- things are hard and i am very sensitive. i just want to go back on track on what i really need to do. i ask God for creativity, disposition and motivation to do all of the hard work. i want to make something that i'll be proud of. i've been shooting for all sides to be honest. i know my time will come. i'm starting this week, i also got new art supplies, my dad bought some new markers for me.
- i feel a very bad energy coming from my dads side of the family. always felt like the black sheep when i go there, nothing new. i felt a hostile ambience. at least i saw my brother. i have to be stronger and take it. at this point i have realized that the world has no space for people like me.
- i feel no motivation studying for the contest. after i saw what the workplace is like.. i just know that selling stuff it's not one of my streghts.
- i keep on wondering if i should really invest my time on flirting back with people. am i ready for a relationship? everything makes me so sick it hurts.
- how long am i going to live like this.
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