- from october till now, it seems like time is faster somehow. this makes me stressed and overwhelmed. i keep on pushing myself and pressuring me. but it seems like, the more i do this, the less productive i want to be. i have a hard time focusing. when i first started waking up early, i was feeling in peace with myself. sometimes i lose the track.
- my birthday is in 2 days. i was born in november 9th of 2000. i really like my birth date. i'm also excited because i'm alreay recieving many gifts.. who doesn't like that? it's also a time of the year that gives me a mix of emotions. i usually cry a lot on my birthday but, last year was amazing. i had everything i wanted so it was pretty cool. i hope that this year can be even more fulfilling than last year. there's no reason not to.
- we're already at the end of the year. i'm trying to make online courses to finally get my first job. i'm worried everyday... since im getting older. its like i cant have peace if im not productive enough and etc. it's like every hobby of mine is a waaste of time and people see my in a lazy and dumb way. but god knows that im not what they think. or they might not think at all and im making assumptions by thinking im even relevant to this point.
- one of my worries rn is also my appearence and physical health. i still have some headaches still, i think im not sleeping propperly. and im eating a lot of junk food. my hair is a mess...... i need to focus on myself again. honestly, selfimprovement is everything. if you dont take care of yourself: who else will?
- for the next days i wish for guidance, protection and enjoyable times.
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