i was thinking about that really special feeling you get, especially when you’re younger, when it’s the last day of school and you have that feeling that comes with it, excitement for spending months doing what you want, for the most part. it’s this eagerness that’s in your chest and you can’t wait to get home from school and start doing what you want to do. or it comes when you’re excited for a trip, to travel somewhere where there is some experience waiting for you to arrive. or, it’s a person. I’m in this place where it feels like every time i’m about to leave to see mau, whether it’s a couple days, hours, or minutes before i’m leaving, or I’m on the way there, I get that feeling of excitement that builds up in my chest and it makes me feel like i’m starting summer break every time i leave to see her. i especially feel this way about moving in with her; even now when it’s probably close to 10 months or so away, that same excitement (but much larger) is there about it and growing each day. i just love the way you make me feel mau. i think that feeling is such a special one and important one for people to have, but i don’t think everyone is so lucky to be in a relationship with someone that gives them that feeling. i am, though, and i think about it and take time to be grateful for it each and every day <3