- jesus christ. i woke up this morning with some sort of weird feeling. like i slept nothing at all. i felt drained, i think it must've been a nightmare or.. i don't know. but, this morning, my father basically said that he doesn't want to be my father anymore. i can't do anything about it. it's his problem only.
- i feel 101% stressed today. i woke up feeling like this. like i already knew. what i can do is get a job soon. but i don't know whats gonna happen. cause i want to spend money on my treatment. i really don't know what to do; but i'm not that scared. God will show me the way. i'll try to prey as much as i can.. not only that, i need to work as hard as i can too. thinking about it, i actually feel relieved to not need him anymore. he doesn't care about me as much as he cares for my little brother. and, as i said, i can't do anything about it.
- i need some confort and help from God and the universe. it's hard to be patient but i'm calm.
- someone just asked my mom for a favor i don't even know how to react.. people are such hypocrites. all they do is use us.
oct 4 2022 ∞
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