january

• i have felt tired for months now
• why do i lack motivation? have i reverted back to 2013 me or something?
• why
• i am so thankful that my parents trust me so much and are proud of what i've done with my life so far
• i need more interests
• i am happy that i only have one class on m/w
• i am unhappy that i have three classes on t/th
• i have so much anxiety when i think of change
• someone called me friendly and easy to talk to and outgoing and it made me really happy
• my handwriting has gotten so sloppy over the course of a year idk how????
• i often feel that i should not get too attached to the ideas of things b/c when i get attached it's difficult for me to detach myself and move on (that made no sense at all)
• i am always so nervous about doing horribly in my classes
• "you know who my crush is" "dan smith" "oh yeah mmmm" literally w/o any thought put into it bless

february

• i have self-diagnosed myself to be allergic to caffeine
  • have learned i just have a really bad acid reflux
• why do i get angry over dumb things
• detach yourself. read. focus on school. detach from the part of the internet that puts strain on mind.
• why am i so emotional // this shouldn't affect me this much
• i shouldn't be slacking off so early in the semester
• stop being angry at everything

march

• panic attacks suck
• i need to put more effort into school
• i feel a lot healthier lately

april

• scratch that my current state of health sucks
• focus on studying more // you're obviously not putting enough effort into school
• contemplating taking three classes next semester b/c of stress and anxiety
• definitely taking three classes next semester, one being online -- hopefully relieves some stress -- still anxious about into to communication/presentation class during summer

may

• i got a b in sociology. i was 90% sure i was going to get a c and 50 % sure i would get a d. thanks @ reflection writing skills.
• i am so bitter and so affected by things that should not affect me this much. objective not subjective.
• first year of university -- officially over. ???? thoughts ???? stressed ????
• i got an a in my language class as well as in my statistics class (SHOCKER of the year) and a b in psych

june

• why do i get so anxious over the thought of giving a speech ??
• happiness ? ? ?
• this is only a month long class and i've already missed three classes b/c i can't be bothered to go
• unhealthy //

july

• i finished my class. it was alright.
• you know you have to leave a fandom when everything irritates you. so.
• also been doing well w/ no meat
• stress lvl 100
• make time to read or something
• ??? why do i leave things to the last minute ???

october

• it's already mid-semester what have i been doing

december

• overall, a very hectic year. this past semester was demanding and i'll be starting my upper division courses next semester. very intimidating.