- 01/04: CVs ▸ phone ▸ outfit ▸ wedding ▸ reading
- sending cvs like there's no tomorrow
- finally changed my phone! The previous one barely lasted me three years before breaking, that's insane, I hate modern technology
- got myself a pastel pink phone
- It took me just 29 years to accept the fact that i love pink and that it doesn't matter if that's what people expect of me because ✨i'm a woman✨
- finally got my outfit for this darned wedding, I just need to get myself some shoes but it's so hard considering the fact that my feet are gigantic 💀
- 05/14: pizza ▸ cousin ▸ pokémon ▸ luck ▸ church
- pizza night with my family (and her )
- went out with my cousin and it's so weird how we can have fun grocery shopping now, good god, we're getting old, arent we? lmao
- i bought some cheese and entered a contest where you could win pokémon cards and i won?! and then I was joking about lucky numbers, my dad entered the lottery and we won?? again?? what's going on
- little religion parenthesis that i hope no one's going to read: I haven't been to church since I was 18, and I've been strongly against religion since. After that decision, I long searched into my soul for the answers to all my questions about myself and my self-worth; Growing up religious and losing faith is not an easy thing to go through. Constantly feeling like a sinner for not believing any more has been making me go insane throughout the years, even when I tell myself that it doesn't matter, there's always a little voice in my head telling me that i'll go straight to hell for this.
- You might think that this is my parent's fault, but nope: dad's an atheist who cusses god for fun and my mum believes but doesn't go to church either. I'm not one to blame my problems onto others, and I'm actually severely against that psychology notion ngl, so there's literally no explanation to this other than my addled brain.
- My favourite book is literally 'Demian' by Herman Hesse because that book was so important to help me understand my stance on this matter. I still struggle heavily with it, but it truly helped me understand that I don't need religion to be a good person and that, thinking about it, all the evil people I know are actually insanely religious lmao
- All these thought stemmed from me having to go to church yesterday, and now I can't stop thinking about it. I'd write a bit more if this wasn't public, but it is, and so I'll stop here just in case someone stumbles on this lmao
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