needed to write someething here.. i miss putting everything in the most detailed form here. i like to read some of my old notes. i have so many contradictory feeling about myself. it's like i feel inferior and superior to everyone all the time. i'm way too good for them, or they're just above me. i'm afraid to talk to them. i hate talking about myself, mostly cause there's not much to talk about anyways. that's crazy..

• yesterday i talked to my mom about how tired i was of some situations. i'm just really tired of deciding and of listening to other people. tired to be taken advantage of. i wish for a peaceful and comfortable and clean life.
• i am not interested in any guy
• my professional life seems to be gaining more clarity now.. i'll just go with the flow.
• bro.... lack of hygiene is something that just pisses me off, like why can't you realize there's more people living with you wtf. don't be a lazy mf.
• i need to focus on losing weight again.. puff
• i have so many ideas for my bedroom. i painted 2 walls yesterday.. it was hard work but it turned out pretty good. at least i took a lot of the stained parts... meanwhile, my cousin saw me deep cleaning the room and couldn't get up to change his own dirty ass sheets. anyways i'm going mad mad soon..
• i don't like to be away from music. since i love it sooooo mmuch.
• i love my best friends; emely, iuri e kelvin.
• and my frenemies sometimes, i know what i'm talking about.
• i think i'm getting braver and braver. i am very proud of myself in some small accomplishments.
  • not gonna lie i'm hangover. taylor's album leaked and is pure shit. it surprised me but in a bad way. like wow.. however, shes gonna make so much money bc of her minions\ time to listen to real real music.
• i do not like the way my father talks to me sometimms.

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