- 01 || mom's bday ▸ 50 ▸ party ▸ flowers ▸ happiness
- My mom's now 50 which is a very big deal here, you'd usually party hard but we're not that kind of people so
- 11 || aunt ▸ charity event ▸ emotions ▸ hope ▸ fun
- This has been such an amazing and emotional day. There's a person that i've never talked about on here and i really want to do it now bc you need a bit of details to understand where i went today. Since i was a child, my neighbor's daughters have always been like aunts for me and i never felt the different between them and my real ones. They've always doted on me, they've been around for every birthday, they worried for me when i wasn't well etc. In 2017, on the day of my birthday my grandpa died and later that day we received a call from the younger one of my 'aunts' and she told us that she had breast cancer and things weren't looking up at all. That day was the worst day of my life: it was my birthday but my grandpa died and one of my aunts had incurable cancer(or so we all thought). Later on she started chemo and it wasn't easy, seeing her life change suddenly, losing all of her hair, gaining weight, always feeling tired and in pain. Her life has been hell for two whole years but after several surgeries she did it she fought cancer and won.
- Now onto today's events! She invited my family to a charity event where her and all of her friends that fought cancer together would perform and do the catwalk with dresses from famous tailors that worked in movies or for very important brands. The night started heavily with an emotional video for all the women that didn't make it and then we moved onto the performances and guests.
- My aunt sung two songs from her favorite singer and everyone stood up for her! The song called 'Meravigliosa' was very pertinent and when she sung the lyric "i love life" we all had tears in our eyes and we screamed as loud as we could for her. Later on she walked the catwalk with a beautiful red dress!
- The night has been amazing, eye opening, inspiring and hopeful. Every woman and child that performed did it with a smile on their face. Even though some of them were still fighting for their lives they didn't let that ruin this beautiful event.
- I genuinely wish that everyone can win their battle just like my aunt did.
- 12/19 || house ▸ mental breakdown ▸ memories ▸ mom ▸ love
- We've got a big scare this month(march)and i truly thought that i needed to move. I hate my house, i hate my neighbours, i hate everything about where i live so at first i was kind of thankful that i had to leave? But then at night, while i was thinking i started crying uncontrollably while looking at the wall where i carved bands names when i was younger; Then my mind started wondering and, just like in the movies, i started looking at my room and it was like i could see all of my memories happening in front of my eyes: every birthday party, all the evenings with my cousins, all the nights i couldn't sleep. These walls have seen me have panic attacks, cry myself to sleep but also laugh from true happiness and dance and sing to songs i love. I was so sad that my mom woke up and came to see me and for the first time in years i slept in her big bed.
- My mom's such an amazing woman, she struggles with a ton of stuff too but when she sees me like that she'd do anything to help me and calm me down. She talked with me until 4AM, she tried to make me laugh and then caressed me until i fell asleep...just like when i was a baby. I feel like shit for making her worry but at the same time i can't keep those feelings inside and talking with her cleared my mind up.
- we don't have any news so we're probably going to stay here??? idk, we'll see.
- 27 || going out ▸ grandma ▸ period ▸ fml ▸ polly
- so, i was as supposed to get my period on the 19th but i didn't so days went by and yesterday i forgot to put a pad on for good measure...well i stayed out all day and i had to eat at my grandma's house but when i arrived there i found out that i got my period. I love being a woman.
- 28 || phone ▸ J6+ ▸ 0money ▸ ID ▸ period cramps
- i'm waiting for my new phone to arrive....yes you've heard right. I did this very stupid thing and spent all of money on it when i actually had more important stuff to pay for...god i hate myself so much.
- why the heck do i have to pay 23 euros for my ID!!!
- there was a 3D Van Gogh exhibition that costs a ton and now i can't go...amazing, well done me.
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