I waited so long to make resolutions this year; I think, for the longest time, law school applications seemed like a carry-over of last year and, because I wasn't able to finish them until yesterday, I have always been stuck on last year. Now for this year, which will be a sad but wonderful year. Last years always are. I have high hopes.

• Go natural: I've never really loved make up that much, but I've always worn it because I've felt uncomfortable with the state of my skin which has always had something wrong with it. I don't have severe acne--or even moderate acne--and I never have. Still, I always feel like others have better skin than I do, so I frequently feel compelled to hide it. I want to stop doing that. I want to treat my body better and put fewer chemicals in and on it. I know that the secret to beauty is really looking healthy--and there's no better way to fake that than actually being healthy.
• Go natural 2: I want to start a skin care routine that cuts out almost of all of the harmful products I use on my skin and hair. This includes cleansers, shampoos, and conditioners. I propose to replace these with high-end all-natural soap and traditional remedies that do not contain dangerous and harmful chemicals. Remedies include fruits, vegetables, teas, milk, honey, etc. That means I have to purchase:
  • all natural soap (check Rebecca's Natural Foods store)
  • moisturizer with SPF
  • exfoliation towel
• Go natural 3: Try to cut back on bad processed foods like lunch meats, fish sticks, chicken nuggets, potato chips, french fries, corn dogs (a major problem since the BF loves them), macaroni and cheese (BF's favorite), white pasta, white rice, etc. Try to eat more organic foods with an emphasis on vegetables and fruits. Eat more dairy products like yogurt. Don't forget to eat fish a couple of times a week--a great excuse for sushi!
• Go healthy: Eat three meals a day with two snacks interspersed throughout the day. Ideally, I will eat about once every three hours and in small portions. I need to eat more fruits! I also want to actually drink 8 glasses of water a day. It's something I've never been able to do, but have always wanted to get around to doing.
• Get skinny: I don't actually want to get rail thin, but I enjoy working out very regularly and for longish intervals (over 1 hour). I just want to make more time for it in my life without sacrificing everything else. I also want to study fun new means of exercising like yoga and pilates. the bf also wants to show me exercises so I'm pretty happy with that. In addition, I want to have a weekly hot tub-sauna soak/steam.
• Sleep tight: Get more sleep. Period.
• Get organized: If I'm going to be eating three meals a day, with 8 glasses of water, plus work out, plus actually sleep, I'm going to have to get myself organized. I still want to do all my work and hang out with my friends. I still want to make the occasional appearance at parties and occasionally drink with moderation. I want to be with my boyfriend all the time. This all requires extremely good planning.
• Laugh more: Just because you're on a schedule doesn't mean you have to frown.
• Dress like you mean it: I'm a girl with a past--a past involving drug dealers, illegal car races, etc. I'm no longer living that past for no particular reason other than because I'm tired of it. I'm living a very goody two shoes life right now. But I'm not a goody two shoes. I'm tired of dressing like a goody two shoes--it makes me very uncomfortable. I'm also an active, vibrant, moderately mysterious, very rebellious, and rather intelligent. I want a style that says all of that--while I'm doing all of those things. This is what I'm thinking about experimenting with:
  • thick, curled lashes; doe eyes; no blush; dark, devil lips.
  • shredded denim and chains
  • over the knee, equestrian styled boots
  • very clean, classic corset to be worn under blazers
  • shredded tanks
  • motorcycle jacket
  • black and blue wardrobe
  • goth-grunge from suburbia theme
  • messy Heidi braids
  • dark side of cute
• Do more for the boyfriend: I want to take him out to eat more, buy him more things, make him happier, make him prouder, etc.
• Drink more in moderation: I want to have one glass of wine a day--but keep it at that. I like the idea of the jovial dinner.
• Enjoy food more
• Enjoy life more
• Be in public places: I want to be with people all the time--even if it's just in the library and I don't know who they are. I want to eat with other people more. Talk to strangers more.
• Cut back on the cigs: I smoke very little nowadays. Still, I don't want to get stressed and then smoke like 128312837123 cigs for no reason.
• Cut back on the hate: Stop spending time on ridiculous Internet forums that are prone to fanaticism and ignorance. There are a lot of people in the world who enjoy putting other people down or changing other peoples' minds or putting out fanaticism about one body part or the other. One of these forums is soompi.com. It's never helped me become a better person. It's never made me kinder. It's just wasted my time over the months I've been on it. I don't agree with about 80% of the users there, but I still keep going back.