- 01/04: uncle's bday ▸ weird ▸ marriage ▸ rainy ▸ doom
- my uncle celebrated his bday with all of us and his new mother-in-law, it was the first time I met her and both me and my mum had a terrible feeling. You know when you feel like someone's fake and is hiding his true nature? That's how we felt about her.
- she kept asking questions on things she shouldn't talk about; Like when she asked several times why my dad wasn't there and why he couldn't free himself (he had dialysis, and she knew it but faked not knowing about it) or when she asked my grandpa why he wouldn't drink wine when he already told her he has health issues.
- worst of all was the fact that she's literally deciding every single thing about the wedding like location, restaurant, church, and even the restaurant menu and songs that should be played??? She didn't even ask if we had allergies and was deciding on a full fish menu, is she for real?!
- I have such a bad feeling about all of this, my uncle's got himself in such a big mess, but i don't feel sorry for him at all.
- 04/12: sad ▸ heartbroken ▸ betrayal ▸ lessons ▸ time
- i needed some time to think about what happened and so it took me a bit to come write it on here, but this is it: I attended the new course I had to take, and the first few hours were super boring, we changed professor twice, and then things took an awful turn and my mind just wondered for the remaining hours.
- Basically, I live with my parents (don't judge me, housing is too pricey) and my dad's ill and gets some state aids(i guess that's how they're called); When I went to the cooperative and the employment centre to sign up for these lessons, they asked me about it and I told them everything. Now this is where things got ruined: i was supposed to get paid for the time spent studying there but at the end of august it was announced that people who either benefitted or lived with someone who benefits from these aids cannot get the remuneration
- now you might ask yourself where's the problem, well, they knew about this and didn't tell me about it! They knew I was going to start studying again, but they got me with talks of such high pay and I need money to go back to school. I gave those people two years of my life, I trusted them and they decided to toy around with me just to get money.
- yes, they get paid for each person that signs up for their lessons, and they literally get double/triple what we'd get!
- after they told us this I blanked out completely, but then I noticed something else: the lessons I was supposed to take were about 3D printing…we're doing something completely different, and we have to take an exam too! And you know what exam it is? The same one I already took back in January! They're telling me that this one's different, but the books are the same, I'm not stupid.
- Also, they forgot about the Cambridge exam, the only thing I truly cared about and that they promised me.
- This is probably the first time that this has ever happened to me, trusting someone so much and being betrayed is another type of pain. I literally felt like it wasn't my life, I was in disbelief at their greediness. I cried for twenty whole minutes in my car, I didn't ever care about the stares I was getting…
- I feel incredibly stupid.
- 12/27: bday ▸ cake ▸ weird ▸ shopping ▸ apathy
- my birthday came and passed and it was so weird bc i felt like I had nothing to celebrate...bdays are becoming more and more difficult as the time goes by.
- my parents gifted me a gorgeous cake and a ring!
- I stopped going to the course, there's no reason for me to go there anymore...the feeling of sadness and betrayal is still there and i just can't shake it off.
- 28/31: fun ▸ mc ▸ embarassment ▸ halloween ▸ food
- mom, aunt, my cousin, my uncle's gf and I went out to have fun and have dinner.
- the night would've been perfect if my uncle's gf wouldn't have been there with us, saying that i was embarassed is not enough. You can totally see that there's something off about her and my cousin noticed it too. I hate this situation so much, god.
- we ate at mcdonalds because they had halloween squishmallows toys...lmao
- threw an halloween party for the family, we ate a lot and got our makeup done! I was a glam witch and the others were skeletons.
- even dad wanted his makeup done lmao
- we made treat bags that we gifted everyone upon arrival, the house was all decorated and it was so beautiful to see all lit up! Can't wait for Christmas lmao
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