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I laughed and said, life is easy. What I meant was, life is easy with you here, and when you leave it will be hard again.

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  • 10132009 Eight of Pentacles / Death (XIII) / Two of Cups
    • Today will be about rebuilding and reorganizing my life on the most basic level so as to create a clean break from a past relationship or love problem; it will center around getting over a change in love through small but meaningful steps like reorganizing my closet, focusing on school, blocking time more effectively, etc. Today will also be about change, letting go of the past, spiritual rediscovery, making plans for the future, and stepping back to take a good look at the situation from a broader perspective. I also think that today will be realizing that there is more to be thankful for in my life than I think and I should seize those blessings and make the best of them.
    • 7: Today is about keeping it together even though things are shifting apart and changing; it's about having the strength to carry on and the strength to lose everything you have an start again from nothing. It's about letting go of everything you hold dear: pride, anger, arrogance, etc. and making the best decision for yourself. For me, I need to get over my anger, self-righteousness, over confidence, snobbery, and self-pity. I hate people who feel sorry for themselves and I must not let my situations turn me into one of those people.
  • 10142009 The World (XXI) / King of Swords / Death (XIII)
    • Today will be about the completion and full realization of the relationship between me and C. I think today will be a day in which I reach a definitive conclusion on what I'm going to do in regard to C and I think my conclusion will cause a full shift in how I perceive I should live my life. I think today is about closure and being okay with that closure and having that closure be definitive. There's no need to really beat around the bush anymore about my relationship with C. Today is also about nurturing and giving shape to the foundation I have already laid yesterday: focus, hard work is paramount, there is more to live for than what is before me, and never overestimate your own capabilities or underestimate the capacities of others.
    • 8: Today's lesson is about figuring out what direction you should take now that all the evidence has been presented. It's about figuring out how I feel about something personally and figuring how my sensibilities--sensibilities that must be mine and mine alone--will guide my future steps. It's a day about breaking away from society and past fact patterns to make a decision to better myself in a way that may not be expected or supported. It's about spiritual and inner strength more than physical strength and endurance. This is not about endurance--it's about sureness and fortitude. It is about devotion to my best interests.
  • 10152009 Knight of Rods / Queen of Cups / 5 of Rods
    • Today will be about positive expansive force that works to neutralize and solve problems that I've been running against in my life. Most of these problems are emotional and most have to deal with love and loss; however, today, I will be taking time to actively remedy the situation. All in all, I think today will be a good day!
    • 9: Today is best described as introspective and the most important thing to realize today is that I should always step back from a heated situation and ask myself if that's what I truly want.
  • 10162009 10 of Pentacles / Ace of Rods / 9 of Swords
    • Today will be a double edged sword. On one hand, today will be a constant juggle of events and activity. There will be no dull moment as I flit around and do a million different things at the same time with seemingly endless energy. It seems like I'm light-hearted and fun and funny and social; however, underneath it, I am also allowing the anxieties that have been eating away at me continue to exist. There is no longer any external negativity. It is important to understand that it is up to me if I want the negativity to fester and grow and it's up to me if I want to reinforce the positivity of my plans with a positive mentality. Today's battle is between allow external positivity (being with friends, meeting new people, etc.) be defeated by internal negativity (the troublesome emotional times, feeling out of my element, etc.) One of things I should try to do is not let one infect the other. What will win out today is what will overcome my life tomorrow. Positive or negative?
    • 1: Today is a day strongly rooted in beginnings and ends. I should make an effort today to end anything that needs to be ended today and begin new projects and new joys as much as possible. End negativity, start positivity.
  • 10172009 Page of Swords / 10 of Wands / 7 of Wands
    • Today will be a hard day for me as I will have to use all my wit and intelligence and eloquence to get myself out of situations that I do not want to be in. I think today will start out with good conversation and talk with friends but will transition into a situation in which I feel the burden will be too great to bear or plain exhaustion. Later in the day I'll have to hold my ground against someone's pushiness or a latent urge I must work to resist. I don't think today will be an easy day for me, but the key to unlocking today is having courage, using wit, and keeping a level head with my eyes on the prize: not burning out. Don't give up, don't give in, and see the creativity in every situation. Today is about inflections and the art of using said inflections--mere wisps of tangibility--to my own advantage. I do not need to win the war, I merely need to plant the seed of escape.
