Monday, February 16, 2026

I never ordered the mattress or anything. I think it was something akin to rebound inflamation. I actually felt nearly fine on Sunday and I'm 100% today. Or maybe I just moved weird in my sleep.

Who knows?

I'm at 260.8lb today. Are you excited? I'm excited. We're getting down there. I think I already mentioned I stopped using MyFitnessPal in favor of Cronometer. I didn't put my starting weight at 360 on there, I put it as 262.4 as that's what it was when I started using it again. It feels like 360lb me didn't happen. That I'm starting here. It feels better in a way. I don't know how to explain it.

I bought lots of yummy foods for my office today. More oranges, grapes, cantaloupe, little tomatoes, raspberries, 2 Tasty Bites masalas, a package of rice cups, two packages of dumplings with sauce, and a package of ramen-style noodles. That's my office food for the week. Oh! And I also picked up a packet of dates that are packaged in individual serving sizes as well.

Trying to be a healthier me! I mean, a lot of that is processed but...*shrug*

Also, when it comes to tirzepatide, my level is estimated to be at 1.77mg. I'm almost free. But also, I think because I am eating so much more—which I can do because of plant based diets being higher volume—I'm not hungry like I was before. Or maybe my perspective on hunger has changed? Like my stomach has been trained to know what full is. I wonder if that's a thing?

Saturday, February 14, 2026

I had the most delicious vegan grinder last night. I will be having it again, probably next week. I ate the entire thing. I even hyped it up on HappyCow. Haha.

I'm at 260.8lb today. I am having a lot of back pain, probably because Tirzepatide reduces inflammation. I'm looking at mattresses today. I've hated my "ultra plush" mattress for ages and just keep putting it off because mattresses are not cheap but I need and deserve this. I shouldn't force myself to sleep on an uncomfortable mattress for 7-8 hours a night and feel uncomfortable the next day just because of a bit of money.

Friday, February 13, 2026

Today is definitely the 13th. My weight is down .4lb after the past two days being the same so that's cool. Silver linings and such. I'll take anything at this point.

Oh! My tirzepatide level is estimated to be at 2.38mg Lowest it's been since the beginning. I'm hungry, but not famished like I have been previously. I truly believe it's because I am eating the plant based diet. The fiber and higher volume foods make all the difference. Plus I feel good.

I'm also working on separating myself from my job. I am doing my job and it's not a moral failure if something goes sideways. I can only do what I can do.

Thursday, February 12, 2026

I've decided to make another big change. My goal is still 180lb but I'm switching to the goal of losing 1lb per week instead of 2lb. I want to focus more on nutrition and showing my body that it's safe to lose weight—I'm not living through some horrible famine. Does it make a difference in the long run? Maybe. But even if it doesn't, I'm making a big change with quitting tirzepatide and I want to keep myself in check and make sure that I'm getting enough protein especially with being on my WFPB diet.

The way I see it, I am going to use my current caloric goal of 1830 as the limit and not really a goal. This way if I eat that amount, that's okay. If I stay below it, that's okay too. I want to do this in a healthy way. I'm hoping this might help with the situation with my loose skin as well. Haha.

I want to take care of me. I deserve good things and good nutrition. I deserve to be active and healthy. This whole thing isn't a punishment, this is love.

Tuesday, February 10, 2026

My skin doesn't look quite as "congested"—it's softer (could be the lotion!) and more clear. I feel good overall as well. I feel more rested. I think I'm sleeping better. I haven't had any bathroom issues.

I feel like things are looking up.

My tirzepatide levels are estimated to be at 3.13mg today. Basically nothing. It won't be completely out of my system until March 5th. That's J's birthday, actually. I need to start looking into gifts!

I stopped by the grocery store again this morning. I got a dragonfruit, some tomatoes, some rice, seaweed, and a microwavable pouch of chana masala. I wanted something with some decent protein for today's lunch.

I cut up the whole dragon fruit and about a third of it is left sitting here looking at me. I know I don't actually care much for it, but I wanted to see if my tastes have changed. They have not. It's bland to me. It seems hydrating though!

Monday, February 9, 2026

I made the decision last night that I'll be stopping Tirzepatide. My levels today are at about 3.43mg. Am I hungry currently? Yes, but that's becuase my niece wanted Starbucks for breakfast. I had an everything bagel with avocado spread. Not the most filling at all. I'll have a snack shortly.

I've also shifted from MyFitnessPal to Cronometer. I like having more nutritional information, not just weight loss information—especially after making the switch to a plant based diet.

I stopped at the store this morning after dropping my niece off and got some yummy things for the office. I got oranges, raspberries, grapes, cantaloupe, pickles (1 packet), and some plant based Korean BBQ dumplings for today's lunch.

I am proud of me and looking forward to the health changes that come with a healthier more whole foods based diet. I'm also going to put the money from my Tirzepatide (~$200/mo) towards a treadmill. I'm going to try to order it today.

Friday, February 6, 2026

I couldn't get home last night, the driveway was too icy. I stayed at a hotel. Slept great. It was a bit bright but I made it work.

