- last month recap || grief ▸ roses
- i need to be strong and write on here what happened bc i need to free myself from these thoughts... my grandpa died on the day of my birthday.
- it was all weird and it still feels like a really vivid nightmare but it happened, it's real. The only thing that calmed me down was the fact that i saw him in the hospital days before it happened and even though he only told me three words it's okay, i'll remember them forever.
- when the people i love the most are suffering and crying i do this weird thing where i become impassible and try to be there for them every moment so, even if i was suffering just like everyone else, i cried just a little bit (in public) and spent time hugging them instead. One of things that made me cry the most (in the comfort of my own room) though was the fact that my grandma, even if her soulmate just died, kept on saying to everyone how it was my birthday and how she wanted everyone to get me a cake or she'll be very angry...when i saw the cake i just ate it and went to bed; The next day i was alone and i cried for hours bc it was so thoughtful of her to say/do this in a moment like that...
- this moment finally brought all of us together, old feuds were totally forgotten and i'm super happy about it.
- 30/31 october || going out ▸ cousins ▸ going on
- this whole year has been about me going out of my comfort zone and now that we're nearing the end of the year i can say that i'm truly happy with myself; People without anxiety can't understand how hard it was for me to go out with new people or do something super easy for everyone such as going to a restaurant but i did it and i'm proud of myself.
- i spent these two days with my cousins after so much time and i had a lot of fun, i think it's a good thing that we're spending so much time together bc we can help each other go on.
- 01/02 november || day6 ▸ christmas ▸ singing ▸ bujo
- thinking about christmas to make myself happier.
- 03/04 november || dinner ▸ fun ▸ out ▸ alive
- if there's one thing that i hate is saying that i was wrong but y'all...i was wrong, going out really does make you forget about everything.
- i went out with my cousins and we ate dinner in a pub, we stayed out until 00:30 but i had tons of fun and ate really well!
- 05 november || sunday ▸ cat ▸ calm
- 06 november || rainy ▸ cousin ▸ out ▸ coffee
- 07/08 november || lazy ▸ rainy ▸ thunders ▸ wonder woman
- 09 november || church ▸ art exhibition ▸ lovelovelove
- i went to an art exhibition with my aunt; It was held in an old church from 1230 that was full of frescos and where every room was built with different architectural types(you should have seen those baroque altars, i was left speechless by their beauty). Inside there were painting from a famous contemporary painter of my city called Edoardo de Candia ; Most of his paintings were peculiar but weirdly fascinating, he painted everything from the sea, to cats, to his most favourite thing: erotic paintings...yes, it was weird looking at them with my aunt beside me but they were cool. It was amazing to see his works especially because my whole family knew him when he was still alive, he even wanted to paint my grandma when she was young but she would have had to be naked and she didn't want to(which is a shame since we could have had one of his paintings but yeah, how weird would have been to have my naked grandma on the wall??lmao)
- 10/15 november || rain ▸ rain ▸ rain ▸ moody ▸ family
- 16/18 november || still ▸ raining ▸ ugh
- 19 november || museum ▸ trains ▸ rain ▸ sick ▸ newphone
- me and my aunt went to a railway museum that contained more than fifteen trains(from 1904 to 1990) where you could go in and meet some actors acting like it was 1920. It was super interesting and fun and you know what? I really want to go back asap!!
- In the evening i was supposed to go to another museum but it was raining and i still didn't have lunch so i stayed home and, later on, i went out with my uncle to buy a new phone(Samsung J5!), i'm super happy!
- it was one of the most fun sundays i've ever had but at the same time i felt sick the whole time; that wasn't fun at all lmao
- 20 november || xmas ▸ songs ▸ cousin ▸ home
- isn't it okay to start listening to christmas' songs one month prior? Please tell me i'm not crazy
- 21 november || cousins ▸ out ▸ shopping mall
- 22/27 november || 8000 ▸ christmassy ▸ calm
- went out with my cousin and walked A LOT
- even though it is still november i already feel super christmassy, i can't wait for the 8th of december!!!
- 28/30 november || home alone ▸ cousins ▸ xmas ▸ church ▸ colder
nov 2 2017 ∞
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