    • 2: Today is a day rooted in direction and decision making. Make decisions based off of principles and ideals. Keep removed from the situation as much as possible if your ideal is just to make an escape. Keep out of the fray, tonight is not a good night to go out.
  • 10182009 5 of Cups / 4 of Pentacles / Queen of Rods
    • Today will be about finding my center again. I think today will also be about recognizing an emotional loss but then being able to get over it by looking toward other attributes of my life. Today is about acceptance and figuring out that the emotional loss suffered does not erode my physical successes nor my core person. From looking back on the pattern of the past days, I can see that the drama of the emotional loss had been over for some days before I finally was able to feel it. It's as if the external events had to travel through a long void in order to finally reach me emotionally--that, although my mind knew that it was over, my heart did not. Today, I also regain my center and focus on small but enjoyable tasks and self-betterment.
    • 3: Today is a day rooted in materialization. It's about nurturing and love and it's about realization. Celebrate what you have today.
  • 10192009 5 of Rods / The Tower (XVI) / Temperance (XIV)
    • Today will be about recognizing bad habits the burden the play on a framework. I think today is about feeling humility and shame and working to change my ways.
    • 4: Today a foundation will be challenged.
  • 10202009 The Sun / 2 of Pents / 8 of Cups
  • 10212009 Page of Pentacles / Knight of Rods / 3 of Cups
    • Today will revolve around figuring out your center and a better work ethic--issues that you have failed to properly address in the previous day--and reconciling the traditionally incompatible steady work ethic with your flair for excitement and fun. Today will also be a celebration of sorts. Generally, very very good day.
    • 6: Today is about finding your best.
  • 10242009: 7 of Cups / Page of Rods / 4 of Rods
    • Today will start out with a languid morning in which little will be done but much will be planned. The day quickens however, by afternoon as I begin to take action and galvanize myself to finish my chores and other obligations. By the end of the day, during the evening, I will be partying it up with other people and feeling very thrilled and happy with myself. The primary tension of the day involves quashing purely imaginary obstacles with action and initiative. Today is about active, expansive energy. Just keep dancing! Everything will turn out all right--but just remember to get in before midnight!
    • 9: Today will be about materialization and actualization. The full brunt of your personality will manifest today. You will be yourself and all will go well as long as you are faithful to yourself.
  • 10262009 King of Pentacles / 6 of Pentacles / 10 of Pentacles
    • Today should be a great day to get things done albeit not a very exciting day over all.
    • 2: Today is about direction and good decision making!
  • 10272009 Four of Swords / Three of Cups / The Sun (XIX)
    • Today starts sleepy but ends vibrantly. Today is also about coming to terms with some past emotional damage and learning to live in the moment and celebrate being alive.
    • 3: Today is about transformation.
  • 10292009 Death (XIII) / 10 of Swords / Queen of Swords
    • I'm pretty scared about how the day will be like. Death is obviously not a very pleasant card but it suggests that, once more, radical change is working its way through my life again. Death showed up about 15 days ago when I was trying to get over C and I must confess that the brunt of that pain has passed now and I have since turned over a new leaf: I'm more focused now, for example; and much more conservative when it comes to love and other relations. But here, Death shows that it is moving through my life for another round. Sometime else is going to start changing in my life, and it seems to suggest that this new change pertains to my intellect and social skills. I'm really not sure. Today could be a really bad day as well, with the majority of my classes falling into the range of 10 of Swords, which is a classic defeat card. Some interpretations of 10 of Swords suggest that it's a unfounded feeling of misfortune or self-pity. Perhaps what's happening here today is I'll get rid of the last dregs of that thing with C and get on with my life. Or, perhaps what's happening is I will be horribly humiliated in class again. I think mom is going to call later today too or, in terrible cases, call mom.
    • 4: Today is about expansion and the drawbacks of expansive power. 4 is the number of The Emperor as well as Death and ancient African tribes frequently marry the two. The Emperor was taken as the symbol of prosperity and, as this prosperity decayed or as the Emperor aged, it was common practice to slay the Emperor and transfer the Emperor's soul to another candidate. 4 is about earthly power but also about change and instability. A king is only a king because he was once the creator of instability, but a king is only a king because he will one day also fall to that same instability. The question now is which one is today?
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