• Make the top 20 of my class
• Either lose 25 pounds by Valentine's Day (already lost: 7 pounds; right now 113 pounds) or have 30-23-34 inch measurements by Valentine's Day (currently 30-25-34 inches)
• Be more confident
• Think positively
• Tolerate no laziness; no excuses
• Love without fear and love completely and purely
• Smoke less
• Exercise more
• Drink more water
• Drink more tea
• Be on time

• 08:00am wake, medicine, nose up
• 08:30am pear + egg + tea + water
• 09:00am wash dishes
• 09:15am workout
• 11:15am shower
• 11:30am eat something
• 12:00pm dishes
• 12:15pm introduction to self defense
• 01:45pm eat something
• 02:15pm notes to introduction to self defense
• 02:30pm notes to self defense 2
• 02:45pm notes to necessity
• 03:00pm duress
• 04:30pm notes to duress
• 04:45pm eat something
• 05:15pm dishes
• 05:30pm intoxication
• 07:00pm notes to intoxication
• 07:15pm insanity
• 07:45pm eat something

• 10/24/2009
• 10/27/2009
• 11/01/2009
• 11/07/2009
• 11/08/2009
• 11/12/2009
• 11/15/2009
• 11/16/2009
• 11/17/2009

• Camus: The Fall
• Woolf: To the Lighthouse
• Nabokov: Pale Fire
• Berger: G.: A Novel
• Ferrell: The Siege of Krishnapur
• Fitzgerald: The Great Gatsby
• Garcia-Marquez: One Hundred Years of Solitude
• Lee: To Kill A Mockingbird
• Bradbury: Fahrenheit 451
• Heller: Catch-22
• Kesey: One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest
• Toole: Confederacy of Dunces
• Coelho: The Alchemist
• Miller: The Crucible
• Rice: The Witching Hour
• Adams: The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy
• Pynchon: The Crying of Lot 49
• Puzo: The Godfather
• Lahiri: Unaccustomed Earth

• Spend an hour each day without saying anything except in answer to direct questions, in the midst of the usual group, without creating the impression that you’re sulking or ill. Be as ordinary as possible. But do not volunteer remarks or try to draw out information.
• Think for 30 minutes a day about one subject exclusively. Start with five minutes.
• Write a letter without using the words I, me, mine, my.
• Talk for 15 minutes a day without using I, me, my, mine.
• Write a letter in a “successful” or placid tone. No misstatements, no lying. Look for aspects or activities that can be honestly reported that way.
• Pause on the threshold of any crowded room and size it up.
• Keep a new acquaintance talking about him...

• circle lenses
• red motorcycle jacket
• corset
• hook-and-eye tank top
• plaid dress
• purple dagger hoodie
• bitch print hoodie
• h.naoto skull shirt

• be in the top 15 of my entering class
• be well-respected but unconventional
• raise good points all the time
• be able to get whatever I want to get done, done
• wear black lipstick and black clothes and smoke cigarettes
• drink coffee in coffee shops
• be a badass--but one with a law degree
• speak eloquently
• be challenging
• be very well read
• watch a lot of movies
• know how to create delicious meals
• have few lovers but many admirers
• be less lonely
• be missed when I'm gone
• never feel sorry for myself

• a Nikon D40 or better (500USD)
• a pair of suede ankle height wedge boots (80USD)
• a Pleasure Principle skull tee (30USD)
• a black leather schoolbag (100USD)
• a blue velvet dress (ModCloth-65USD)
• a raw edge leather jacket (50USD)
• a suit (???)
• a Vivienne Westwood armor ring (300USD)
• Lip Service Dark Desires jacket (90USD)
• Lip Service Hooked on Blacklist shirt (70USD)
• Lip Service Rockshow Daggers and Roses Tank (17USD)
• Kill City Rain Wash Jeans (100USD)
• Lip Service Faded Suspect red moto jacket (118USD)

I waited so long to make resolutions this year; I think, for the longest time, law school applications seemed like a carry-over of last year and, because I wasn't able to finish them until yesterday, I have always been stuck on last year. Now for this year, which will be a sad but wonderful year. Last years always are. I have high hopes.

• Go natural: I've never really loved make up that much, but I've always worn it because I've felt uncomfortable with the state of my skin which has always had something wrong with it. I don't have severe acne--or even moderate acne--and I never have. Still, I always feel like others have better skin than I do, so I frequently feel compelled to hide it. I want to stop doing that. I want to treat my body better and put fewer chemicals in and on it. I know that the secret to beauty is ...

• Lip Service dress (straps)
• Comme des Garcons dress (straps)
• BCG jeans (hem)
• F21 pants (hem)

• 11012009: Queen of Pentacles / 6 of Cups / Queen of Swords
  • Today will start out strongly rooted in routine and duty. I will get the things that need to be done, done, and with very little resistance. The day then phases into a comfortable lulling of pleasant activities by midday. The evening will be filled with intellectual activities; however, it may also hold the potential for overly harsh self-criticism. Because the energy of the Queen of Pentacles resonates throughout the day, however, I feel like there will be a strong tension later in the day between wanting to get things done and mental embarrassment or anguish resulting from self-criticism. It's important to find a balance of mental self-criticism and having a positive effect in getting things done. In mid-day it will also...

• Good looking and well built
• Extremely intelligent
• Ambitious
• Speaks several different languages
• Tough
• Can hold his liquor
• Can hold his own in a fight
• Self-possessed
• Kind-hearted
• Not pretentious
• Confident
• Bookworm
• Movie buff
• Foodie
• Wears a leather motorcycle jacket
• Has a lot to teach
• But willing to learn too
• Bold
• Rebellious
• Sociable
• Enjoys drinking

• 10132009 Eight of Pentacles / Death (XIII) / Two of Cups
  • Today will be about rebuilding and reorganizing my life on the most basic level so as to create a clean break from a past relationship or love problem; it will center around getting over a change in love through small but meaningful steps like reorganizing my closet, focusing on school, blocking time more effectively, etc. Today will also be about change, letting go of the past, spiritual rediscovery, making plans for the future, and stepping back to take a good look at the situation from a broader perspective. I also think that today will be realizing that there is more to be thankful for in my life than I think and I should seize those blessings and make the best of them.
  • 7: Today is about keeping it together ev...