- just the idea of one of my dreams coming true gives me so much energy and joy throughout the day. i've been eating healthy (most of the time), i've been studying a lot and also working towards my final goals. i hope that God helps me in the road ahead. specially till the end of the year. i'm thinking of how my self esteem and life in general would improve if everything goes well. i'm sure it will. i'm literally so excited. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. and my period's over so i think that my suddden mood change is connected w that and eetc.
- i really hope that everything goes well.
- bout the topic that i was suffering for: it still haunts me. but it's bearable . to be honest, theses entities and voices in my head are getting weaker and quieter. while me and my personality are getting stronger and louder!! and smarter!! and sharper!!!!! and better!! and calmer!!
- i'm truly grateful for today and my mom supports me as well so that's nice. it's good to know that, whatever happens she'll be by my side
- the elections are coming and i want lula to win on the first round. not because i give a damn, but because i'm not interested in working two days with no payment whatsoever. i accept it and i'm grateful for it anyways...... ganbatte ne
- also at the day 2 i'm going to miss an appointment that i didn't want to go in the first place so that's actually great. andddd by the nightime i'm gonna reunite with my friends again and we're going to drink (responsibly). i might invite bia as well. so it's gonna be fun;
- i'm making plans and setting goals everyday. i have a lot to do, and if i don't i'll certainly find something. after my treatment recovery i'm going to look for a job like crazy.
- i've been away from my dad theses days but i dont think he gives a shit so.. who cares right. no one has a perfect life anyways.
- everyday i wake up early now, this has been going on for almost a week. i wake up at 8am max. sometimes at 7am. been feeling great about it.
- tomorrow is a day to study a lot. i don't have much to do. just help my mom in the kitchen and do my hair and stuff. i'll meet with the girls to watch hotd at nigjt. it's gonna be fun, my expectations are very high. hanging out with the girls is very enjoyable now, they're the only ones atm that i can hang out and not be embarassed or feel tested by some bitchy and mean coomment every 5min. it's great for my mental health.
- i have some plans for the next week. it's basically doind everything i'm doing now but better. eat better, drinnk more water, and do lots of walking outside. just going out in general.
- oh, and i dyed my hair black. i mean, not like someone usually dyes but .. just some random hair mask that i bought..
- talking about hair masks i gave one to my mom. speaking of that, if everything goes well with the treatment and i can save some money in the end, i'm going to give my mom a huge present with a part of the money. she will decline, but i want to give it to her. just for being a perfect mom to me and supporting me. she knows what i went and what i go through everyday. did i mention that i'm excited for my treatment? cause i''m so excited for my treatment .
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