• being honest
• sarcasm
• languages (learning them, understanding them, utilizing them)
• reading fast
• grammar
• wasting money on things i don't need
• shopping
• making collages
• procrastinating
• sleeping in
• eating healthily
• disappointing myself
• having panic attacks
• being anxious
• listening to people when they need to talk to someone
• driving
• writing
• being pessimistic
• making lists

• cultural anthropology
• international reproductive rights
• photography
• sexual health education ---> HIV/AIDS prevention and control in africa via comprehensive sexual health education
• sexual health education ---> liberal sexual health education in united states' public school systems
• women's studies
• gender studies
• cultural studies
• african studies
• world languages
• world studies
• sociology
• foreign cultures + world studies + sociology + anthropology + gender studies + feminist/women's studies + women's health + sexual health + HIV/AIDS prevention and control + sexual education + preventabilit...

• respect for women (!!!!!)
• respect for me
• respect for me, as a feminist woman
• tolerance of my views, even if they are different from his
• deviance
• switching forms of speech here
• passionate
• ambitious
• creative
• intellectual
• confident (not arrogant, not narcissistic, oh god)
• flexible, adaptable, transferrable
• easygoing
• spontaneous
• adventurous
• eager to try new things
• good sense of humor
• understands my sense of humor
• appreciates my sense of humor

• becoming/being fat
• looking back on my life and regretting things that i did not do ("i wish i'd...")
• the ocean
• running out of time
• spiders in my house/room (they do not belong there)
• ugly and/or large insects
• getting food poisoning
• the ocean
• having some terminal or terrible illness/disease (i am ridiculous and irrational)
• never telling you that i love you
• having a bad trip
• deep water (exception: swimming pools)
• the ocean
• having a living creature brush up against me while i am in a lake/river/ocean/etc.
• VOMIT
• VOMITING

• having sore muscles
• pressing my bruises (if they are not too tender... sometimes it can be very unpleasant)
• tweezing my eyebrows
• tweezing my leg hair (when i am bored and haven't shaved in a few days)
• popping pimples
• meticulously organizing my itunes
• meticulously capitalizing songs/artists names my itunes
• editing things for spelling and grammar mistakes
• being bitten
• the smell of fresh paint
• flossing my teeth
• cleaning out my ears with q-tips
• clipping my fingernails and toenails
• obsessively and compulsively deleting files from my computer
• obsessively and compulsively emptying my ...

• photojournalist
• photographer for National Geographic
• high fashion photographer
• portrait photographer
• fashion designer
• stylist
• proofreader editor (this is my safety/backup job)
• socio-cultural anthropologist
• sexual health educator
• literature professor
• literary critic
• vintage clothing store owner

• I will treat my body with respect. This means getting up off my ass and exercising (getting back my ballet body), eating better, and getting more sleep.
• I will be more confident in everything I do. And I will let it show.
• I will be more honest with myself and with the people I love.
• I will live more impulsively and creatively, and have more fun. Stress less.
• I will broaden my intellectual horizons.

• slow drivers
• more specifically: people who drive slowly in the left line, in any lane on the highway/interstate, or under the speed limit anywhere in general
• people who claim to be open minded but are in reality very far from it and have no intentions of changing
• days when the sky is overcast but it is not raining or snowing or anything
• fire drills
• being awakened before my alarm goes off
• not getting enough sleep
• excessive pride
• arrogance
• narcissism
• snobby elitists
• homophobia
• hypocrites
• ignorance
• selfishness

• alabama
• arizona
• arkansas
• california
• colorado
• connecticut
• delaware
• florida
• georgia
• idaho
• illinois
• kansas
• kentucky
• louisiana
• maryland
• massachusetts
• mississippi
• missouri
• nebraska
• new jersey
• new mexico

