask them to stop doing something that's bothering me.
• when i can't remember the lyrics to a song that's stuck in my head.
• facebook's new photo viewer.
• how silly bands went out of style.
  • and how they were never really in style for the college set, anyway.
• when professors don't email back to a question in due time.
• this one family request from a super distant cousin sitting in my noties.
  • no, i don't want to list you as a cousin ...

• katie
• james
• ted
• mike chase
• samantha

• burt's bees
• black tank top
• boots
• flip flops
• sundresses
• sephora, just in general
• coconut smelling things
• tropical smelling things
• juicy perfume

• why people go to college with their high school significant others
• materialistic realism
• algebra
• why can't i concentrate
• why is the only think i can talk about the amount of work i have to do
• why people get jealous

• dreams
• ice cream
• the north end
• boston in general
• feeling accomplished
• dance parties
• coffee
  • soy cappuccinos with cinnamon and raw sugar, but especially when i make it just sayin
• hot chocolate
• when emmanuel cooperates with my plans
• weekends
• traveling
• home
• reading
• long walks
• exploring
• the jersey shore
• quoting the jersey shore

• teams of 3-4
• 5 hours to complete
• party, party, party after
• things you need to get
  • all teammates in a bathroom stall (not handicap)
  • a restaurant napkin
  • a recipe from a restaurant
  • a fortune cookie
  • a picture with someone who is at least 85 years old
  • entire team's reflection in something other than a mirror
  • a teammate pumping gas in a stranger's car
  • a team member completely buried in the sand

• laziness
• irresponsibility
• inability to say i'm sorry
• lack of appreciation for hard work
• dishonesty
• bad hygiene
  • honestly if i have to convince you to take a shower, something is wrong.
• selfishness
• poor decision making skills
• manipulativeness
• an annoying nonconformist attitude
  • example: ben not liking guitar hero because it was popular, not because he actually gave it a chance
  • example: katie not liking justin beiber even though she's never heard an entire song he's sung
• immaturity

• seaside - the kooks
  • my number one choice, for sure.
• baby, its fact - hellogoodbye
• the dress looks nice on you - sufjan stevens
• dark roman wine - snow patrol
• the perfect girl - the cure
• sunsets and car crashes - the spill canvas
• fool everyone - a rocket to the moon
  • if you feel like dancing with me.
• i miss you - incubus
• dark blue - jacks mannequin
  • "slow down, this night's a perfect shade of dark blue."
• stellar - incubus
• set fire to the third bar - snow patrol
• my beautiful rescue - this providence

• eat some cookies and go to bed. you're still young and you're still learning.
  • from cap after a bad night.
• any guy who ends up with you will be lucky to have you.
• life goes on.
• take chances.
• be raw, be unguarded, and be crazy.
• it's easier to ask forgiveness than it is to get permission.
• let go or be dragged along.

• take a cross country road trip (massachusetts to california)
• have a crazy vegas experience
• have children
• learn to swing dance
• go to new orleans
• see the northern lights
• celebrate new year's eve in times square
• go with evan to the trevi fountain
• earn another degree
• go back to costa rica
• have a garden
• travel to australia
• travel the caribbean with evan
• ✔ touch the colosseum
• ✔ graduate college
• ✔ get married
• skydive - removed may 19 2016
• live on the west coast - removed may 19 2016

• that one last thanksgiving
• exbf's brother's 21st
• the one i threw over thanksgiving break with the bonfire
• the one where we relived high school nights
• the one on halloween at that harvard kid's apartment
• that going away party in sandwich
• that party i had to go back to at 130 am to save my friends
• that one where katie threw up at the t stop
• my 20th
  • attempt one: katie and james crying in my bedroom
    • i cried in my bedroom, too
  • attempt two: mark stole my alcohol to try to pick up other girls