- first i'm going to talk about a new boy from around. he's cute and i'm interested. i don't think something will happen tho. it's the same thing as always. i never make the first move. also... i don't know his age. or if he's taken. or his name.
- second. my male friends have a hobby in which consists of talking about other girls to me. weather is complaining about them, praising or just randomly saying stuff to catch my reaction. mark talks about the girl he wants to fuck. all the time. and he always makes sure that he mentions they're talking. and that he wants to fuck her. i feel bad for him actually, cause, in this case, i know he wants to make me jealous. but it just comes off as desperate. viktor is talking about leaving his fiancee cause he's starting to have feelings for me. weirdo. adam talks about the girl he thinks is the love of his life.. he lives in a world of fantasies. i can't see what his mind is up to. that being said. some things he says and posts are just weird and disgusting in general.
- my friendships are fine. we're fine. me and my bf are fine. me and claudia are faalling apart. i dont think i want to be her friend anymore to be honest. if its surface level its ok but its hard for me, now that i know what she thinkss of me.
- i can't draw. i tried today but i haven't slept properly in about two days or so. my vision is blurred and my blood pressure is low. yesterday i was feeling very nauseous.
- my health's been better than this. maybe i should exercise and eat better. maybe i'll feel better. but i've been eating compulsively and having strange eating habits ;
- talking about strange habits. i developed a mania of plucking my hair off. i need to stop this.
- the days have been so hot. i'm grateful for the sun but i hate summer so much. i have no energy at all.
- i still have no job and i feel terrible. i'm printing my cv this week.
- my hair is falling out and breaking off. it's also dull and lifeless. at least it grew a little. but it's definetely fried.
- i haven't been studying either. i don't know if i should.
- my mental health is pure agony now.
- my skin is breaking out. i have so many blemishes. it's just ugly. i don't know what i should do anymore.
- i wish for so many things but i cant accomplish anything really.
- i would love to spend some money.
- i think im going out on friday.
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