• the Downtown Mall
• Thai 99
• Tandem Friends School
• Arch's
• Sarah's porch
• Barracks Road Shopping Center
• Mudhouse
• Bodo's
• our Barnes and Noble
• Mill Creek Market
• Vinegar Hill Theater
• Carter's Mountain
• Suzannah's
• the Old Michie Theater
• Foods of All Nations
• Afton Mountain
• the trails through the Blue Ridge Mountains

• frolic
• silk
• petrichor (the scent of rain on dry earth.)
• glassy
• lush
• languish
• traipse / traipsing
• inoculate
• pimento
• invigorate
• bloom
• dusk
• glassy
• inebriate
• viscous
• inundate
• breeze
• excalibur
• brisé
• chassé

• vogue paris
• vogue italia
• vogue nippon
• vogue russia
• i-D
• numero
• nylon
• marie claire
• glamour
• jpeg
• harper's bazaar
• french elle
• lula
• wound
• national geographic
• b&w

• "When you understand why you dismiss all the other possible gods, you will understand why I dismiss yours." -Stephen F. Roberts
• "Even after all this time the sun never says to the earth, "you owe me." Look what happens with a love like that. It lights the whole sky." -Hafiz
• "My Heart Is Afraid that it will have to suffer," the boy told the alchemist one night..."Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams." -Paul Coelho, The Alchemist
• "I want the night spent with you to remain alive for an entire life." -Turkish song
• "Never let the hand you hold, hold you down." -Author Unknown
• "War is God's way of teaching Americans g...

• The Boondock Saints
• Casablanca (have)
• Y Tu Mama Tambien (have)
• Dr. Strangelove or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb (have)
• The Big Lebowski (have)
• Fight Club (have)
• Ghost World (have)
• Breakfast at Tiffany's
• Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
• Secretary (have)
• Goodbye Lenin!
• Children of Men (have)
• Junebug
• Masculin, Feminin (have)
• Moulin Rouge
• Harold and Maude
• Breathless
• Taxi Driver (have)
• A Clockwork Orange
• Se7en (have)

• i will never write a list about you.

• photographs are my favourite material things in the world.
• i collect photographs. i also collect fashion magazines, memorabilia from my past, and books.
• aesthetics are everything to me. i am a sucker for anything beautiful.
• i am in love with the idea of being in love. i have been in love before-- it is hard, and it hurts, and it's consuming; but it's worth it.
• i write the most and i write the best when i have a broken heart.
• i want to go to africa more than anything but i am frightened by the potential reality of it.
• if i had an inexhaustible source of income, i would:

-smoke weed constantly,

-live as a nomad, traveling the globe and setting up sexual health clinics everywh...

• synesthete
• gemini

• 1: tattoos i have
• 1: times i have broken a bone
• 1: times i failed my driving test
• 1: the number of ex-fiancés i have
• 1: middle schools i attended
• 1: the number of siblings that i have
• 1: other person in this world who knows the real me
• 1: colleges i applied to
• 1: colleges i was accepted into
• 2: times i have had my heart broken
• 2: the number of elementary schools i attended
• 2: the number of high schools i attended
• 2: languages i can converse comfortably in
• 2: vehicles i have totaled
• 3: states my family and i have lived in as a unit
• 3: instruments i can play well
• 3: names in my full name (first, middle, ...

• snow white (the poisoned apple? TERRIFYING. when the queen turns into the old beggar lady? TERRIFYING. i have too many terrifying memories relating to this movie. i used to cry when i watched it. it gave me nightmares.)
• alice in wonderland (ok, i try to like this movie, but seriously, what the FUCK? it just reminds me way too much of a bad acid trip. and it's creepy. no thank you.)
• beauty and the beast (i hate gaston. like, i cannot stand him. and belle being the only human in that big giant house with the beast and some talking household objects? i fear for her. also, when gaston's men come to break down the doors of the house with those huge logs? no thank you. the tone of this movie is just too dark.)
• bambi (bambi's mother DIES. i am forever ...

