- january
- been feeling weird for quite some time now, i hope it's nothing serious as it's impossible to go to doctors bc of this damned virus
- this month has been so boring, i've been feeling more depressed and anxious than ever. it's impossible to go out since it's literally freezing cold...god, i need fresh air.
- february/march
- still feeling weird but i'm too scared to go to the doctors...what should i do, i'm terrified
- i've been lifeless for three months, god, depression+this virus is one hell of a combo, i swear
- ???????
- since i've started a bullet journal it's been nearly impossible for me to remember to write on here and i'm so sad about it bc i love going back to read what i was doing each year.
- i noticed that i don't get scared of going out any more??? and i don't know why?? i have severe social anxiety(between all the things that i have lmao) but since c*vid happened and it was mandatory to stay home it made me feel like i was in a cage??? you know how it is, if you have to stay home because somebody tells you so it's quite different from deciding on it on your own(or in my case my depression decides for me every time) and I've been wanting to go out every single day, even if i feel like i'm not in good shape i still force myself and i end up having a great time every single time???
- everyone else has been feeling the exact opposite of me and i wonder if there's something wrong with me?? lmao but if it 'cured' me i won't complain at all tbh, i've been stuck in this situation for ten years so if i have to thank c*vid for something it'll be JUST for that.
- july
- both my aunt and my grandma have celebrated their birthdays by now
- i've got my first dose of pfizer!
- my entire family is fully vaccinated!!
- i finally merged my lastfm accounts and it's super weird seeing my real music taste: taylor swift > twice > paramore > chungha > day6 > tancredi > jbalvin and nothing but thieves all together...i'm so sorry that my 300 followers have to witness that but that's who i really am lmao
- got spotify premium until september! it's amazing how nice it is to not hear ads and i've been listening to so much more music too!
- i've been consistent with my skin care routine and i'm so happy, nothing's changed since i'm literally allergic to the sun and it's summer but it's still an improvement
- fuck depression btw
- 17/18 > it's been raining a lot
- some things i bought lately: liliac phone cover | blackpink tshirt | tiny fan | beads | hair oils | aloe perfume and skin care set
- august
- things can never go right, can they? in two weeks both of my parents' cars had to be repaired, wtf
- 17 > got my second dose of vaccine and feel great!! No fever, no pain, nothing! this new hub was extremely unorganized, though.
- it's august 31st and nothing really happened until now
- got quite a few shirts that were on sale!!
- got obsessed with liliac, somebody needs to stop me tbh
dec 28 2020 ∞
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