- i'm looking for some real excitement. been having a lot of dreams lately. i feel like soon enough, everything's gonna be just fine and stable for me. i hope so. i believe in it.
- overall, my feelings are quite underwhelming. i'm at pms and i feel bloated and ugly, like someone has just drained my energy to the point where i cant even keep my posture straight and my body kinda slants by the lack of energy. i havent been eating like i should. i also feel like i should try harder. i'm getting over from the fact that my father does not care and never will care. as he said, me and my mom are just burdens in his life, so i might as well disappear for as long as i can.
- its so hard to predict the future since everything changes so fast, and we don't even realize it. i feel like my family shifted since my grandma passed away. it's just not the same. the good vibe is gone. but the thing is, i don't know if there was any. maybe the only good thing about it was my grandma afterall. anyways.
- i'm grateful for having my mom and my aunt . i love them so much. i know they truly care about me. and i also know the ones who fake it.
- so tired of the drama. i just don't wanna get involved in any fights anymore. but i'll protect myself and the ones i love if i have to. everything just feels so uncomfortable.
oct 9 2022 ∞
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