• misogyny
• disrespect towards me
• disrespect towards my friends
• disrespect towards women
• narcissism
• self-absorption
• low self-esteem
• overweight
• pushovers
• warped ego
• bad grammar (your vs. you're is my biggest pet peeve EVER. if you seriously can't differentiate between the two, i don't want anything to do with you.)
• ignorance
• closed-mindedness
• intolerance of others' differences
• complacency
• alcoholism
• acting (a lot) differently around different people

• Emma Goldman
• Cate Blanchett
• Barack Obama
• Dora Black Russell
• Valentino Achak Deng
• Susan B. Anthony
• Margaret Atwood
• Shamima Shaikh
• Paul Coelho
• Natalia Vodianova
• Dave Eggers
• Mary Wollstonecraft
• Paolo Roversi
• Hillary Clinton
• Jyotirao Phule
• Chinua Achebe

• December
• Lia
• Vivienne
• Luna
• Lux

• grocery lists
• semicolons
• completing everything on my to-do list
• Southern California <3
• smoothies
• abandoned houses
• knickknacks
• coffee table books
• Scotland
• daydreaming about my idyllic future
• Hampshire College
• Samuel Beam's voice
• vintage clothes
• vintage photographs
• spending the afternoon in Barnes and Noble with a pile of new glossy magazines
• pomegranates
• editing things (just things i didn't write myself)
• cuddling; spooning
• anthropology

• PAOLO ROVERSI.
• ellen von unwerth
• camilla åkrans
• irving penn
• inez van lamsweerde & vinoodh matadin
• glen luchford
• sophie delaporte
• mario sorrenti
• richard avedon
• soffia gisladóttir
• terry richardson
• helmut newton
• hedi slimane

• one tree motherfucking hill.
• weeds
• true blood
• the office
• secret diary of a call girl
• grey's anatomy
• law and order: svu
• any reality show related to fashion/modeling, including: america's next top model, make me a supermodel, project runway, etc.

• Daniel Day-Lewis
• Mario Sorrenti
• James Lafferty
• James McAvoy
• Gael Garcia Bernal
• Gaspard Ulliel
• Benjamin McKenzie
• Samuel Beam
• Robert Pattinson
• Taylor Kitsch

• Irina Lazareanu
• Tanya Dziahileva
• Anja Rubik
• Marina Perez
• Natalia Vodianova
• Lara Stone
• Nadja Auermann
• Hana Soukupova
• Ines Crnokrak
• Anna Jagodzinska
• Gemma Ward
• Leah de Wavrin
• Marcelina Sowa
• Lesly Masson
• Siri Tollerød
• Magdalena Frackowiak

• NEW POINT AND SHOOT CAMERA.
• (bigger) new ipod
• lomography cameras: holga, diana, fisheyes lenses
• a very nice, very warm, very durable winter coat
• winter boots
• a warm, cosy blanket
• newer, better lens for my DSLR
• white christmas lights
• clove cigarettes
• cheap champagne
• more cheap champagne
• more sweaters
• winter hat and gloves
• a dry erase board & pretty markers
• earmuffs and/or a warm hat
• a really big pillow

• being patient
• not cussing
• math
• drawing
• painting
• sports
• remembering things that just happened
• not worrying about things
• time management
• motivating myself to work out
• giving myself enough credit
• being optimistic
• being fake
• chemistry
• physics
• memorizing formulas
• saving money
• planning ahead
• being cautious
• wearing my retainer
• initiating conversation with anyone other...

• being too skinny.
• what humans and other creatures look like under their skin, or whatever--on the inside. but especially humans.
• huge boobs.
• religious fanaticism.
• impoliteness.
• not bathing for a week.
• cats.
• bellybutton piercings.
• fake smiles.
• fake anything.
• womanizers.
• the fact that many women enable womanizers.
• octopi.
• joining/belonging to a sorority/fraternity.
• clingy significant others.
• clingy friends.
• clingy anything/anyone.

