☆ passages, to cherish

• crush by richard siken
  • seaside improvisation — you wanted happiness, i can't blame you for that, and maybe a mouth sounds idiotic when it blathers on about joy, but tell me you love this, tell me you're not miserable.
  • litany in which certain things are crossed out — down the alley, around the arcade, up the stairs of the building to the little room with the broken faucets, your drawings, all your things, i looked out the window and said this doesn't look that much different from home.
  • i had a dream about you — these are the dreams we should be having. i shouldn't have to clean them up like this.
  • you are jeff — don't leave the room until i come back from the dead for you. i'll come back from the dead for you. .... keep talking. i'll keep walking toward the sound of your voice.
  • snow and dirty rain — i’m thinking my plant, his chair, the ashtray that we bought together. i’m thinking this is where we live. when we were little we made houses out of cardboard boxes. we can do anything. it’s not because our hearts are large, they’re not, it’s what we struggle with. the attempt to say come over. bring your friends. it’s a potluck, i’m making pork chops, i’m making those long noodles you love so much. — i made this place for you, a place for you to love me. if this isn't a kingdom then i don't know what is. .... here i am leaving you clues, i am singing now while rome burns.