Thurday, February 5, 2026

I stopped at Panera this morning on my way to work. I got the steel cut oats with pecans, strawberries, and cinnamon sugar, an unsweetened tea, and a fruit cup. I sat in the parking lot and stared at the office, contemplating the icy mess I needed to cross while listening to Tchaikovsky's 1812 Overture. It felt like adulthood but somewhat cinematic as well.

I need to order some Tirzepatide. I was supposed to take a dose last night but I fell asleep early instead. I'll take it tonight when I get home. I'm going to up my dose to 12.5mg and stick to it this time. I think between my being lax with dosing and not uping my dose, I'm a bit stuck.

Weight is 262.2lb. It's fine. It's progress even if the number hasn't moved significantly in ages. And, I feel like my body is probably still changing even if I don't see a number change on the scale. At the very least, I feel better about myself and how I look. Not as ashamed as I was before.

Wednesday, February 4, 2026

Made "Marry Me Chickpeas" with extra tomato paste and using cannelini beans last night. Dad ate it as well, saying it was good even, and he is the type that feels a meal is incomplete without the meat. I'll get to him eventually. Ha.

I'm having the leftovers for dinner with some sliced Italian bread that I'll toast in a skillet with the excess oil from the sundried tomatoes.

I printed out some recipes at work today. I want to start cooking more from scratch. I've already noticed my skin is changing and it's just been days not weeks. How incredible it is that we live in these extraordinary machines. I wanted to make this nice dump and bake sweet potato and rosemary casserole recipe but I've not really got it in me today.

Tuesday, February 3, 2026

When I stepped on the scale this morning I watched the numbers fluctuate: 259.8 to 260.0 to 259.8 to 260.0 and it stayed. 260! Nice. That's 100lbs down exactly.

I stepped off and let it clear / turn off. Then I stopped back on. I always weigh twice, that's the rule. The number that shows up twice in a row is the winner.

Then 261.4

Bullshit. Stepped off and stepped back on. 261.4.

It's annoying since I'm on the cusp of a major milestone. But hey, at least the number is going down!

-later-

Y'all, I found a white hair. An actual, real life, 100% gen-u-ine white hair. I mean, to be fair I always thought it'd be so cool to have white hair. Well, here I am and I cried at my desk when I found it. And plucked it. Then I had a mini breakdown because this means I'm legit old. I'm 36 for the record. Like, I'm old but not that old c'mon.

My girl ChatGPT and I had a chat and it's not unusual to have a white hair here or there, especially when going through a weight loss journey. And, you know what? I should be glad. Not everyone gets to have a white hair. AND it's not the same texture as a white hair that I'd be worried about, sometimes they can be quite wiry and I have very fine hair so that'd be an issue.

Okay. It's not too bad. I am okay. Shocked. But okay.

And, it came in right in this spot on the hair line that can give you one of those really cool white hair forelocks. I might be lucky!

To top it all off as well, I am spotting today. What a combination.

Monday, February 2, 2026

I've been feeling down, not emotionally, but physically. I don't know what it is but my stomach has been killing me for the past week or so. I was thinking it's my tirzepatide but tt's never really bothered me like this. It seems like I have had my side effects shift from being constipation—which I was fine with!—to diarrhea that is just incredibly annoying. However, I'm not 100% as I've been around my dad a ton since I was snowed in for over a week. He has had stomach issues and isn't on Tirzepatide.

Probably just a virus since it hasn't actually bothered me yesterday or today at all.

~overthinking~

I had my lowest weight yet yesterday: 260.4lb. That's 99.6lb lost. Mind you, I was back up a smidge today but my weight is trending downward regardless. And, well, I'm okay with this. I know it's going to go, even if it goes slowly.

I've also gone back to a plant based diet. Today is my first full day back on it. When I was on it before I felt marvelous and looked great. Weight also just fell off like crazy. Not the reason though! I really did just feel that much better.

I'm looking forward to seeing how my body does. I'll be going full-on, with the exception of honey. I feel like honey is okay, I guess where I grew up on a farm literally called Bee Hive Farms. Don't get me wrong, I know that saying they can "consent" is anthropomorphizing them but if we take too much or treat them in a bad way the hive fails or they pick up and they leave. Sayonara.

Update: Just read back. How quickly I forget being sick! I just said I had a stomach bug like two weeks ago. I'm probably just not 100% over it. I'll be taking probiotics when I get home. Silly me.

Tuesday, January 20, 2026

Took my shot last night. I have been stringing it along for the last few injections but last night I was hungry. I was like, "No, I'm definitely taking it tonight so it'll be working by the time I get up in the morning." And it has!

I'm sitting here at my desk, it's 1:08pm. I'm trying to eat my veggie tray and it's been fine but I'm really full. I wouldn't be normally but since I took my medicine on time for once I can tell a difference. I'll have some jerky later for some protein. Then some grapes just for a sweet treat.

I actually love eating this way. I can snack all day and it's not a problem. I mean, as long as my weight actually goes down. I'm at 264.8lb today though so...

