-well, who would have ever thought that i'd have updates, uh? let's goooooo

• Home We've got somewhat of a confirmation that they'll take our offer seriously, and I thought I'd be happy about it but, can you believe that I'm not(for the most part)? The prospect of moving has been taking a huge toll on my mom's mental health, she hasn't been sleeping well thinking about everything that we'd have to do and all the money we'd have to spend for it and now I feel sorry. I've been daydreaming about interior designing the whole thing, yet she's been nothing but anxious for months now...hopefully this will be resolved easily with the help of our family, and we'll finally be turning our lives for the better.
  • I kid you not, changing house would get off so much stress from our backs, you don't realize how bad neighbours can ruin your life until it's too late, believe me.
• On Happiness and Loneliness I wish I was right when I said that being alone was no big deal, turns out I'm wrong lmao
  • Since my birthday I've been in contact with my cousins again and, as I wrote many times on here, they were like sisters to me...they are sisters to me. It's so weird noticing how happy I've been since talking to them has become part of my daily routine again, wow.
  • So...I've turned 27 in October and I can't help thinking about what a shitty life I've had and what a shitty life I'll have...am I having a quarter life crisis? Everyone's hitting milestones, and I'm here...still my silly, childish self, still single, still with no direction in life.
    • btw my party was unicorn themed...yes, you've read that right lmao mom made the coolest cake in existence, I wish I could add the photo without ruining everything.
  • Umh, my cousin just turned 30??? Where has time gone? It feels like yesterday when we played with our dolls and fangirled on bands, now she's an adult with a cool life, a partner, a good job and a house...the concept of time is so wild to me.
• Job???? So...I've also met my cousin(their brother) and..he offered me a job?? I don't want to get my hopes up 'cause I don't know if it's gonna happen 100% but damn, is life finally smiling to me again?
  • How do you get off your chest that feeling of not being enough? I'm so scared to suck at this job, I've never done anything remotely similar in my life...should I prepare in advance? I think so...right? Damn, I better brush up my microsoft excel skills lmao
• Fun Miss Taylor Swift came back and ruined my life once again, I haven't been listening to anything but Midnights since it came out. I'm in love, so here's my faves in no particular order:
  • Lavender Haze || 10/10 vibes for days
  • Karma || my least favourite upon first listen but damn do I love it now
  • Maroon || dreamy vibes, I adore it and its lyrics
  • You're On Your Own, Kid || crying my eyes out
  • Anti-Hero || I mean...look at my bio
  • Question...? || not gonna lie it fuels my daydreams and I love it so much
  • Vigilante Shit || HELLO??!??!??
  • Bejeweled || yes, yes and YES.
  • Sweet Nothing || The sweetest song I've ever heard, help
  • Pokémon yes, I'm still obsessed. I pre-ordered Violet and, on the day I'm writing this, it's going to come out in nine days! I can't wait to play day and night lmao
• Random I know that no one reads me(and thank god for that), but have you noticed how the list image changed throughout the year? From someone hiding their face to someone literally blooming. That's how I've been feeling lately, hopefully it stays like that up until next year.
  • We're getting closer to Christmastime and I can't contain my happiness!! But god, do I not know what to gift people this year lmao
  • I wanted to read so many book during Halloween, but I could not, I'm in that weird mood again, dammit.