2010-2012

• first encounter with concept of mortality
• fear of death and apocalypse

2017-2019

• first encounter with capitalist disillusionment
• onset of depression/anxiety
• multimedia burnout/onset of not being able to enjoy media

2020-2021

• gender crisis (oh god i'm just a bastardization of the female form)
• gender crisis 2 (they/them)
• gender crisis 3 (it doesn't matter if i use they/them, everyone carries presumptions about me that i have no control over)
• gender crisis 4 (no pronouns/don't fucking talk about me)
• gender crisis 5 (i give up i'm agender)
• aromantic/asexual crisis (no one will ever love me because i am reluctant towards traditional relationships and sex)
• "i will never be truly understood and i will never truly be loved" crisis
• "i am too difficult and grotesque to be loved" crisis
• "i am a cog in the machine of US state propaganda and my involvement in film and journalism will only legitimize it" crisis

2021-2022

• "i'm going to die tragically before i get to feel the comfort of normalcy" crisis
• realization of rape/SA/grooming
• severely overworked to the point where i slammed my head on the bathroom faucet