Monday, January 19, 2026

Is my weight up today? You know it. 264lb. However, I'm still feeling myself today for some reason. Wearing a cute sweater with a little crop underneath that has a mock turtleneck with a bit of frill. I just feel pretty today.

I need more of these sweaters. And some more leggings to match. Gotta' love Old Navy for basics.

Sunday, January 18, 2026

I was at 262.4lb today. I'm purely writing this to document it. I had a lot to eat today at dinner so I would bet money that my weight is up tomorrow.

We had Logan's for dinner. I had a kid's steak tips and mashed potatoes with brown gravy, one roll, and then a blueberry apple cobbler with a scoop of vanilla ice cream on top. I didn't partake in the caramel sauce.

It was delicious. I'll be back to normal tomorrow. It was a treat. Just a reminder to myself that food is safe. As easy as it'd be to say something is good or bad, I'm not doing that. I had a day where I went over. It happens.

I aim for 1750 calories each day. Today it says I had 2263. It's only 513 over. It sounds like a lot but in the grand scheme of things, it's really not.

It's just one day. It's one large meal. It will pass.

Then, looking back at my entries, I am not doing well when it comes to my 2026 goals. I mean, I'm eating lots of fruits and vegetables but that's about it. I'm cool with that too. Fast food is whatever as long as it fits into my day and I make good choices. And the gym? I'm going to have to get a treadmill or something. I don't know how to realistically fit it into my day anymore.

Just had a look at Shotsy before I head to bed:

I am 97.6lb down as of today. My current BMI is 38.7! Peep that Weight Loss Tracker and see my starting BMI was actually 53.2. That means I've lost 27% of my total weight and am 54% of the way to my goal of 180lb. This makes my weekly average for weight loss -2.1lb/wk. Yeah!

Friday, January 16, 2026

I have a stomach bug. I woke up twice last night with stomach cramping and having to rush to the toilet. Not sure why. Not loving it.

Stopped at Walgreen's this morning to get some Kaopectate and some probiotics. I am not sure what's going on with my stomach but I don't like it at all. Well, minus the fact I am now at my lowest weight yet: 263.4lb!

Maybe I just needed a good stomach bug. Haha. Just kidding, I hate it. I'm sitting at my desk eating dry Cheerios. It's not a good day but it's not bad either. I've mostly solved everything.

I'm trying to figure out where my sickness might have come from and I don't have anything that immediately comes to mind. You know how sometimes if you think back on the foods you've eaten and you kinda' find that one that turns your stomach a bit? I usually tend to think that's the thing that caused the stomach bug as your body is intelligent and it definitely doesn't want anymore of that right now.

I'm looking at getting a walking pad or small treadmill to have instead of having to leave the house and go to the gym. I figure this way I'll be more likely to actually do it. I love walking too.

Thursday, January 15, 2026

We lost a client today but we were told our contract is going to be reinstated without a gap in coverage.

I hope they come back. I really like them.

Update: They were back by 2pm.

Wednesday, January 14, 2026

I'm not sure who I pissed off but, y'all, I'm sorry. I need things to get back on track. I have work where our contract with an insurance company was erroneously deleted and that has put all of our authorizations in jeopardy. Then I got a debt consolidation loan that was deposited into a wrong account. So, let me tell ya', I'm having a time.

Haha. It'll work out but boy is it annoying.

Saturday, January 10, 2026

I am done seeking validation from a place that cannot give it. I will no longer invest my energy where it costs me my peace.

Wednesday, January 7, 2026

Know what I got on Friday? The flu. Still trying my best with the five a day. It's amusing how I did on January 1st vs the day I got sick. I even called in to work on Monday which is very unlike me.

Hopefully I'll be 100% soon. I've had a great time with eating the veggies and fruits though.

Oh, I also forgot my niece yesterday. She sent me a text message at 3:01pm. I was talking with C in the office and just gasped. I rushed out and got to the neighboring town and picked her up in 19 minutes. She is still very sad with me. Haha. I definitely felt bad.

Friday, January 2, 2026

I've been moving away from taking my tirzepatide as often. I don't know. Previously I was gnawing at the bit to take my shot. Now, I don't really care one way or another. I'm tired of the itchy injection site reaction. It seems to be making a differene even if I wait a longer time.

If I switch over to good whole foods and eat well, can I do it without the medicine? I feel like I could. I did it before (I've said it a dozen times) but I know my body can lose weight and I know if I am getting lots of good whole foods it lets go easily.

I don't know. I think I'm going to have to weigh my options.

Thursday, January 1, 2026

Happy New Year! I have started fresh for 2026. I'll continue posting in reverse with the newest entry at the top for ease of use.

Goals for this year:

• Eat 5 a day every day.
• Do not eat fast food. It is not food. Can eat out once every week or two at a restaurant.
• Go to the gym once per week.

I'm starting this year at 267.4lb. This time last year I was about 360lb. Nearly 100lb down. I bet between making good food choices and making a smidge of an effort with my physical activity I will be near my goal weight by the end of the year. But, even if I'm not, I'm still so excited!

Last year's diary can be found here!