Thursday, July 23 2026 ——————————————————————

I'm just not measuring food. I'm being reasonable. Stopping when I'm full, not doing anything too crazy—except my excessive consumption of Werther's candies. The tirzepatide is starting to do it's job.

I'm feeling good. I do have this weird welt on my left thigh. No clue what it's from. It's itchy but doesn't hurt. I'm going to be keeping an eye on it.

I also have been keeping track of my budget. I'll update it for this week's budget later. I'm below budget!

Tuesday, July 21 2026 ——————————————————————

I haven't been logging like I should. Or at all really. Not since Friday. I still weigh every day and I try to make good decisions. I don't know if I'm burnt out or just lazy since I am cooking everything and don't want to deal with measuring and conversions, etc.. Haha

It'll be fine. My weight is stable. I just need to stop eating so many Werther's!

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I also decided to go more analog. I'm working on removing myself from being stuck on the phone so much.

Oh! And I finally figured out how to work my camera months after getting it. I've enjoyed taking lots and lots of photos. I guess my favorites are ones where I am just taking pictures of everyday life. Nothing special, but just things that catch my eye.

Tuesday, July 14 2026 ——————————————————————

I have been trying to cook more at home. It's making it increasingly difficult to count calories. I'm hoping as my tirzepatide level raises I'll find it easier to control what I'm actually eating.

It makes me feel nearly hopeless when I can't just focus on me and I have to take care of someone else. And the kicker is they're not even foods I like I just make what I know dad likes and then he complains if I make the food I like.

I have no idea what I should do other than cook two meals but I really, really don't want to do that.

Monday, July 13 2026 ——————————————————————

I don't know what it was about today. I woke up at 5:30am and had to pee so I just thought while I was in there, I'd go ahead and have a shower. Then I decided I had plenty of time until I had to be at work at 10am. I went ahead and made myself a turkey and cheese wrap for lunch with some crisps, prepped a full package of sausage and got it put away for my dad for him to have during the week, and then found a recipe to reuse the meatloaf I made yesterday to turn it into vegetable soup.

I swept and did dishes. I guess it's just a good day?

I spoke to J for a bit. It's his sister's 38th birthday today. She's just under a year older than me. He told me they talked about me while I was there, since I basically only wear dresses now and that it's cooler. She likes dresses but she doesn't like sleeveless ones. I said me either, I just wear a cardigan, a thin cover, or a jacket. He said he told her that too.

It'd be fun if she started wearing dresses more too!

After I finished making the sausage I had two pieces myself. That seemed like enough. I don't know. Maybe it's where I upped my tirzepatide yesterday. I'm at 5mg now.

I decided I thought that was a good idea as instead of an fourth 2.5mg week, I'd do a 7.5mg week when I get to the end of the vial. This will be only three 5mg weeks, but I'm not new to tirzepatide.

Saturday, July 11 2026 ——————————————————————

I weighed myself the first time and it said 247lb and I about died. Then I stepped on again to 245.8lb. Cue my excitement! They were different though so I had to step on and get my true weight. But now that I had two unexpected numbers I picked up the scale and put it back down after dusting the feet off. Not sure why I do that. Old habit.

It was 252.4lb. Twice.

Well, I really didn’t expect anything else but boy did my hopes get high after that first and second round.

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Took my niece out and way overspent. I used my card for it so I'm counting it differntly than a regular day this time. I spent $224.40. This included $120.78 on some school clothes for her. We did have a wonderful time though. I'll be buying more school clothes in a week or two. I will have budgeted normally for that though!

Friday, July 10 2026 ——————————————————————

This afternoon, I called a client to give him his schedule for next week. I don’t know how we got into the subject, but he was telling me about places he used to live. He mentioned the road that my great grandparents used to live on.

He’s in his 80s so I asked him if he knew them. He did. He was shocked to hear they were my great grandparents. And then I asked him if he knew my grandfather and he did. They used to be good friends.

He told me stories I’ve never heard. He talked about one night back in the 70s when they had stayed up late playing cards. It was after midnight and my grandmother decided to make zucchini bread. He said the kids filed out after that to enjoy midnight zucchini bread.

My mother is one of six.

Anyway, the way he described it. It was like for that one moment I knew her. She died when my mother was 13. I never knew her and I’ve only seen a handful of photos. I never knew much about her. No one ever said anything.

So I cried quietly while he was telling me. That’s the second person who told me about my grandmother at work.

It’s so strange but comforting to know something about the woman I was named after.

Monday, July 6 2026 ——————————————————————

I didn't do well over the weekend. I overate on Saturday and Sunday. Not even like a little over, which I don't worry about. I'm talking like 190% of my daily total of calories.

I have found that pizza is a big issue for me. I had been doing fine but then I had pizza and then I couldn't stop. It wasn't like all at one time. It was spread out. Two slices and a few hours later two more slices and a few hours later...

You get the picture.

It isn't great but it will be fine. I just have to get back to normal this week. I also think I'll do like I did previously with tirzepatide and titrate up on week 4 instead of week 5. I did take my shot 1 day early. It's just easier on Sundays.

Next week I'll be at 5mg. Crazy. It'll be good though. I need it and I want it. It's a very, very useful tool for me.

Oh, I also went over on my spending last week. I blame the last minute sending of the package but either way. I'm cutting it really close this week already but I'm set in the office just with things I bought last week and didn't eat yet. It'll be good.

Everything works out.

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Also, there is apparently a limit to the length of a list. I found that out the hard way and the beginning of 2026 was cut off. Yikes. I'm glad I noticed before I wasn't able to go back and save it.

Anyway, here is my new diary!