• Notorious B.I.G.
• T.I.
• Jay-Z
• Tupac
• M.I.A.
• Eminem
• Kanye West
• Lil' Wayne
• Lil' Kim
• Birdman
• Dr. Dre
• Nas
• Ghostface Killah
• Ludacris
• Twista
• Raekwon

• mulan
• anastasia
• aladdin
• tarzan
• monsters, inc
• ratatouille
• mary poppins
• oliver & company

• brown hair. only.
• (sorry)
• bonus: dark hair + light eyes
• long and lean muscles
• height (tall, um, ish)
• big, strong hands
• hipbones. can i trace them with my fingertips.
• body hair (don't be a pussy)
• prominent jawlines
• lanky but not too skinny
• feet that don't look soft and therefore surprise you when they are
• tight embraces
• please, not a "good guy"
• why the fuck do i always like the assholes
• whatever. i like assholes.
• raw sexuality
• the right amount of confidence (not arrogant, but does not shrug off honest compli...

• movie theaters
• outside on the grass
• a bed
• Mexico
• a side street on the downtown mall
• the car
• Hampshire
• a loveseat (ha, ha)
• a bar

• Lucas and Peyton Scott (OTH)
• my mom and dad
• my granddad and grandmom
• Jim and Pam (The Office)
• Beyoncé and Jay-Z
• Nathan and Haley Scott (OTH)
• Natalia Vodianova and Justin Portman
• Dwight and Angela (The Office)
• Nicole Richie and Joel Madden
• Beren and Luthien (The Silmarillion)
• Anna Paquin and Stephen Moyer
• Maya Arulpragasm and Ben Brewer
• Bender and Claire (the Breakfast Club)
• Ayten and Lotte (Auf der anderen Seite)
• Barack and Michelle Obama
• Alice and Jasper (Twilight)
• Ellen DeGeneres and Portia de Rossi
• Sandy and Kirsten Cohen (The O.C.)
• Miranda and Steve (Sex and the City)
• Charlotte and Harry (Sex and the City)

• irina lazareanu
• mary-kate olsen
• rita hayworth
• cory kennedy
• anja rubik
• lily donaldson
• ashley olsen
• louise brooks
• peyton sawyer
• nancy botwin
• nicole richie
• vivian leigh
• molly ringwald circa pretty in pink
• carrie bradshaw
• ballerinas
• runway models
• fashion bloggers

• Venezuela (age 12)
• the Bahamas (age 14)
• Mexico (age 15)
• Japan (age 16)
• Canada (age 17)
• Ireland (age 19)
• Scotland (age 19)
• Germany (age 19)
• England (age 19)
• and of course the USA (i live here)

• hot > cold
• ketchup > mustard
• salt > pepper
• dogs >>>>>>> cats
• dresses > any other type of clothing
• tv on dvd > movies
• night > day
• batman >>>> all superheroes
• french toast > pancakes
• diet pepsi > diet coke
• macs > PCs
• coffee > hot tea
• sunshine > rain
• city > country
• odd > even
• nyc > boston
• deutsch>english
• northern u.s. > southern u.s.
• chocolate > vanilla
• buttons > zippers
• one tree hill >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> the o.c.

• M.I.A.
• Charlotte Gainsbourg
• Natalia Vodianova
• Mary-Kate Olsen
• Hilarie Burton
• Lara Stone
• Cory Kennedy
• Eva Green
• Nicole Richie

• balmain
• viktor & rolf
• john galliano
• betsey johnson
• nicolas ghesquière
• emporio armani
• alexander mcqueen
• anna sui
• blumarine
• christian lacroix
• marchesa
• alessandro dell'acqua
• gianfranco ferré
• malandrino
• emanuel ungaro
• jean paul gaultier
• herve ledger

• iceland
• norway
• brazil
• sweden
• ✔ scotland
• greece
• india
• thailand
• russia
• czech republic
• ✔ germany
• ✔ ireland
• congo
• south africa
• finland